Three Of A Kind

I miss U both! :(

2010-05-27T03:29:00.003+08:00

Hye readers!

This is the first entry for 2010 since I couldn't get along with this thingy before!

I do miss my besties..HANA n ZAFIRAH..Where r u guys?

Setau sy, angah da nk grad..hana stil kt umh n I??Still at this foreign place! Urgghh..

I feel so bad when it comes to this foreign place..I don't have besties like Hana N Zafirah..Pulak tu my soulmate 500km away from me..No fun, No malls, No parents here..sob2..

Ble sy boleh balik??En. Aziz, please tlg sy secepat mgkin..I need to go home..I miss my family and pets badly..

The problem now is..I don't know how to run the SPSS software expertly! I don't have a pinch of idea pun about inferential n all that..huh! Sbb dlu masa research methodlogy class sy sgt main2! Padan muka aku..No wonder I got B- oni for research method sbject..Plzz guys..Can u help me?

Angah? Have U used the software before?If U did, do tell me how..OK?
I'm waiting for ur 'research methodology class' to be started taw angah..;))

Nk tdo lah..penat mlayan respondent n mncari respondent..tomorrow am gonna meet Cosmopoint principal for the sake of the feedback letter N my fyp..

Nyte all..
Love, Malya_10

Sick and Tired

2010-01-11T16:03:00.001+08:00

I am just so SICK and TIRED with normal guys.

Gosh! I need a MAN!!!

I need a one FINE MAN!

shoot!

xoxo

Cuti Saya Cuti

2009-11-23T20:51:00.003+08:00

Saya tatau lah. Saya rasa seperti nak marah orang. Kenapa? Sebab orang tak faham keadaan saya. Tak faham apa? Tak faham yang saya ni ada tanggungjawab kat FAMILY saya. Macam mana? I have two little brothers to take care of. My parents are never ending busy. Ke sana ke sini. Saya kena menjaga makan minum adik-adik saya nih. Ingat saya tak nak keluar ke pegi tengok wayang segala? Saya nak sangat-sangat. But saya sedar yang saya ada tanggungjawab. Adik saya yang sorang tu sangatlah mengada tak nak makan makanan luar, so saya kena masak untuk dia. Yang lagi sorang tak habis-habis ajak saya tengok wayang. Tapi mak saya pulak tak habis-habis suruh saya buat tu buat ni. Nak marah or bantah tak boleh. Tu dah memang tanggungjawab saya sebagai seorang anak. Saya kena tolong mak saya. Yang buat saya marah nye, orang-orang yang tak faham nih. Yang sibuk nak message saya 24 jam. Saya malas lah nak reply. Yang ajak keluar lain pulak. Bukan saya taknak keluar. Okay, mungkin sebelum cuti saya ada cakap boleh keluar dengan orang-orang yang berkenaan. Tapi mana lah saya tau bila dah cuti jadi macam ni. Saya sibuk tolong packing barang abah, kemas rumah dan sebagainya. Ingat saya seronok ke? It's my freakin' holiday guys! I want to sit back and relax. But I can't! I want my own freakin' time! But I can't. Please la faham. Ingat saya ni tade keje lain ke nak keluar je? Saya bukan tak nak keluar. Saya mengaku, saya mungkin bole keluar tapi hanya untuk jangka masa yang singkat. Kalau nak keluar sangat dengan saya, jom, kita keluar pegi makan then terus balik. Nak? Mesti tak nak kan? Mama saya nih seorang ibu yang sangat lah risau akan keadaan anak-anak nya. Kalau saya keluar pukul 2 petang, pukul 7 saya tak balik lagi, mula lah dia risau. Biasalah, mothers. Ingat saya tak nak ke pegi bercuti. Saya nak bercuti jugak sebab this might be my last holiday. Next semester dah final semester. Then kena pegi practical and insyaAllah if murah rezeki, dapat keje I have to work pulak. Haihh. Tolong lah faham. Saya bila dah penat kemas rumah masak semua, mood nak keluar pun tade tau tak? Saya penat la. Tolong la, saya bukannya suka-suka tak nak keluar. Sepanjang cuti ni, saya asyik pegi jusco je. Banyak sangat barang nak kena beli. Saya rasa orang kat situ pun dah cam muka saya nih. Haihh. Saya tak tau lah nak cakap macam mana, bila orang tak faham, tu la yang membuatkan saya malas nak melayan. Menyampah pun ada. Annoyed tauuuuuuuu.

xoxo

Waffy yg Potex!

2009-11-18T22:25:00.003+08:00

We were on our way back from Aunty Nordzie's house and heading to Waffy's French class in Jalan Gurney.

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Waffy : Angah Waffy rasa nanti hari Friday Waffy nak bawak camera la g skolah. Ye lah, friday kan hari last skolah.

Saya : Oh Okay, bawak lah. Eh, tapi mana ada camera. Camera mama, mama bawak. Kan mama nak g PD this friday.

Waffy : Waffy nak pinjam camera Angah la, boleh?

Saya : Boleh je. nanti charge la.

Waffy : Okay, nnt Angah bagi charger.

....few minutes later...

Waffy : Eh, tapelah Angah.

Saya : Nape pulak?

Waffy : Malu pulak Waffy nak bawak g skolah. Camera Angah kan ada bedazzled.

Saya : Potex lah Waffy!

xoxo

Nothing much....

2009-10-25T15:35:00.003+08:00

I know I shouldn't be doing this. But, I'm just so tired of studying, Like I study alot lah kan, padahal buat revision x sampai half an hour, da penat, g kacau orang sana sini. I don't know how should I say this. But right now, what I am feeling is a mixture of feelings. First of all, kesian blog ni sebab da lama tak di update and I am very sure takde siapa pun baca blog ni dah. Hahaha. My first paper will be on 27th Oct. Very soon ayye? Haihh, sangat malas nak study ni. Kadang-kadang rasa marah, kadang-kadang rasa kesian, kadang0kadang rasa bengang. Entah lah. Penat tau tak? How I wish I could go some where yang orang lain tatau and be on my own. How I wish! Penat melayan kerenah orang. Penat nak puaskan hati semua orang and end up kita yang sakit. Sangat-sangat penat! Penat dengan orang yang tak faham kita. Penat dengan orang yang pentingkan diri sendiri. Penat dengan orang yang tak nak faham kehendak kita. Kita pun ada kehendak jugak. Kita pun ada rasa nak itu nak ini jugak. I am just so freakin tired! I really really am! I just need my own time. I need a 'me time'. But why I just can't get one? Why are all these people keep on doing things to me? Why? Dear God, I'll take these as my challenges. But till when do I have to face them? Sometimes I just kept on asking, why me? Why not anyone else? I know it's not a good thing to do. But I am just a normal human being and I want to live a normal life and sometimes I think that my life is abnormal. Why???? Haihhh. I know I shouldn't be complaining about things. I am just so thankful to have people who loves me around me. I do feel blessed. Bila saya tengok orang lain happy with their loved ones, saya jealous. Saya tak tahu kenapa. It's not that I am not happy, I am happy, tapi biasalah, manusia, tamak. I just don't know what to say anymore. I hope this feeling will end soon, very very soon. Dear God, please make me stronger. I know I have to be strong. I really need the strength. InsyaAllah I will never give up. My friends, I miss you very very much. I really need you right now. There's alot that I need to tell you guys about. I really hope we can meet.

xoxo

Katak dan Hujan

2009-09-28T11:29:00.002+08:00

Katak panggil Hujan tapi Hujan tak turun.
Kenapa?
Katak perlukan Hujan, tapi Hujan tade.
Mungkin Hujan sudah bencikan Katak dan tidak mahu lagi menemani Katak.
Yea, mungkin begitu.
Terima kasih kepada Hujan kerana sudi menemani Katak selama ini.

xoxo

A little of something

2009-07-22T14:38:00.002+08:00

Students In Free Enterprise or as we call it SIFE.
I've been busy with this SIFE thingy for the past 3 months, going back and forth from Ampang to Bangi and also from KL to Muadzam. Some people said that I am wasting my time with all of this stuff. When they asked me, what did I get by doing all of those, I will just smile. But, now, let me tell you, what did I gained from all of that.
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Well, to be frank, yeah, sometimes SIFE do pissed me of. Especially when it comes to time. They do not have the word PUNCTUALITY in the dictionary of their life and that really pissed me off.
But to think from the other side, it taught me how to be patient. Sangat menguji kesabaran..
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Friendship. There's always a time when you will realize who your 'friend' really is. So, as for me, I think I have come to that point. I have now realize few things bout friendship. My whole life, I've met lots and lots of people. All kind of people. And now, this particular friend of mine, has shown me, who this person really is. I am so grateful that SIFE has shown me your true colours me dear 'friend'. I still can accept you as a 'friend' but I don't think that we can be that close anymore. But wait, are we that close actually? Hrrmm, I just don't think so. Well, what you've done to me, I forgive you. I do not know whether to consider you as my bestie or not, because I just don't trust you anymore. I just can't. I'm sorry dear 'friend'. For me, there's only one thing you should do, you've not just hurt my feelings, but also the people around you. Just one thing, please, STOP PRETENDING! I know that you're kind, good and all that. But at times I just don't feel like you're doing it because you want to. I just don't understand you. What actually do you want from us. What actually are you thinking. Why do you hurt us? Why must you do that? Why do you have to be somebody else in front of everyone? Why do you have to deny the facts? Why do you have to choose someone that you just know for 2 months than your own friends that you've known for 3 years????? WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SUCH A HYPOCRITE????? Just stop pretending and be yourself. We're totally sick of it. Please!
But apart from that, I also met few people that are interesting, and motivating. Thanks to those who is always supporting me without fail. Thank you very much.
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Okay, bout the competition. There were 2 competitions. SHELL BETTER WORLD COMPETITION 2009 and SIFE MALAYSIA NATIONAL COMPETITION 2009. We won the 1st place for SHELL BETTER WORLD COMPETITION 2009. As for the national competition, we didn't get the 1st place but we made it to the final four. Maybe it's just not our time yet. Maybe Alah wants to give us something better than the 1st place. Everything happens for a reason. I was upset yesterday. I'm feeling better now. I do not want to think what had happened just from one point of view. For me, from the other point of view, SIFE has actually changed me and make me become a much better person. I used to be so afraid of talking in front of hundreds of people. But, finally, I did it. I managed to talk in front of hundreds of people. I'm so glad that I decided to join SIFE and be a speaker. To Kak Nad, thanks for training me. I know I'm not perfect but yet, you've taught me alot. Thank you very very much!
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I am happy and glad that the competiotion is over now. I am no longer going back and forth to bangi anymore. Ayong and Raffy are back. Ieqa and Mama will be back in 2 weeks time. Can't wait to see them. Yes, SIFE taught me a lot of things. And I shall remember those til the day that I die.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Somebody's Me

2009-07-16T12:39:00.002+08:00

You, do you remember me?

Like I remember you?

Do you spend your life

Going back in your mind to that time?

Because I

I walk the streets alone

I hate being on my own

And everyone can see that

I really fell

And I'm going through hell

Thinking about you with somebody else

Somebody wants you

Somebody needs you

Somebody dreams about you every single night

Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely

Somebody hopes that someday you will see

That Somebody's Me

How,

How could we go wrong

It was so good and now it's gone

And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross

And what we had isn't lost

Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

Somebody wants you

Somebody needs you

Somebody dreams about you every single night

Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely

Somebody hopes that someday you will see

That Somebody's Me

You'll always be in my life

Even if I'm not in your life

Because you're in my memory

You,

will you remember me

And before you set me free

Oh listen please

Somebody wants you

Somebody needs you

Somebody dreams about you every single night

Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely

Somebody hopes that someday you will see

That Somebody's Me

Song: Somebody's Me - Enrique Iglesias

I really like this song. Currently addicted to this song. Thanks to krul for introducing me to this song. X)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

saya pening

2009-07-01T01:54:00.002+08:00

Dah lama saya tak update blog ni.

Been meaning to update but I just do not know what to share. Life has been quite dull for me I guess for the past few months. Actually I'm in the middle of completing my speech for the competition. But I'm lack of ideas. I do not know what to talk about and I do not know how to make my speech sounds great. Haiihh.. I really need help! I've been quite busy these days. Been going back and forth to Uniten Bangi. Hope its worth doing that. Huhu. I am just so tired right now. Been doing alot of thinking these days. Terlalu banyak yang difikirkan.

Sebenarnya saya baru sahaja lepas bergayut kat telefon dengan seorang sahabat saya yang boleh dikatakan agak lama tak contact atas sebab-sebab yang tak dapat nak dielakkan. Rasa cam best pulak bersembang. Banyak benda yang nak diceritakan. Hahaha. Apa2 pun, saya rindu kamu, kawan! XP.

Oh ya, SIFE National Competition will be in 2 and a half weeks time. The competition will be on 19th July til 21st July. Wish me luck! ^^.

Tiba-tiba sejak akhir-akhir ni saya terasa rindu pada seseorang. Seseorang yang pernah saya rapat dulu. Dah lama saya tak jumpa dan bercakap dengan beliau. Sebelum ni saya tak pernah pun terfikir sangat pasal beliau selepas apa yang jadi antara kitorang akhir tahun lepas. Tapi, sejak saya agak rapat dengan salah seorang kawan beliau ni, saya teringat kat beliau. Apa khabar beliau sekarang eh? Saya tatau nak cakap apa yang sebenarnya saya rasa sekarang ni. Mungkin saya konfius. Mungkin saya sebenarnya dalam dilema. *no matter what i do, all i think about is you..lalalala..*. Mungkinkah saya menyesal?? Oh tidak!! Saya tidak sepatut nya berfikiran begini. Life is all about making choices and taking risks. Tapi hakikatnya saya rindukan beliau!! Tapelah, saya doakan supaya beliau sentiasa happy and berjaya. ;)

Saya juga sebenarnya tak sabar nak tunggu kepulangan orang-orang yang saya sayang. Cepatlah pulang wahai Cik2 saya. Hehe. Bolehlah kita spend masa bersama-sama. Hari tu tak cukup. Huhu.

Okay lah, saya pun da ngantuk, speech tak siap-siap jugak. Haihh. Habis lah saya jika terus begini.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Suddenly..im upset. :(

2009-06-02T14:15:00.002+08:00

I dont know why.
All of sudden i feel so lonely n upset.hurm.Maybe sbb xdpt join my girls(hana n zaf) spend tyme togetha.My mom went for a course, so, ive to take care towards my lil' sista.So annoying! heh.

I promise to meet up u guys in Malacca next July!
Sgt2 rindu to have a memorable moments, laughter and chit-chat all the times.
Ble igt telatah hana sy gelak sorg2..She is so makcik.haha kuat pelupa.Short term memory kowt.haha
Ble igt angah n her story, rse mcm nk jmpe skarang. Gosipping and crita2 mcm2 yg panas2..haha
U're guys so meaningful to me n i couldnt find anyonelse like You.
U must always update me and so do i.
I wont never breaking up our 5 years friendship.
Love You.

-Malya-

im back!

2009-06-01T21:19:00.002+08:00

hey friends!

Im back with a new me and d latest stories. It's been ages i didnt write anytin or update myself on any post. Sebabnya, my room kt Uni cant be connected to the internet at all. So, i dont have an oppurtunity to write or even update my Fb or Friendster. Rase mcm kuno gle kan my Uni. Sgt la xbest.hurm..

UPSET
Last week, my exams's result was announced. Im the one who really2 scared of it. But then, mmg xsabar nak tau. I was checked my result via the net and i was so shocked! It didnt turn out so well.I feel so so upset because didnt achieve my targets. Memang 3. ++ tp still cant achieved dean lists!! After finished up all exams, i was like sgt2 confident and i know, ill get dean lists. But im still didnt get it.Sigh. Sedih mmg la sedih. Tp nk wat cmne. Maybe it's not my rezeki yet.

HAPPY
It has been few weeks aku di rumah. Wat sume keja umah and ive been paid by abah. Tu yang seronok tuh.hehe but ive just been paid for two months oni b'coz ive another commitment to be done. By 18th June, ill be going back to the foreign land. That's d place where i must graduate in flying colors. I dont give a damn on it. I must finish up my another 2 years course there! I planned to continue my studies after this. Yet, i dont hve any idea where should to go to. Sume org balik lambat ok! 4th July. But ive to get there earlier bcoz of music camp. Yes. That's one of my fav and fulfill my co-curiculum activities. tp,napelaaa tyme cuti.hurm. XSUKE2!
It spoilt my mood tau. Dahla nnt trus blaja..I dun have much time to rest dah.haish.Ni sume sbb show for convo. For this time being, i need to relief all the stresses before another depressed coming up upon the pack schedule and hectic condition. Btw, im still enjoy for what im gonna do and dont want to spoilt my music's spirit. ;)

LOVE
Yeah.. Im in love. He is differ from other guy and he has somthin that attracted me to him. He is not that handsome man like ppl gonna crazy into it. But he has 'handsome' style and aura to me. He wasnt too socialize to girls but he is so friendly. Maybe bcoz of he was ex-MCKKian that we've known there is no girl at all in that school except for the teachers. TETAPI, he is so close to me as in im his gf. hehe. He is always there for me. When im down, when im happy. He is always by my side. He is my really soulmate and best2 friend. We share everything. He never let me down but im the one who make him down sometimes. Im sorry dear.
He has finished his degree and will be graduated this coming convo. I feel like losing someone becoz i dun have anyone that close to me to share my probs or anytin in Uni. And now, ive to be an independant woman and do anytin by my own feet. Sometimes, rase bagus jugak sbb i can give full concentration on my study and no more day dreaming. He knows what i want and i know what he wanted for us. For the sake of this relationship, i wont let him go and ill try my best to accompany him. To my dear bff, HANA and ZAFIRAH, ill do the same thing 2 u guys as well. I'll try to be with u wherever u need me. This is the truly meaning of Love..:)

2009-04-09T19:14:00.002+08:00

i cant believe hw fast things change.
but somehow i've decided to just move on with my life.
completing my studies wif DESIRED cgpa and that's it!
thanx to malya for your phone calls and messages which helped me a lot!
thanx to my dearly boyf who has always been there whenever i needed him esp when i was down and needed someone to lean on.
angah and malya, am missing u guys like hell.
i just want u guys to noe dat i cud nvr find someone who can replace u guys.
i've learnt something precious here, i mean living here has taught me a lot of things dat i shall nvr regret.
i believe dat God has determined the best for me.

Yeay!!

2009-04-02T13:19:00.001+08:00

Exams over! Yeayyyy!!!!! But still x bole balik. Have to go to Felda tomorrow morning for Bihah's project. Will be going back on Saturday insyaAllah. Can't wait to go back! France, here I come! =P

x0x0

-zafirahrosland-

Happy Birthday Dear Sister

2009-03-28T11:31:00.003+08:00

This entry is specially dedicated to my beloved sister, Liyana Rosland.

Dear sister,
Do you still remember when we were small, we used to stick together? Do you still remember how Abah and Mama always bought us the same clothes, toys, watches and almost everything that we had when we were small were the same except for the colours. Oh! I miss the good old days.

I miss you dear sister. I miss celebrating our birthday together like we used to when we were small. I miss celebrating my birthday with you and with the rest of the family. I miss celebrating your birthday and I miss celebrating Ieqa's, Raffy's, Waffy's, Abah's and Mama's birthday. I miss those moments. I miss us.

Things are different nowadays. We can hardly be together, go out together, shop together and gossip together. It's because of the distance that we are in right now. But no matter how far we are, we are still sisters. You will always be remembered in my heart and soul.(Macam ayat utk bf pula. =P).

Having a sister like you is like having a bestfriens that I can't get rid of. I know that no matter what I do, you will still be there for me. Thanks sis. You are the part of my childhood that I am very sure will never be lost. When Abah and Mama don't undertand, you always will. I am so thankful to have a sister like you. It was nice growing up with someone like you, someone to lean on, someone to count on and also someone to tell everything to. You are my mirror, shining back at me with a world of possibilities. You are my witness, who sees me at my worst and best, and loves me anyway. You are my partner in crime, my midnight companion, someone who knows when I'm smiling, even in the dark. You are my teacher, my defense attorney, my personal press agent, even I shrink. Thanks alot sister!

Happy 23rd birthday my dearest sister. Enjoy your special day. Have a blast! May Allah swt bless you always and all your dreams come true. May you find the perfect man to be yourn perfect husband, perfect friend, who can take care of you, accept you for who you are and be with you through thick and thins. Cepat-cepatlah kawin! Semoga dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki. Berjaya dan bahagia dunia dan akhirat. I love you so much. I miss you like hell lah. Can't wait to see you!

"Sisters annoy, interfere, criticize. Indulge in monumental sulks, in
huffs, in snide remarks. Borrow. Break. Monopolize the
bathroom. Are always underfoot. But if catastrophe should strike,
sisters are there. Defending you against all comers."
XOXO
-zafirahrosland-

2009-03-18T21:00:00.002+08:00

Hey there.

I've been abandoning this thingy for quite a long time. Been very very busy with stuffs. Ouh yeah, Abah, Mama and Waffy are back. Sangat sangat bahagia. My finals are next week. I'm not sure whether I'm fully prepared or not. got loads f other stuffs coming up and i'm becoming stress and stresser(is that a word?). Yeah, whatevs.

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March 24th

Management Information System.

--> i dont really like this subject. About those IT thingy. Saya ni buta IT okay. I really hope I can jawab those soalan yang bakal keluar dengan jaya nya.

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March 26th
Macroeconomics.
--> Need to study balik apa yg dia ajar. Cuz the lecturer also ajar dlm keadaan kelam kabut cuz x cukup masa. Yeah. sem ni sangat banyak cuti.

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March 27th.
English.
--> Saya tatau apa yg akan masuk and saya tatau nak study apa untuk subject ini. HELP!!

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March 28th.
Research Method
--> One of the killer subject. Apa yg diajar, xkan keluar dalam exam, apa yg tak diajar akan keluar. So, saya sangat risau. =S

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March 31st.
Management Science.
--> Killer subject. Saya seorang yg gelabah dan cepat panik. So, saya akan gelabah bila nak buat soalan and end up saya tak dapat jawab. Thats why I hate maths!

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April 2nd.
Human Resource Management.
--> My fav subject. Sangat berharap dapat score.

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No gab from 26th til 28th. Saya sangat takut dan risau. Please pray for me. Wish me luck for my finals.

Ouh yeah, I just can't wait! Will be going to France on April 13th til May 12th. Bole g sebulan je sbb beli ticket murah. Huhu. Never mind, janji dapat pegi. Sangat2 excited. Can't wait to see my sisters n brother.

Need to sambung my revision. Please pray for my success.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

MISKUZA

2009-02-20T08:32:00.002+08:00

Feels like updating this blog although I don't have much to say. Abah, Mama and Waffy will be arriving on the 1st of March. Really can't wait to see them. Will have to wait few more months to meet my sisters and Raffy. Never mind, I'm sure it worth the wait. Ouh yeah, I am in the middle of a mission right now. Hehe. XD. The name of my mission is "MISKUZA". It stands for "Misi Kurus Zafirah". LOL. Please do pray for my success. I am trying my best to control my diet. I can't stand it. Perut saya buncit and it does not look good! Huhu. Do pray for my success eh? I want to look good in my graduation day photo (although it will be in July or Aug 2010, insyaAllah), I want to look gorgeous in my wedding photo too (walaupun ni lambat lagi, tapi saya hanya m'buat persediaan awal. =P)!

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

21 I am.

2009-02-12T10:56:00.012+08:00

I am officially 21! Heh. it was a big day for me. It started with a quite dull day and a not so good morning but it ended with a really great night for me. I was sick on my birthday night. Had sore throat and flu. I had a serious head ache that night. Feels like nak demam. I slept early that night but still I woke up at 12. My housemates woke me up and sang 'Happy birthday to u' for me. Really appreciate that dears. Love u lots. Got the 1st call from my beloved Hana. Thanks dear. Went to my lab class at 8. Then after that I did some revision for my exam at 3. Went for my tutor class at 6 and I have class at 7.30. And yeah, ada presentation jugak. Hows that? I hate my birthday. But, that was what I felt in the firts place. Bila class da habis, tiba2 Mizah cakap nak g toilet and I was like, "huh? okay, g la, I tggu u dlm kete". I was so not in the mood at that time. Suddenly she said, 'Yang, I takut la, gelap". Dengan muka yang kerek I jawab, "U nak takut ape? Bukannye ade pape", sambil berjalan dengan laju nya ke kereta. By the time I opened my pintu kereta, I heard a few people singing 'Happy birthday to u'. When I turned my back, there they were, with a cake for me. Hehe. Sangat lah teruja dan seronok. Huhu. I never thought of celebrating it because we were all busy with quizzes, exams and assignments. I just have to thank them all for these. And, the mastermind for this surprise, MR.BB (bntt besar). Thanks dear! <3. Thanks to Mr.BB, Yus, Samad, Eg, Nina, Nadz, Fara, Nana n Mizah. Love you guys lots n lots. *hugs+kisses*. <3. Here are some of last night's pics. =)

-Fara, Nadz n Yus-

-Mr.BB, Eg, Yus, Fara n Nadz-

-Mereka lagi. =)-

L-R: Samad, Eg, Yus, Mr.BB

-Us-

-Mr.BB n I-

-My presents-

These are the pictures during the bbq night on SIFE Open Day. They celebrated my birthday and also Didi's.

-Didi and I =)-

Thats all for now. =)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Hati saya sakit

2009-01-21T22:53:00.004+08:00

I do not know how to explain how am I feeling right now. But what I know is that it is a mixture of offended, angry and insulted. I felt offended by an opinion given by one of my classmate. A few weeks ago, we were given a few topics on opinion speech. The topics were Learning English, World Peace and the Quality of Young Graduates in Malaysia. We were given an assignment to write an essay based on the topic that we choose. As for my group and I, we chose Learning English. Okay, that was no what I wanted to talk about now.

:::

Actually I wanted to talk about one of my classmate that chose World Peace as his topic. Okay, that was an interesting topic to choose. After completing the essay, we have to present it in front of the whole class. So, today was his turn. His opinion was, there will be no world peace in this world. Okay, at first I wanted to accept his opinion. I know and I understand that it is hard for us to actually achieve world peace. But when he kept on talking about his opinion, I felt angry and offended. Why?

:::

1. Because he said that all humans are cruel. Well, mister, a bit of correction there. Not everybody in this world are cruel. When you say everyone in this world is cruel, you are pointing at yourself too.

:::

2. He also said that, 'don't ever dream of world peace'. He was talking about Nakhbar Palestine (I'm not sure whether that's the correct spelling, Sorry if the spelling is wrong.) that happened about 60 years ago. He said that nobody did anything. So, till now, the Israeli are still doing the same thing to the Palestinians and still we did nothing. Because we are cruel. Oh man, you got that wrong. You might not see what others did because you did not do the same thing. You might say people are wasting their time by doing things and end up nothing happened, the war is still on and what ever it is. You said things like that, because you never did your part. We, here, have done our parts. At least we did something for them. We helped them. Encik, tolong tu tak semestinya kita kena pergi berperang sekali dengan diorang. Sangat banyak cara untuk tolong diorang. Kita bersuara, kita sign petition, kita boycott barangan Yahudi, kita derma kat tabung untuk Plaestin. With those things, they actually menolong sedikit sebanyak.

:::

3. You said that people are wasting their time by signing those petitions and when our PM send that thing to US, they rejected it. I don't feel that thing as a watse of time. Don't you know, dengan cara tu, bila ramai dah bersuara and so on barulah Israel berundur? (Do correct me if I'm wrong).

:::

4. You also pointed out that we Malaysians are so proud with what we have. But we did nothing with those things. You mentioned about the new jet, I can't remember what was the name of the jet. Starts with S something something. And yeah, I can remember clearly you mentioned about the new submarine. Hello mister? Did you know yang the submarine is still in progress? Memanglah submarine tu dah siap, tapi bukannya boleh guna terus terus macam tu je. Still need nak train lagi nak test semua benda lagi. Macam if nak beli kereta baru la, kena test drive dulu. Bukannya baru keluar dari kilang dah bole terus pakai macam tu je. Dude, do think before you nak cakap apa-apa. Jangan cakap pakai sedap mulut je.

:::

5. You also said to those who did not agree with you, please wake up and be realistic. There's no such thing as world peace. I am awake right now and I believe that you are not rationale. Anda cakap ikut sedap mulut je. Sekurang-kurangnya, saya ada menolong sedikit sebanyak daripada tak tolong langsung. Setidak-tidaknya saya tolong orang yang seagama dengan saya. Orang yang seIslam dengan saya. Awak tu? Apa yang awak buat? Awak bukan je tak buat pape je, awak siap pengaruh orang lagi untuk tak payah buat apa-apa. Saya bukannya nak berbangga atau bermegah-megah dengan apa yang saya buat, tapi saya sangat sangat marah bila awak cakap macam tu. Walau sebesar zarah pun awak tolong, biarpun orang lain tak nampak, tapi Allah nampak. Nanti bila Allah tanya apa yang awak lakukan untuk tolong orang-orang yang seagama dengan awak, apa yang awak nak jawab? Awak pengaruh orang supaya tak payah buat apa-apa? Huh. Walaupun saya ni taklah pious, tapi saya taklah sejahil awak. Saya tak pentingkan diri sendiri.

:::

From what you've presented, I can conclude that you actually know nothing but instead you act like you know everything. It is true that he who knows does not speak. He who speak does not know. That clearly represents you. For me, you are the one who should wake up and think rationally. Don't jump into conclusions easily. If tak nak buat, jangan ajak orang lain, and jangan sakitkan hati orang lain dengan kata-kata awak. Awak macam merendah-rendah kan usaha orang lain.

:::

I'm done.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland

30 days to go.

2009-01-11T09:57:00.002+08:00

Hey!!! 30 days to go till my birthday!! Oh I just can't wait! I'm turning 21. It's the key of freedom. Hehe. Is it? Nope, I don't think so. Well, for me, 21 means I'm getting old! But I can't wait to get old. Haha. Okay, enough bout that. Still have 30 days to go. But am excited! =P.

1. My parents will be coming back soon! Oh! I just can't wait! =D. They will be coming back by end of February, insyaAllah.

2. Got a lot of tests coming up. Let me see, errrmmm, there's,

a) Management Information System Quiz that covers 3 chapters this Monday(Jan 12th).

b) Management Science Quiz on Tuesday( Jan 13th)

c) Research Method test that covers 4 chapters on Wednesday(Jan 14th) at 1.00-2.00pm.

d) Macroeconomy quiz that covers 3 chapters on Wednesday too at 3.00-4.30pm.

I am so dead!

3. And yeah, it's 'his' birthday on Wednesday. My dear, am so sorry that your birthday falls on that particular Wednesday. =P

4. HANA and MALYA, am missing you like hell here. When can I see you guys? Ohh! ='(

Okay, I guess gotta start studying. I'm off to the world of reading! Hehe. =)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

2008-12-27T20:08:00.002+08:00

i hate dis feeling.
insecured.......!jealous.......!
u noe people, i went tru such a terrible experience about 2weeks ago.
ONE experience dat i cud never forget.
it all started wif a packet of milo ice.
i found out about dis ''nabila huda'' n i chose not to talk to him as much as i used to since then.
i pretended to be strong which was totally not as easy as i tot it was.
he kept on persuading and convincing me.
as planned, EGO!
no matter wut, DONT EVER FALL FOR HIS SWEET TALK!
dat was the policy dat i applied and it WORKED!
dis situation went on for a few days til i found out the truth fr my 2 friends.
argghh i made the biggest mitake ever by not trusting him!
stupid me!
i made him sick n i was the reason for him to be moody.
the 1st day i started the so-called 'war', he din sleep the entire nyte persuading me and asking why why why!
but me?
i chose to reply him entah entah and entah!
it must have been hard for him.
sorry!
n on the day i chose to forgive him, i mean after knowing the truth, there was one thing he said dat i cud never forget, "tak nak tido lagi sbb hati riang sgt"
i am glad dat today everything has changed to the way it used to be.
i am so thankful to have him back.
if there is one thing i cud ever ask for, it would definitely be this precious moment wif him.
i dont wana be the one who ends it n definitely not him either.

Update

2008-12-21T20:22:00.001+08:00

I've been meaning to update this blog, but I just don't have the right time to do it.
I was so super duper busy I guess. Got lots of things came up. So many things happened.

1. My new sem has just begun. It's my 2nd semester 2nd year everyone!! 2 more semesters to
go and I'll be out from here baby. Can't wait for that. Hehe

2. Nina's Orang Asli Project (SIFE). Novemeber 29th. Went to Rompin for that project.
A one day project but get a hell lot of experience. =)

3. Jelajah Integriti 2008. A collaboration with CSR Rebung (MRSM students) and also Institut
Integriti Malaysia (IIM). A 3 day program. From December 12th to December 14th. Met a lot of
interesting people. Seriously, they are 'INTERESTING'. =P

4. Netball interblock. Me? Netball? Hehe. We won the 2nd place. But that was not too bad aite?
Ingat senang ke nak menang? Huhu. A few minor injuries and a quite an obvious change on my
skin tone. =P

Okay, thats all for now I guess. Will update more later.

xoxo
-zafirahrosland-

2008-12-02T17:32:00.002+08:00

xkan la dah 18thn pn still xtau nk respect people.
my parents always reminded me to respect others when i was still a kid.
dis particular person made me thinkin the way her parents brought her up.
yeah i noe its a bit harsh.
am not blamin her parents but somehow, more or less, it did affect her, i mean the way she carries herself.
well dont get me wrong.i am not sayin dat am a well-brought up children but at least i still noe hw to respect others.
i never insisted or precisely, FORCED anyone to do sumthing for my own sake.
even if i had to i'll do it nicely, wif my own way.
asking if she or he is free for instance would definitely be my first step of asking someone's help.
not jz "akak, nnt anta kite pegi mc! akak, nnt bwk kite pegi pegi melaka mall!"
who does she think i am?
her driver?
hell no!
i hv to learn to say NO!
and YES I DID for a few times.
even my close friends will start by saying, "eh rs bersalah la nk mntk tolong", or "can u help me......u sure eh?sorry eh!"
well people, the way u ask for someones help does matter.
it really does!
try askin someones help by saying "wey, kau pegi amikkan buku tu." and "eh, boleh tak tolong amikkan buku tu?
see which one responds better.

2008-11-25T02:32:00.002+08:00

i am now a celcom X pax user.
yeay!
i wud hv changed to celcom X pax a long time ago if i knew about it earlier.
see hw "jakun" i am.
haha.
it has the best rates ever!

messages:
1/2 cent to 8 fav X pax users
1 cent to other celcom users
6cents to friends on other networks.

calls:
10cents/min to 8 fav X pax users
15 cents/min to everyone

see!very cheap kn?
say wutever u want.
jakun?kuno?ketinggalan zaman?or wutever u wana say.
but still, I AM HAPPY being one of the X pax users.
hahaha.
and the most important thing i get to msg him whenever i want w/o thinkin 'alamak credit da nk abis' since i jz registered him as one of my 8 fav X pax users and i dun have to spend rm10 per day just 4 my topup anymore.YEAY!

lets forget about dis X pax thingy.
i wana talk about someone who has stolen my heart dgn sepenuhnya.
chewahhhh!!!
i jz feel like blogging bout him.
if u dun like it, am sorry!

hes definitely everything that i want in a man.
he noes hw to make me happy and he even noes hw to make me feel jealous.
frankly speaking, i nvr knew the exact feeling of being jealous in a relationship since i've nvr been in a real relationship before.
but not til i met him.
hahaha.
and the best part is he gets jealous more than i do!
hahaha.
i like it when we both call ourselves ''pakcik'' and ''makcik''
it is rare u noe!
vr vr rare but i like it.
haha.
i like it when he informs me everything he does in a day eventho sumtimes i tend to get bored but i noe dat he does dat to show dat he thinks of me for all the time.*perasan nk mati*
i like it when he teases me.i dun find it annoying at all.
and i like it when he wans me to go hiking wif him everytime.he definitely makes me feel 'wanted.'
and yes! i like everything about him.
the way he talks, the way he smiles, the way he laughs and even the way he carries himself.

to the man : thank you for being apart of my happiness=)

Growing apart.

2008-10-29T17:52:00.005+08:00

Have you ever felt like you are about to grow apart from someone that you love? Well, yes, time change, people change. But how would you feel if that someone who is the one that is very dear to you? It's hard to accept the fact that the one that you love is growing apart from you and the person is changing. Today, I want to blog about someone that always have a special place in my heart and I can feel like we're now growing apart. Quite far apart.

What really is the main thing that cause this thing? Was it the distance? I don't really think the distance. Maybe you've changed. And yeah, people change. I am trying my best to accept the fact that you've changed completely. You chose to be who you are today. I guess you are not matured enough for the time being. Maybe it takes time. But, how long will it take? I'm afraid if one day, you are too late to realize that what you've done for all these while are useless. I don't want you to ruin your life. I don't want you to regret with what you've done.

To be frank, I miss you. I miss the old you. I miss the time when we used to sit together wth the rest and talk about everything. You were so dear to me. I've known you for my whole life. I cried for you when you were being scolded by Abah when you were small. I miss 'bangcik yang anak Mama'. I don't like the new you. I know that people change. But why do you have to change to be someone like this? I miss 'bangcik yg naive'. Oh! How I miss the good old days. I wish you change to be someone better because I have faith in you that you will be someone better. I am not saying that you turn out to be a bad person, but you've change alot through these years. It's like you are no longer my bangcik. It's like I don't even know who you are anymore. But, no matter how, I hope one day you'll realize this. No matter how and no matter what, you are still my bangcik and I'll always pray for your succes. =). And yeah, I will still love you with all my heart. =)

I know that I should be doing some revisions right now. Sorry mama, jap lagi angah study eyh. I don't know why but I miss my brother so much. I miss the old him. But then I have to acept the fact that he is no longer the old bangcik.

My next paper is on Friday (Oct 31st). Please pray for me. =)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

=)

2008-10-25T15:48:00.003+08:00

"Yesterday is a history,

Tomorrow is a mystery,

Today is a gift, a gift from God,

And that is why it is call 'present'."

Yes, today is a gift. We have to cherish everything that happen today. No matter what it is. We can remember that past but we can't live with the past. The past is a history to be remembered and not to live with. Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, but we have to concentrate our minds on the present moment. What ever that had happened in my past, I will still keep them as memories no matter how sweet they were and no matter how bad they were. And one day, I am sure when I look back to the past, I will smile because I know that what happened in the past and what is happening right now, are the things that make me what I am today. But, eventhough I want to move forward in my life, I may still have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, I have learn how to let go. I have to release the hurt, release the fear and refuse to entertain my old pain. I am trying my best not to live with the past. I have moved on with my life. Thanks to the people that never gave up on me eventhough sometimes I gave up on myself. Thanks to those who believe in me. Thanks to the people who is always there for me. Thanks for the advices. Thanks to those who had hurt me. Thanks for giving me the pain. The pain thought me how to be stronger. Thanks. To this one particular person, *thenameshouldnotbementioned*, I have moved on. Thanks for making me stronger. With every cruel intention you helped me find my indipendence. Thanks. =)

___________________________________________________________________

Ouh yeah, my finals are just around the corner. Will sit for my agama paper this Tuesday (Oct 28th). Wish me luck guys. Do pray for my success.

___________________________________________________________________

I am missing my family so much at the moment. How I wish they were here with me. Missing my sisters like hell and missing my little brother so much. Oh, I can't wait to meet them next year! Oh please let the time flies fast. =)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Fall for you

2008-10-23T17:40:00.002+08:00

The best thing bout tonight's that we're not fighting

Could it be that we have been this way before

I know you don't think that I am trying

I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath

Because tonight will be the night

That I will fall for you over again

Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended

I always swore to you that I'd never fall apart

You always thought that I was stronger

I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

Oh, but hold your breath

Because tonight will be the night

That I wil fall for you over again

Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

It's impossible

So breathe in so deep

Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep

And hold on to your words cause talk is cheap

And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night

That I will fall for you over again

Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night

That I will fall for you over again

Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

You're impossible to find.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

2008-10-20T20:47:00.007+08:00

i cant believe how fast time flies.

i am now 20.

20?

OMG!

i dun even feel like 20.

hahaha!

i just celebrated my 20th birthday on last tuesday.

bye bye to teen teen sound.

last birthday was my 1st time celebrating it wif my MMU peeps.

thanx to shoba who acted as the so-called 'surprise' party planner.

haha.

it was well-planned but shoba, too bad i knew it earlier.

haha.

nex tym jgn nk plan everyone pki same color baju eh.

2008-10-16T19:41:00.002+08:00

i am finally free.

hooooraayyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!

exams are finally over.

bye bye notes+cases!

=)

Happy Birthday to my dearest Hana

2008-10-14T00:14:00.005+08:00

Dearest Hana,
Happy 20th birthday
May Allah bless you always and may all your dreams come true.
Hope that you'll have another year filled with success and happiness.
Thanks for being a fab and great friend.
Thanks for being a good listener and being there for me when I needed someone to talk to.
Thanks for always supporting in whatever I do.
I just can't thank you enough for everything that you had done for me.
Hope you'll have a great day today.
Enjoy your day dear!

For a shield from the storm, for a friend, for a love to keep me safe and warm...I turn to you. For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on, for everything you do, for everything thats true, I turn to you.

Friendship is born at the moment when one person says to another, "What?! You too?! I thought I was the only one!" =)

Life is partly what we make it, and partly what is made by the friends we choose.

And I believe that I made the right choice. =)

Friends aren't jumper cables. You don't throw them in the trunk and pull them out for emergencies.

Hope you'll have a blast on your birthday!

I am missing you so much here.

How I wish I can be there on your birthday.

Enjoy your special day and hope you had a great one!

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Promise

2008-10-13T22:37:00.004+08:00

'I promise to be with you forever'

'I promise I won't leave you'

'I promise you will be mine forever'

'I promise I will never forget you'

' I promise etc, etc, etc...'

Those are examples of promises that we used to hear in our daily lives. To make a promise is easy. But to keep one is not that easy, right? Don't you ever promise anything if you can't keep it. Please, don't give hope to others if you, yourself will destroy that hope. I've learnt that never put high expectation on someone recently. Actually I've learnt that a long time ago. I remember once, my former class teacher, Pn Wan Norasmah told me to never put high expectation on someone. But I don't know why I still want to put a very high expectation on this particular friend. Hoping that whatever this friend say is true and that this friend will change and keep the promise that this friend had made. Sometimes I feel like I am so stupid to believe in this friend.

Yes my dearest Hana, you are absolutely right. Kawan memang ramai, untuk happy sama2 memang senang nak cari, but kawan yg boleh nangis same2 ngan kita bila kita sedih, susah nak cari. I am so glad that I have a few of them in my life. Thanks for always being there for me. You guys never made any promise to be with me forever or not to forget me but you guys are always there for me. I can't thank you guys enough for that. I really really appreciate every single thing what you guys had done for me.

I am disappointed, I am sad but I believe that everything happens for a reason. Now I know who my true friends are. I don't need those promises. I don't want any promises. I just need a real true friend who can share everything with me, who will always be there for me, who will never complain and who accept me the way I am.

I am right now trying my best not to believe in promises and not to make any promise anymore. Please don't make any promises if you know that you can't keep it. Don't give hope to others. It hurts when you don't keep the promise that had been made. I'm saying this to remind myself as well. Like what my sister always said. karma is a bitch, it will finally get u later in life. So, when the time comes, don't blame others.

To my deares Hana, Happy becoming birthday! Love u loads dear! I'll call u at 12 tonight.

Hehe

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

2008-10-12T04:03:00.002+08:00

its 4 in the mornin people.
but i stil cant sleep.
i dont even feel like sleeping.
not just yet.
this might be due to my sleeping disorder.
uwh yea!SLEEPING DISORDER!
i've been havin dis problem since a month ago?
a month or maybe more than dat.
i used to stay up til late in the mornin esp during last ramadhan where i used to sleep after sahur which was around 5 or 6.
i hate the fact dat i am now used to this situation.
ahhh!!!
i miss my former sleeping habit so damn much.
teratur!

and now am thinking of angah aka zafirah!
God knows hw much i miss her.
and i noe hw much she misses me as well when she texted me and sent me a testi.*perasan=)*
angah, i miss you mucho!

i miss TALKING to you.
i miss HANGING OUT wif you.
i miss LAUGHING OUT LOUD wif you.
i miss GOSSIPING wif u!
i miss being miss 'independent' aka adventurous.penang, remember?=)
i miss being ur so-called gf when u r driving.remember dis one?=)
i miss EVERYTHING about you my bestie!

i could never find someone like you anymore.
wut more could i ask for in a friendship?
you've given me everything dat i needed in a friendship.
am sorry for being tooooo 'busy' and am sorry for not updating much bout myself.
we'll get everythin back to how it used to be ok?
if i were given a chance to make a wish, i wud wish to spend at least one day, one whole day to be wif u without no distraction or interruption AT ALL to share our stories, a to z and every single thing.
I MISS YOU!!!
=(

-hana-

a little bit of update

2008-10-10T22:09:00.000+08:00

Hello there.

I was busy with stuffs, I guess today is the only day that I got the chance to update this thingy. Well, as you all know that I celebrated my raya in Singapore. Singapore was not that good actually for me. Heh. But the event that I attended was fab! Seriously. I was so inspired by the spirit that I saw from the participating teams.

I went to Singapore with Kak Nad (She's one of the SIFE Uniten's alumni), Abg.Sham (Kak Nad's husband), Kak Ju, Nini, Kak Dyla, Botak, Put and Zil. Didi and Suresh went with SIFE Malaysia. Kak Nad and Abg.Sham were our foster parents there. They took good care of us when we were there. Thanks to Kak Nad and Abg.Sham. We went there on September 30th at 11oo and we arrived there at 1600. We stayed at Fragrance Backpackers Hostel in Dunlop Street. That place was called 'little india'. Some sort like indian town. So, I'm very sure you can imagine how does that place looks like right? After checking in, we went out to find a place for 'buka puasa'. Since all of us had never been to Singapore, we do not know which place is the best to go. Then we found a banana leaf restaurant and we decided to eat there since waktu berbuka da sgt dekat. The food was okay I guess cuz I'm not a fan of nasi briyani much so I can't comment anything. Huhu. After that, we decided to take a walk and see what we can find in Singapore. We walked everywhere including Haji Lane, Arab Street, etc. But, Singapore was like so boring at night. It's like they don't have a life there. Sangat sunyi sepi. Most of the shops are closed. Hello?! It's only like 2130!! Adoi je la. After having a drink at one of the so called 'maple' at Haji Lane, we decided to walk back to our place. It was tiring.

Okay this was where the quite sedih part started. It was our 1st raya. We woke up quite early, had shower and so on. Then around 0815, we went downstairs to go to the mosque near our hostel. There was an Indian muslim mosque there. It was about 5 minutes walk to the mosque. When we arrived there, we did not see a single woman. All of them are men. Then, Kak Nad asked one of the men there, kat mana tempat solat org perempuan. Then that guy answered that women are not allowed to pray there during raya. They told us to go to another mosque. What?? Gila ke? As if kitorg tau je mana lagi satu mosque. Then they tried to find a room for us jugak so that we can pray there. But in order to get to the room, we have to rempuh all of the men there. OMG! Sangat sesak, sangat penuh dan sangat 'harum'. The room yg diorg bagi tu, sangat menyedihkan actually. I just do not know how to describe it. But the khutbah for hari raya was recited in their language and I don't understand a thing. Sangat sedih. After da solat tu, we went Kak Ju's aunt's house in Tempanise. We get to eat lontong there and some rendang. At least that felt like home. Huhu. After that we went to SIFE Cultural Fair. That fair was amazing. I really enjoyed it.

The competition starts on the 2nd of October. The final round was on the 3rd of October. The Canadian team, Indian team, Nigerian team and the Singaporean team get to go to the finals. The Canadian team won the competition and they really deserved to win it. They were great! Their presentation was the best and their projects were magnifique! their spirits were great. I pun tetbe bersemangat x tentu pasal bila tgk diorg bersemangat. Hehe
But whatever it is, I wanted to thank Didi for bringing me there. Thank you so much Didi. I've gained alot from that.

And yeah, kitorg x sempat g Sentosa Island. Too bad. But, never mind, at least I dapat something yg lagi bermakna from that. Hehe. Okay then, I guess thats all for today. Actually I wanted to tell you more, but not now, maybe some other time. I am missing my family so much right now. Miss my sisters sgt banyak. Miss going out with them. How I wish I was there with them. Haish.

Hope its not too late for me to wish Selamat Hari Raya to everyone!

xoxo
-zafirahrosland-

2008-09-25T21:52:00.007+08:00

happy us=)

gossiping=)

being free=)

the man=)

we were caught red-handed.=p

am not sure wut dis is.haha.

eyes on melacca

mesmerizing sunrise=)

last weekend was a total blast!

sunrise-eyes on melacca-melacca road tour[all in 6days in a row]

i really did enjoy myself to the maximum since i'll be having my finals after raya.

oh my!

White Lie

2008-09-24T17:23:00.000+08:00

Guy : Hye there. How r u?

Me : Hye, am fine.

Guy : Tgh buat ape? Raya ni balik mane?

Me : Baru hbs class, nak mandi jap. Raya ni I g Singapore.

Guy : Owh, u balik kg sape kat Singapore?

Me : Bf I.

Guy : Okay then.

Me : Okay.

Guy : Hrrmmm, sejak bile u ade bf? Nape i xtau pun? Nape u xgtau i?

Me : Errmm, dulu time u baru cple ng gf u, u ade gtau i ke? I dpt tau pun dari org lain. Ni kira bagus la u dpt tau dari i sndiri tau.

Guy : Hrmm, past is past. Sejak bile u ade bf? Cemana u bole knal dia?

Me : Errmm, cple baru lagi, knal da lama da. Dia satu U ng I.

Guy : Ouh, kiranya raya ni u balik kg dia ng family dia la?

Me : Yeap.

Guy : I org yg keberapa tau u da ada bf? Ape name bf u?

Me : I pggl dia baby. Cukup sekadar u kenal dia ng name tu.

Guy : Ouh, okay.

...Few hours later...

Guy : Zafiera, I da nak tdo da ni. Good night. Take care. I hope u will always be happy with ur baby. Sorry for everything n thanks for everything. Bye Zafiera.

This was what happened between this someone and I yesterday. Okay, first of all, I am going to Singapore this Raya (Yeay!!). Well, I am not going there with my boyfriend since I don't have one. I am going there for the SIFE World Cup Competition. I will be an observer for the competition and will be going there with the rest of the crew. Will be going on the September 30th till October 4th. And yeah, I will be celebrating my Raya there. Can't wait!! Hehe. About that conversation that I had with this someone, well yeah, I lied to him. I just have to! I want to some kind like get rid of him. He kept on disturbing me so I decided to lie to him by telling him that I already have a boyfriend. I guess that's the best way. He da ada girlfriend so I don't want him to disturb me anymore and I want him to concentrate on his girlfriend je. I don't know for how long do I have to keep this lie from him. But right now, I prefer to keep on lying to him so that he will not put any hope on me anymore. I'm sorry but I just have to.

xoxo
-zafirahrosland-

THANK YOU TO THE MAN=)

2008-09-23T03:35:00.007+08:00

i just cant forget everythin dat happened today!
too much of sweet memories.
fr his 1st time phone call to "cedok" tomyam" session to AIR-COND and to phone messages.

i was waiting for HIS YM reply when i received a phone call fr an unknown number.
i was damn freakin happy when i heard "eh ni fariss lah!ym problem lah.x boleh login plk".
OMG!
okay,he CALLED not to jz inform me dat but the conversation went on for about a few mins as if we hv known each other for 10years!

we went out for dinner and there goes the 'cedok' tomyam session.
he INSISTED on helpin me to put the tomyam in the bowl.
dat was gentleman enough for me.
hes definitely wut i hv been lookin for!

okay!
here comes the sweetest part ever.
i jz could not stop coughing on our way back after dinner.
it surprised me how caring he was when he turned down the air-cond shuttle and said 'eh batuk x boleh sejuk tau.'
and he made me promise to go get the medicine tomorrow.

as soon as i reached home something was tellin me to check my hp and guess wut?
i left my hp in the car.
perfecth hah?
i waited for HIS ym to inform him dat i left my hp.
and another unexpected thing happened.
he started our conversation in ym by saying

him :"eh sombongnye x angkat phone.haha."

me : eh bkn!hp tertinggal dlm kereta lah.adoi!

him : laa ptt lah x angkat hp td.jap.nnt tolong amikkan.tunggu dkt bwh nnt.

my instinct has never been wrong!
he tried to reach me as soon as he reached home.
he offered to pass me the phone and i said YES since i needed my hp badly.[alarm clock of course]
as soon as i gt my phone, i opened it and there were THREE messages from him and one missed call.
and one of the messages says 'smpi tertdo kte tunggu die'
oh my!
and yes! i could hardly breathe at dat moment.

thank you to the man who has made my today as the most perfect day EVER=)

2008-09-17T07:37:00.003+08:00

i never thought dat being attached to someone could be dis suffocating.
well not to say dat am really attached to dis someone but the situation itself is more or less like being attached to someone which i dont even noe how to explain.
and guess wut?
i just found out dat am the type of person who gets bored easily wif too much conversation in a day.
well i noe dat am supposed to be happy coz it shows dat hes spending his time wif me but AM NOT.
spending ALMOST 24hrs (which i only have about 7-8hrs for myself, when i sleep of course!) wif dat someone is really not a good idea.
and it makes me thinking twice or maybe thrice or maybe more than dat(100000x maybe) to have a commitment wif someone.maybe am just not ready for dat.
NOT JUST YET!
with all the complaints dat i've got from my housem8s dat am no longer HANA who spends most of the time chatting+gossiping with them, it makes me wana have a deeper thought of the need to have a boyf for the time being.
na! i don't wana be the type of person who forgets everything around him/her when he/she is in love.
am just so comfortable with the way i live my life at the moment.
am just gona wait for the perfect time to come.
and when it comes, i'll make sure dat am 100% ready to have myself devoted for a sacred thing called LOVE.
=)

I am so sorry

2008-09-16T01:06:00.000+08:00

Today didn't went really well for me. I am so tired today. Didn't sleep well last night. Went to class as usual. But I was a bit blur today. Okay, am lying. Not a bit. But I was totally and extremely blur. I don't know why. Maybe because I didn't get enough sleep kot.

Now, let me move to the worst part of my day today. Okay, actually today ade 'Hari Pidato Umum' for the pilihanraya for MPP. I was involved for the so called konvoi to support my friend, Sobrie, yang bertanding. That thingy started around 10pm macam tu la. Before that I went to Harmoni (Miza's house) to finish up our Psycho assignment. I went there after berbuka, around 9pm. Luckily we finished our assignment in half an hour. Yeala, satu soalan je pun yang kena jawab. Heh. Then Nadz 'sms'ed me, asked me to get ready to go to the wisma cuz we're kind of late. We were supposed to gather at wisma first then only konvoi to Bestari. So, I pun pegi lah. When I was on my way to Wisma, I hit a CAT. I didn't hit on purpose. Okay, I was driving a bit fast, because I was in a hurry. I didn't expect the cat nak lintas jalan at that time. All I know is that I da langgar the cat. At first I didn't know it was a cat. I thought tu biawak. Then lepas da sampai Wisma, I rasa xsedap hati and I asked Fara to teman me to go back ke tempat kejadian. Then bila tgk balik, it was a cat. A black cat. Terbaring kat situ. Poor cat.

Dear cat, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to do that. Seriously I didn't mean to hit you and kill you on the same time. I wasn't expecting that. I am seriously sorry about that. I didn't know that you were going to cross that road and I tak sempat nak mengelak. I am so so so sorry. I hope you can forgive me. =(

xoxo
-zafirahrosland-

Hoping for a better day

2008-09-09T22:44:00.000+08:00

"If you love something, sometimes you just wanna be surrounded by it."

It's true, right? Okay, first of all, I am so not in love at the moment. This is some kind like a quote that I got from watching 'Good Luck Chuck'. Heh. What I'm going to blog about today has nothing to do with that so called quote actually.

Have you guys ever come to a point where you feel tired of everything? I mean like EVERYTHING?? That is what I am feeling right now. I am so tired of everything. I'm tired of waiting, I'm tired of hoping, I'm tired of being sorry, I'm tired giving chances to people, I'm tired of trying so hard. I am just so tired. I feel like giving up everything. I don't know why I just feel like the strength inside me is fading away and it will be gone soon. Like very very soon. At times, I just feel like there's no point trying so hard, cuz things will just be the same when I am the only one who's trying so hard while the others act like they just don't care. Haish. I'm tired of some people who always think that diorang je yang betul and orang lain semua salah. I'm tired of some people who never think about others while others think about them. That is just so not fair. I'm tired of hoping and waiting. I'm tired of waiting and hoping for someone and something that won't be mine. I'm tired of being sorry for other people when they never felt the same way as I do. It is not that I ni berkira or what, but please, hello?! I have feelings too.

God, please help me to be strong again. I have to be strong to face everything. I have to be very very patient. I'm trying my best to be strong and to be patient. I hope things will be better tomorrow and onwards.

*missing my family so much*

xoxo
-zafirahrosland-

2008-09-08T18:42:00.003+08:00

thank you very much for giving me the "air" to breathe again.
i've forgotten you about weeks ago since u are 'TOO SLOW',real 'SLOW' and now u r back into my life w/o being invited.
its unbelievable how a phrase of "SELAMAT BERBUKA" could change everything, every single thing for TODAY literally.
oh my!
wif one great big smile on the face sayin 'selamat berbuka' directly looking at me w/o lookin at others, it leads to a conclusion of what we've been wondering n guessing for all this while.
haha!
but TOO BAD u dun have the courage just yet to concede, do you?
using third parties, giving signals, sending regards and stuff, those are too cliche!
i need a man, a real man, definitely NOT a boy who does not have the courage to confront me and look at me in the eyes and tell me dat he likes me.
is dat too much too ask?

Happy Birthday dearest brother!

2008-09-06T20:13:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to Waffy
Happy birthday to you.

Happy 11th birthday my dearest Waffy. You're one year older. 11 is not a small number anymore. You are getting bigger and bigger and obviously bigger than me. LOL. Wishing you the best of luck in whatever you do. May Allah swt grant you happiness, success and wealth. May Allah bless you always and I hope you had a great day today. Hope things will go the way you wanted to in your life. Jangan nakal-nakal. Dengar cakap Mama and Abah. Study hard and smart. Can't wait to see you February next year! Am counting the days. =). Missing you lots here. And ouh yeah, one more thing, jangan mengada-ngada dah, awak tu dah besar. Last but not least, love you till the last breath of my life. =). I'm so thankful to have a little brother like you!

"In every conceive manner, the family is link to our past, bridge to our future."

xoxo
-zafirahrosland-

2008-09-04T04:06:00.000+08:00

berbuka puasa today was a lil bit different than those past two days.
BBQ!
it was supposed to be awesome but it turned out to be not-so-great,in fact, DISASTER.
it was supposed to be OUR BBQ party?, session? or shud i say event?
ah wutever u call dat but it was NOT.
there were about 10 strangers, complete STRANGERS who were invited by airy's housem8s who have completely ruined everything.
they acted as if they were the ones who planned it.
to make it worse, they even came wif their tak malu and mengada-ngada girlfriends.
they din even pay a single cent or contribute anythin and they din even greet us AT ALL.
tapi makan more than us yang dah bertungkus-lumus prepared for the BBQ.
its not the matter of kedekut or anythin like dat but at least have a lil bit of respect.
anyways, towards the end of the party,event or wutever we call dat we decided to take over the "LIMELIGHT" back.haha.
and we somehow enjoyed the BBQ AMONG US, only US.

2008-09-03T18:47:00.000+08:00

Dalam kehidupan kita,

Allah akan bagi 1 peluang,

Untuk kita berjumpa dengan orang yang betul-betul menyayangi diri kita,

Sekiranya kita leka, kita akan kehilangannya buat selamanya.

Tapi kita tidak pernah tahu siapa orangnya,

Jika kita sendiri tidak pernah sedar dan tidak pernah mencuba untuk menilai kehadirannya.

Mungkin setelah segalanya berlalu dan kita dah kehilangannya,

Masa tu barulah kita mula sedar kehadirannya cukup bermakna.

Tapi mungkin kita tidak berpeluang lagi untuk memilikinya.

Jadi, fahamilah hati seseorang itu sedalam-dalamnya.

Curahkanlah rasa kasih sayang kepadanya seikhlas hati.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

2008-09-01T14:23:00.000+08:00

its the 1st day of RAMADHAN people.
i hope its not too late to wish you guys SELAMAT MENJALANI IBADAH BERPUASA.
semoga ramadhan tahun ini akan membawa seribu keberkatan dan menjadi titik tolak utk kehidupan yang lebih baik.
seperti biasa, ramadhan tahun ini di melaka lagi tanpa keluarga terutamanya mama dan ayah.
alangkah bagusnya sekiranya dapat menjalani ibadah puasa bersama keluarga yang tercinta.
teringat masa berpuasa ketika zaman kanak-kanak.MERIAH!
masa berbuka mesti berebut2 nak duduk paling dekat dgn makanan yang sedap.
chik lah org yang selalu jadi mangsa kena mengalah.
sebelum buka puasa mcm2 nk mkn.
dengar je ayah nk pergi bazar ramadhan bulat mata.
kadang2 tak semua makanan yang dibeli dimakan.
betul lah apa org kata selama ni, nafsu mkn masa bln ramadhan ni bertambah2.
lps habis je buka puasa kena siap2 nk pergi terawih.
bak kata ayah, "kalau xnk pergi terawih nnt duit raya pun kurang eh."
DUIT RAYA sentiasa menjadi satu insentif yang paling efektif.=)

well, that's all in the past. how i wish i cud turn back the time.*sigh*
anyways, SELAMAT BERPUASA once again.

-hana-

Selamat Berpuasa everyone!

2008-08-31T22:30:00.000+08:00

Okay, here it goes. First of all, I would like to warn you guys, this entry is going to be a not so good entry cuz currently I am so pissed off. But, before that, I would like to wish all the Muslim Selamat Berpuasa. May this Ramadhan brings keberkatan to all of us. To all the people in my life or had been in my life, sorry for words which my hurt and sorry for any of my wrong doings. Hope all of you can forgive me.

Okay, now, this is about the thing that pissed me off. This is about someone who I used to know. I knew him since January this year. Well, what made me pissed is that he told almost everyone, ALMOST everyone that I'm his EX-GIRLFRIEND! WTF? Okay, we were close back then, but I was never his girlfriend. He wanted me to be his girlfriend. I told him that I needed time to think about it first. We knew each other tak sampai sebulan pun then he terus nak mintak couple ng I. Gila ke? Sepanjang I kenal and cuba mengenali dia, I perhatikan everything about him. Then during my 3 months holiday, I decided not to accept him. Well, yeah it was kind of hard for him to accept it. But what can I do? I don't have feelings for him. I realized that he wasn't what I want and what I thought. Then bila masuk je semester ni, he da ada new scandal. That was so fast okay. But, yeah I don't give a damn. We're still friends as usual, it just that we don't go out together anymore. He did asked me to go out for dinner with him but I refuse. Like 10 times kot. I just don't feel like going out with him. I remember once, he called me. At that time I baru lepas hantar my roomate to the Wisma cuz she had an exam that day. Then we terserempak with this guy and his scandal. That evening, he called me. The conversation went this way:

Guy : Hye you, nape you drive laju sgt tadi? ***** **** baru nak tgk you.
Me : I ada class la tadi. Huh?! Dia nak tgk I? What for?
Guy : Yeala, dia nak tgk EX-GF I cantik ke tak.
Me : .....(wtf?!).....

OMG! Waddahell??? I don't know what did he bgtau that girl. Sepanjang semester ni, da dekat 100 kali jugak lah terserempak dgn diorg. But, I don't really care actually. He did call me few times to ask me out for dinner, but then I rejected all of his invitation. I always la jugak usik2 him bout his scandal. Like few days before, I accidently met him at the library while I was studying there with Mizah. He saw me studying there, then he came and we talked. But we didn't talk much cuz I was concerntrating on my revision at that time and I don't feel like talking to him actually cuz he was distracting me. When I went back to my apartment, he called. We talked on the phone like for half an hour. He asked me why susah sangat nak ajak I keluar sekarang ni. I cakap la I'm busy and so on, plus, he da ada someone yg he can ajak keluar makan, why should he ajak me lagi, right? Then, he started to deny things. He said that he tade pape with that girl la tu la ni la. OMG! Please stop that. I don't even care who you're with. Why do you have to keep on denying things? Benda tu terang jelas and nyata depan mata you are with that girl. Then you bole lagi nak deny things and you bole lagi nak cakap kat I yang you missed me la, you can't forget me lah. Then, you know, he bole cakap like this: " Antara I ngan you lain. Antara I ngan **** **** lain". OMG! Waddahell are trying to do man? Look, listen here, I don't give a s**t on who you're with okay. I don't have feelings for you and I'm not jealous. I am just so f***king pissed because you said things like that to me and about me. And, I f***king hate it okay? I don't understand why do you have to deny things padahal benda tu semua orang nampak. And, if you pegang2 tangan tu you bole cakap yang you tade pape. Duuuhhh, you mmg tak reti nak treat someone special eyh? Dengan semua orang pun you bole pegang2 tangan eyh? What a jerk! And yeah, you sangat hipokrit! Please stop saying that you can't forget me, I'm the only one stuck on your mind all the time, you missed me, and all of those stupid sweet things. I had enough of those okay? Please. I would be happier if you get out of my life! I am just so pissed and I hate you so much right now eventhough I know that I shouldn't hate you at time like this cuz esok da start puasa. But right now, I'm so sorry I just can't forgive you for that.

Sorry guys, I just can't stand it. I am so pissed right now.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

2008-08-29T12:46:00.002+08:00

some random pictures during CYBERP project.=)

Update update update

2008-08-28T23:13:00.000+08:00

Hey there. Da lama sangat x update this thing. Been seriously busy.I have midterm exams waiting for me tomorrow and also next week. Haish. Not feeling very well at the moment. Got flu and a quite bad sore throat. Sangat menyeksakan. I just don't know how am I going to sit for my exam tomorrow with this flu. It sure will disturb me. Wish me luck for my exam tomorrow guys. It's Managerial Accounting. =)

Well, thats not the exact reason why I'm updating this blog today actually. This entry is specially dedicated to one of my loved ones, Adilah Rosli. She'll be going back to the USA tomorrow(Aug 29th 2008). She was back in Malaysia for the summer holiday, around 2 months la jugak she's here. But, I only get the chance to meet her once. Well, that is much more better than never get the chance to meet her at all right? We were best friends since we're in Form 1. We're classmates till we're in Form 5. And yet, till now, we're still best friends! Thank God for giving me a chance to know a person like her. Eventhough we've went through quite alot of things, but yet, we are still best friends. Can't thank you enough for everything that you've done, dear friend! So, to Dla, take good care of yourself. Selamat berpuasa to you. Selamat Hari Raya in advance too. Hehe. Do keep in touch. Love u lots girl!

'I cannot even imagine where I would be today were not for that handful of friends who have given me a HEART FULL OF JOY. Let's face it, friends make life a lot more fun.' =)

x0x0

-zafirahrosland-

2008-08-23T19:53:00.000+08:00

*you are to be reminded dat dis is goin to be a long-dragging entry.

ow i miss this blog so damn freaking much.
i have not been blogging for quite some time.
i've been very buzy, i mean very very buzy for the past week.
EXAMS+TORTS ASSIGNMENT+CYBERP PROJECT+LAW SEMINAR
and today i am finally FREE and welcome back to my boring+lame+pathetic life which i have been living for almost 2 years (since i got here)

well, exams??
hope dat i did all the 3 papers well or maybe not to say well but okay.
yeah, OKAY is preferable here.
but it doesnt sound confident enough rite?
ah, WUTEVER!
jz hoping for the best result which will be out anytime soon!

procrastination is never a good thing to do.
last minute work is never a good one.
but am glad dat we finally completed our assignment in 3 days time.
but it was definitely not a good one, sekadar melepaskan batuk di tangga.
haha!

CYBERP PROJECT?
if u wonder wut dis CYBERP PROJECT is, let me give u a brief view of dis project.
it is a project where students have to gain profit by doing any business as long as u gain as much profit as possible.
i really had fun doing this project.
it was freaking awesome.
eventhough it was a lil bit tiring but it was all worth it.
u wana noe y?
our business was a blast, meeting new+great+fabulous friends and everythin went well, perfectly like the way we wanted it to be.
uwh ya, there i met these 4 wonderful kind-hearted people.
ARI, DEEBA, CONSTANT and EEL.
thanx for supporting and helping us throughout this project.
and yes, we are now friends and am glad dat i've found another 4 wonderful friends.
uwh btw, thanx, terima kasih yang tak terhingga to all of them.
last 2 days, i went through such a tragic and so NOT gona be remembered experience.
i had lost or maybe not lost but DROPPED my PURSE which i jz bought a week ago n there were cards,cash of rm600 for my rental and my other precious items (pictures of my family+friends)
OMG, trust me u dun wana go through dis experience.
it was awful.SERIOUSLY!
i wud not hv been as calm as i was without u guys.
eventhough we jz met but u guys sgt baik, in fact terlalu baik.
thank you so very much for helpin me to find my purse.=)

LAW SEMINAR?
ow i had a lot of fun being one of the emcees for the law seminar which was TODAY.
thanx to COLLIN ANDREW, the greatest+superb+wonderful partner ever!!!!!
thanx for helpin me to be a good emcee, just like you!=)
thanx for the "stories" which helped me to chill.=)
not forgotten,madam geetha, mr gary, ju-li, suria, ali and all committees which i cant remeber ur names but faces, YES!
thank you so much for your support.
u made me feel like being in a FAMILY.=)
i think i am no longer a stage freak.
yeay!!i've finally got over my fear!
it felt really good being one of the emcees.
i was a lil bit shaking at the beginning and kept tellin collin, "ow am scared, think am gona have to pee again" but am glad i made it.
and collin, everytime u said, "chill la hana, jgn takut!" with one big smile on ur face, it did help me,in fact, it helped me A LOT.
with all the compliments and credits to us, i am looking forward to have a second, third fourth and........time=)

and not forgotten, to DLA.
thanx for the wonderful weekend i had last week.
God knows how much i actually missed u girl.
u'll be leavin in a week time.
take care of yourself ok?
remember that our friendship does not have an end as it continues FOREVER!
i love you my dear friend=)

2008-08-11T19:53:00.000+08:00

remeber when i said dat "luck has never been on my side''?

now its a big "NO-NO".

there's still a room for me to be the lucky one.

yes i am definitely the lucky one.

the most luckiest one indeed.

thank you for making my day.

u'll nvr know hw much it means to me.

i am all delighted and inspired right now.[semangat nk exam besok.=)]

Ridan Hill IQ Challenge =)

2008-08-09T19:14:00.000+08:00

Bersama 'orang kuat' program. =)

I've never tried hiking before. Slalunya g jungle trekking je, but today, I went hiking. This event was organized by Persatuan Pelajar Islam (PPI), Uniten. And, the manager of this project is my housemate, Nadzirah. So, in order to support her project, I decided to join this thingy. Well, for sure it's tiring, but the fun that we had, mengatasi everything.

On the way to the puncak. =)

Keadaan kasut yang agak menyedihkan.

This program started last night, there was a briefing about what we're going to do and we were divided nto groups. And at 4.30 this morning, we did 'qiamullail' which I haven't been doing it for quite a long time. Huhu. So, after the qiamullail, kitorg gerak ke Kem PLKN Muadzam Shah cuz kat situ la start trek dia. Ridan Hill is not that far from our campus actually. About 5 to 10 minutes drive je. After having our breakfast, kitorg start naik.

Wow, mendaki sangat lah penat!! Rasa nak give up je mula-mula. Huh. But, I kuatkan semangat, and Alhamdulillah kitorg sampai jugak kat puncak Bukit Ridan. Huhu. Sangatlah lega bila da sampai puncak. By the time dah sampai puncak baru I sedar my so called 'kekasih' da buat lovebite kat I! Berdarah2 socks I. LOL. Nasib baik x sakit. =P. We did a few activities on the puncak. It was fun. Then bila da habis activities, kitorg gerak turun. Okay, sangat mencabar bila nak turun. Dengan keadaan my shoes yg tapaknya da nak tercabut, sangatlah sedih. But thank God, the tapak x tercabut. If x, memang I akan meninggalkan tapak lah kat situ. Hehe. Bila da sampai kat bawah, wow, lega x terkata. We had our lunch after that, then there was a prize giving ceremony. And guess what? My group was awarded as the 'Kumpulan Paling Cute'! LOL.

Lovebite from my so called 'kekasih', Mr.Pacat. =)

Mesti sebab ahli-ahli kumpulan kitorang nih cute-cute. =P. Sangat x bole blah. Hehe. Whatever it is, I'm happy today, I gained a very very special experience. At least, I pernah naik Bukit Ridan and I am proud of that, eventhough it is not Mount Kinabalu or what so ever mount it is, I'm still happy for that. =D.

Kumpulan Paling Cute. ^^

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

08.08.08

2008-08-08T19:08:00.000+08:00

Hey it's 08.08.08!

Nice date right? But too bad, nothing interesting happened today. I am not so happy anymore when I found out something quite bad last night. All of my happiness was gone in the nick of time. Heh, but, never mind. It's okay. I still wanna thank that stranger for making me smile. Heh. I'm not really in the mood today. This morning, when I went to my Agama class, Ustaz was talking about this family thingy and all that. Haish. I'm a bit sensitive when it comes to things like these. At times I just can't control myself from crying. I did cried a bit this morning. So what?

But what he said this morning, made me realized something. For 20 years I've been living in this world, but for only 12 years I lived with my family. The other 8 years were spent living with my friends. What he said was asbo-bloody-lutely true. I started to go to boarding school since I was 13, then after that I went to this place and after that, InsyaAllah I'll be getting married and for sure I'll live with my future husband and I will be having my own family. Then I'll be concerntrating on my own family. Without realizing it, the gap within the members in the family will grow bigger and bigger day by day. This happen to every single person in this world. But, I hope as time flies, the bond that I have with my family will grow stronger no matter how far I am and no matter who I turn out to be. No matter how and no matter what, my family will always be in my heart. That rhymes. Hehe. =)

I am missing my family so badly right now. How I wish I could be there with them. Hoping that they are in the pink of health and things are going the way they wanted to there.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Happy day. =)

2008-08-07T17:01:00.000+08:00

I AM SO HAPPY TODAY!!!

Its not my style to get all excited, but right now I really really like it and I just don't know why.

All I know is that I am very very happy today. Did you know that even the smallest thing that someone do for you will make you happy? I mean like totally happy? LOL. This thing happened to me today, and I am so happy. I can't even describe it in words! OMG! Okay, I don't even know who this person is but what this person did to me today, really made my day! Thanks alot to you stranger! Hehe. You can call me crazy, you call me anything. But, what I know right now is that I am happy. I just wanna thank this stranger for making my day and for making me smile the whole day today! And ouh yeah, not forgotten, berangan sikit la. LMFAO! Thanks once again to you mr.stranger. XD

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Makan buah day

2008-08-02T21:52:00.000+08:00

Today is Nadzirah's birthday.
Happy 20th Birthday my dearest so called cousin.
May Allah bless u always.
Hope U'll have the best in life and I hope that happiness and success will always be with u.
Love u loads.
Thanks for being a great friend!
Friends forever.
Sayang kamu sangat banyak!
*mwah*mwah*

I will consider today as my 'makan buah day'. Heh, I've been eating a lot of fruits lately. Since sekarang ni musim buah, so tersangatlah banyak makan buah and now I'm so la bloated. LOL. Last night Nina and I ate a big tupperware of durians. We finished it in one night. I'm not sure la ada berapa ulas dalam tu but yang I tau sangat la banyak. Then bila nak tidur, kami kepanasan. Haha. Today lepas lunch kitorg g hantar kereta kat car wash. Sementara menunggu kereta siap, kitorg jalan2 kat pasar. Then terserempak dengan Nina's uncle. Dia ajak dtg rumah dia untuk makan rambutan. We accept his invitation then kitorang g beli 2 kilos of manggis. Balik rumah je, kitorg rehat2 jap. Then terus hadap manggis tu. Sekali hadap je bole habis. Huhu. Sangat lah kuat makan kami ni. Da la 2 org je yg makan since Fara and Nadz are not here, diorang balik KL. Around 5 lebeyh, we went to Nina's Uncle's house. OMG, the rambutans are so tempting. Merah2 semuanya. I don't know berapa banyak yang I makan tapi yang pastinya sangat banyaklah. Sangat kenyang. Rasanya hari ni kenyang makan buah je. Huhu. We stayed at Nina's Uncle's house till 7.25 then balik dengan perut yang kenyang. Huhu. Thanks Pakcik! =)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

2008-07-31T18:11:00.000+08:00

i've been cursing too much for today.

being the unlucky one has never been my choice and as for today, i learnt a very good lesson, the useful one indeed.

"luck has never been on my side"

sounds pathetic?

HELL YEAH!!!

there is no one else to be blamed but ME, MYSELF, and I.

silly me for being such an idiot and an unreasonable human being on earth for those past few days.

padan muka!!!!!!!!!!!!

i jz have to accept the fact that its too late to regret.

i shud have realized this a long time ago.

*sigh*sigh*

praying and hoping for a better day tomorrow

Just for the sake of updating

2008-07-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

Just for the sake of updating. I've been very2 busy this week. I have 4 quizzes this week and I have assignments to submit. And ouh yeah, I have a presentation by end of this week. Guess what am I going to present about? Heh. WANITA DALAM ISLAM. OMG!. I feel like I am so la tak layak to present that title. Luckily that is a group presentation, so I don't have to stand in front of everyone alone. Heh. I have to admit it that this sem tersangatlah busy. Busy tak terkata. It's like everyone is rushing to do this and that. Even lecturers pun macam terkejar-kejar nak buat everything at one time. Pergghh, rase macam nak gila da. In 2 weeks time da start midterm exam. Rasa macam baru je register for this sem kot. Haish, tatau lah. Memang sangat busy la kan.

I am missing my family so damn much right now. I really2 hope that my family is here with me. I need my parents and I need my sisters badly. And yeah, I miss Waffy so much! Teringat pulak yg dia nangis before I balik sini that day. That day I mimpi Waffy. In my dream, dia macam tak terurus. Serabai gila. And he got lost in my dream. Then someone hantar dia balik. When I asked him dia pergi mana, he said that dia pergi cari baju raya cuz raya da nak dekat. When I woke up from my sleep, I cried. I guess I miss him so much. Too bad this year I have to celebrate raya on my own again. Haish, I started to hate raya since I was 17. I just don't like the feeling. Celebrating raya all alone. Eventhough I balik kampung but still, Abah and Mama are not there. Ayong, Ieqa, Raffy and Waffy are not there. I didn't even get the chance to salam Abah and Mama on the 1st day of raya. For almost 3 years I didn't get the chance to do that. And for those 3 years I hanya tgk my cousins buat tu. That is why I don't like to go back to my grandparents house when it comes to hari raya. But then, I still have to go back to my grandparents house or else Abah will bising2. So, in order tanak bagi Abah terasa, I have to do that eventhough it kills me to see those things. I'm not sure wether I will go back to my grandparents house or not this year. I just don't feel like going back. I just wanna stay at my house all alone. I prefer staying at my house alone rather than seeing things that will make me cry for days. Heh. People just don't understand. It is hard living a life like mine.

Enough of that I think. If I terus merepek. Sampai esok pun x habis. Okay then. I have to do some revision. There will be a quiz tomorrow. Okay then. Till next time. Bye.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

2008-07-24T12:37:00.000+08:00

my oh my!!

shoba sent me a msg rite after our criminal class and it says;

"makcik!he lambai.he LIKE CARI U TAU.then he tanya pegi makan ke?cafe desa?

damn!!!!!!i shud hv used the same way.blame it all on this wrong timing "shi-shi."

but the phrase "he like cari u" makes me smiling all way long.

why cant u just come up to me and concede everything u need to??

stop giving me gestures, signs or anything else dat u've been doing lately.

i've got all that okay=)?

all i need is just one thing.CONFESSION.

and i wud definitely say yeah,me too!!!!!with no hesitation.

hahahahaha.

2008-07-22T01:05:00.000+08:00

it's been only one day but i am missing my two besties, zafirah and ein already. hw i wish i could spend a little bit more time longer with them. i had a really great weekend with them.angah, thanx for comin all the way from muadzam and the same goes to ein for willing to spend ur weekend over here.but still i hvnt really got the chance to make our last holiday as awesome and superb as promised.sorry for any inconvenience ya my dear friends.abut angah, i promise dat i'l make it up to u.our nex holiday is gona be fantastic.

hana=)

Thanks for the memories.

2008-07-20T22:36:00.001+08:00

To my dearest Hana n Shazreena, thanks for the memories. My weekend was SUPERB!! Can't thank both of u enough for these. Thanks to Hana for everything. I had a really great weekend. Sayang korg sangat2 sampai bila. Miss both of u already. And, ouh yeah Hana, I miss 'Afiq' too. =P

Ouh, before I lupa Hana, jgn lupa pasang lampu kete u if u drive malam2 eyh? Nnt u igt org nak ngorat or kacau u pulak. LOL. Just kidding. Love both of u lots n lots.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

2008-07-15T15:17:00.000+08:00

YAWN!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAWN!!!!!!!!

YAWN!!!!!!!

wut a boring day.*sigh*

its only the 3rd day of the week.

there is no such specific word to describe how lame and boring the day is.

i've been yawnin in ms isabella's class n i even fell asleep in her class for the 1st time.*sigh*

am happy to know dat angah's comin over on this weekend.at least, i have one good reason not to feel bored.as i promised to angah, SEOUL'S GARDEN, LAKSA NYONYA,here we come!!!

Love? Hate? Friends?

2008-07-13T20:08:00.000+08:00

"It's weird how she goes from being strangers

to being friends, to being more than friends,

to being practically strangers again.

And it all happens so fast."

This was a text given by someone to me. I know exactly what does this someone means. But, hello? I don't really care. Me being more than friends with you? Waddahel? Well, I think I never did that. I never give you hope, I never even say that I love you or what so ever. In fact, when you asked me wether I missed you or not, I just said that I don't know. Don't you actually understand what does that mean? Okay, listen here, I am avoiding you right now. Can't you see that? Duuhh, I didn't even answer your call, I didn't reply all your texts. I think I have shown it clearly that I am currently avoiding you. Is that so hard for you to understand it? I don't have feelings for you. My heart is not for you for the time being and maybe not forever. Well, I can't say that actually, who knows one day God will open my heart to accept you. But I hope HE won't. And there's this another someone. I've known this another someone for about 4 years. I think I've rejected this another someone twice. I don't know why, how hard this another someone tried, I just can't accept this another someone. Hmmmppphhh, it's hard to deal with this kind of thing. I've said clearly to this another someone that I don't have feelings for this another someone. Okay, at first this another someone can accept it. But lately, this another someone is acting weirdly. This another someone said that this another someone will wait for me. Okay, please, don't do this to me. Maybe meeting this another someone that day was a HUGE mistake! This another someone knows that I can't accept this another someone as more than friends. But then the way this another someone is treating me right now, is like more than friends. OMG! Waddahel again??? This another someone starts to show that this another someone cares for me very very much. Even benda yg dia patut nak risau pun dia risau. Haish. Waddahel la? Merepek tau x? Rimas. I didn't even reply this another someone's text today. God, please help me. I don't know why I just can't open my heart for them. Maybe I've watched a lot of movies and I read a lot of novels and I want a perfect guy for me. But I know there's no such thing as A PERFECT GUY. I'm having a syndrom called BOVARYSME. This is where I imagine myself as a heroin in a movie with a perfect hero. Something like that la. I don't know how long will this thing last. But, hey, everyone has the right to dream right?

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

2008-07-11T12:31:00.000+08:00

39!!!!!!!!!!

tolak tolak TAMBAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey sini sini...

yang tu lah..

berlian!!!

hahahahaha!!!

dis is wut happened during our "supposedly discussion" session last nite. we, i mean shoba nazuan and i played a real fun game,ah i forgot the name but its on facebook.its a game which tells you the size of ur brain based on a few games yang sgt menguji IQ.not forgotten math test okay??and and my math isnt dat bad actually.hehehe.but still we FAILED to compete the size of ees's brain.can u imagine hw "slow" we are??3 vs 1 but too bad, still KALAH

p/s:welcome to our club malya.hehe.sometimes its just best to live w/o a man who complicates our life u noe.believe me, u'll find ur man one day.it's worth waiting tau.=)
uwh btw i hope u r okay and if theres anythin u wana share, feel free to text me okay?

Facts

2008-07-10T23:53:00.000+08:00

Well, these are kind of true.

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.
When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a GIRL answers " I'm fine " after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.
When a GIRL stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying.
When a GIRL lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.
When a GIRL says " I love you " ... she means it.
When a GIRL says " I miss you " ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once and I want to make sure that I spend it with the right person. I need a guy who calls me beautiful instead of hot. Who calls me back when I hung up on him and who will stay awake just to watch me sleep. I will wait for a guy who kisses my forehead, who wants to show off the world when I am in my sweats. Who holds my hands in front of his friends. Who is constantly reminding me of how much he cares about me and he is lucky to have me. =)
I hope that this guy will be mine one day. =)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

2008-07-09T18:20:00.000+08:00

while browsing the net a few mins ago, i found dis one interesting article about GUYS who are the most not-understandable creature:

99 FACTS ABOUT GUYS

Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. they prefer neat and presentable girls.
Guys hate flirts.
A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.
"Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.
Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.
Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.
Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.
Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking! but do not generalise
Guys cry!!!<hell yeah,dis is so true!!>
Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.
Guys can never dream and hope too much.
Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.
Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.
Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you're asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.
When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow". ......so true!!!
You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.
Guys hate gays!
Guys love their moms.
A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.
You can never understand him unless you listen to him.
If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.
Like Eve, girls are guys’ weaknesses.
Guys are very open about themselves.
It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.
No guy is bad when he is courting
Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.
Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.......very true.
A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.
Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts. too bad IDTS.haha
Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.
Guys virtually brag about anything.
Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
Guys think too much.
Guys' fantasies are unlimited.
Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!......very true.
Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!
When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.
It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.
You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.
A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.
When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed P**** with their girlfriends.....sumtimes depends wen they want sumat.
When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.
When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me"......sumtimes.
Guys don't really have final decisions.
When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him....very important.
If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.
Guys like femininity not feebleness.
Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.
A guy would waste his time over video games and football, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.
Guys love girls who can cook or bake. ....they love u regardless.
Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!......true but only wen the guys are ready 2be settled down.
A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.
Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.
Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.
Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.
Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.
Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.
Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.
When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.
Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.
Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they'll realize they're wrong.
Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it.
Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.
Guys' weakest point is at the knee.
When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.
When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.
When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed by you or he's criticizing you.
When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.
If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.
If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.
Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!
If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.
You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.
Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.
Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!
If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.
Guys hate girls who overreact. uwh ya?i heard one saying dat "perempuan kena gedik sikit baru SYOK"
Guys love you more than you love them IF they are serious in your relationships.

-hana-

2008-07-09T16:25:00.000+08:00

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A SITUATION WHERE YOU FEEL THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG SUMWHERE BUT U JUST DON'T KNOW WUT IT IS?

having tonnes of thoughts in my mind is really suffocating.IT REALLY IS and if anyone asks does dat bother me?YES it really DOES to the extention of screaming out loud!!
while trying to figure out wut exactly is wrong with my life, i am lost.TOTALLY LOST.
everything seems so wrong.my personal life, my friends and even my social life here.EVERYTHING is just so wrong.definetely not the way i want them to be.
hw i wish i cud find the perfect solution to every single of my problem but i noe its impossible.
HOW can i possibly find the solution when i dont even know the ROOT of my problem.
i am just hoping everythin will turn out the way it is supposed to be but u noe, "hidup tak selalunya indah." So i'd better get both of my feets on the ground.

*sigh*sigh*
-hana-

I'm Back!

2008-07-07T21:34:00.000+08:00

I'm back. I'm in my room now at MUADZAM SHAH, LONDON. LOL. I arrived here yesterday. Yesterday was a very2 tiring day. Sangat memenatkan. I drove for about 6 hours yesterday. Sangat penat, then I have to angkat barang from the stor to my apartment. Barang berat2 pulak tu. Adoi je la. Sangat la penat.

My class starts today. Alhamdulillah everything went on very2 smoothly. Hehe. Thank God I dapat lecturers yg sangat best! In order to that, I have to study hard n smart to get the best result ever this semester. Please pray for me. Huhu. I hope that everything will berjalan dgn lancar this sem. I really2 hope so.

Actually, I'm missing a few ppl in my life so much right now. I miss my family, I miss my friends n I miss someone. I really2 miss them. I xjadi pegi Melaka this week. Ohh Hana, I really2 need to see you actually. But, nak buat macam mane, you have things to do right? Never mind, I'm going to see you next week. I really can't wait to see you!! And Malya, I really2 hope you can come too. I miss u guys badly! Oh My God, I just wish my loved ones are here with me right now. I need them.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

missing my loved ones so much!

2008-07-03T20:18:00.000+08:00

we had joy we had fun=)

let those pictures explain, okay folks?

shoba-hana-nazuan-ihsan
zetty-hana-shoba-nazuan
meal of the day=)
HAPPINESS=)

we really had fun yesterday, i MUST say. i have not been out like yesterday since months, years??

the one dat shud be highlighted here is the meal of the day. we went to this one korean restaurant located in MAHKOTA PARADE as introduced by nazuan. it was all worth it people.RM20 for everything they have there.believe me, EVERYTHING and its for unlimited time. puas gila ok??
BBQ??STEAMBOAT??ICE-CREAM??ABC??just name it.
let me say it again, RM20 for UNLIMITED TIME.

Dilemma..

2008-07-02T23:48:00.000+08:00

Im actually dont know how to start my story..Erm,mayb it started since my bf n i were far apart n we seems like xamik tau hal msg2 sgt.He didnt call me bout 2months n i dont know y..Even msg pon da cm xtau nk ckp pe..Fine la..I dun give a damn for what he has done.Just let it be..Im also confused with my status now.It's so complicated n hard to describe.I've been talked to hana bout this but still mcm xtng lg.hurm.I wanna let u all know i'm not totally in love with him anymore.full stop.

The 2nd part of my life story begins.This is what i'm trying to tell hana just now.But,she said that her proxy is not working well.It's ok..Malya akan story..About few weeks ago,my friend zmn skola dlu ttbe ctct blk.He wasn't a bainunian but frm one of the well known school in perak..I adored him suatu masa dahulu.hahaha did u all know i pnah ske indian guy@ guy yg mix indian??hoho the oldies story come again.He's pan asian.Pan asian kah??haha His grandfather is indian so do his dad.hoho n his face ok la to me..malay+indian..haha
One nyte,die luahkn la mcm he likes me.haha cant be serious! kunun da trpikat la pe la..
but i wat bodo je..
now,he treats me like his gf..called me syg la pe la..bt i refused to treat him like he did.
Sometimes,i tot mcm i akn dpt ape yg i nak dulu..hahaha klakar kan??even xmluap2 mcm dlu,but i still rase..i do LIKE him!! haha
SUKA xsmestinya CINTA..that's the fact..=)
For this time being,i just lyn mcm bese..afta this i xtau..coz he'll be leaving..He's going to be a medical student at Royal College of Surgeons,Ireland..
Gosh! xlame lg akn sgt jauh frm him..n dun tink we're meant to be togetha..haha At least,he's my friend..Itu da ckup..Even ade la rse cm sdey but im chilled..=)
Im not like b4 yg ske flirty2..but sape tau he's goin to be my life partner..Aminn..Doctor kan..sape xmau..=D
Ape2 pun..i love being single now..Im free..Hve fun with friends is more joyful! Dun wori.. i'll wait for my dream guy..he will be comin soon..Hopefully..Amin..=)

2008-06-27T23:19:00.000+08:00

" do you know wut ur problem is, naz?
U memamg tak boleh tengok org lain lebih dr u kan?"

did i say those words?

YES i did.i really did.

it happened about a yr ago, it took place in clc and the main casts of this so-called tragic scene are
NAZUAN and HANA.hahaha.

we fought over the smallest stupidest thing ever, jz bcoz of the ending of our drama, tasked by our english lecturer. okay, there is no need to elaborate more.when i come to think of dis,i keep telling myself,"eh bodohnye la aku.bnde kecik pon nk jd isu."

and later we were not in the speaking term for a few mnths. he even called me puaka!hahaha.JAHAT u naz!

n yesterday was our 1st time hanging out together after wut happened. yesterday, i realized hw much i miss all those moments we had before. i miss all the gossiping sessions wif him.I REALLY DO.nazuan is the type of person u dun wana mess up wif n u dun wana let go as a friend.hes really gud in cheering u up n he noes hw to make u laugh n he even noes hw to make you CRY.believe me!!
we even brought up the issue of our "gaduh scene" n we both laughed at our own stupidity or shud i call it immaturity?
WUTEVER.

i did learn sumthin precious of wut happened.apart of me, i thank God dat dis happened to me,to us."jgn percaya ckp org 100%".dats wut i have learnt, a very good lesson indeed.u see hw "A MOUTH" can actually destroy one's life.

enough reminiscing!! lets talk about GET SMART!!

me, shoba n nazuan went to watch get smart last nite n i rated 5 stars for dis movie. thanx to naz sbb belanja ticket.hehe. i jz couldnt stop laughing while watchin dis movie. u shud see hw smart max is as the CIA. our tenses in miss monique's class have peen paid-off after watching dis movie.hahaha.u guys patut pegi tgk dis movie.its worth it.=)

*hana*

Time to go.

2008-06-26T14:56:00.000+08:00

I'll be leaving soon. I'll be going to Paris in a few hours time. OMG! I'm so sad actually. Pagi tadi lepas bangun tidur I saw Waffy crying. I asked him nape dia nangis but then he didn't answer and keep on crying. Actually, I tau nape dia nangis. Adoi je. Waffy ni, dia buat I nak nangis skali snanye. But, I tried my best not to cry in front of him. Iskk. I said to him, 'Nnt if da nak g skola, cari Angah kat atas. Angah kat attic.' And, few minutes later, he came. He didn't say anything but then just salam and kissed me. Then dia nangis balik. Adoi je la Waffy, nape la awak nangis. Kan Angah pun da nak nangis same nih. Sentimental betul la budak nih. Then bila I turun bawah, dia x g skola lagi. Tapi dia tgh nangis kat depan. Adoi, Waffy, Waffy. I told him to study hard n jgn lawan cakap mama. Lagi teruk dia nangis lepas tu. By the time dia nak g skola, he was still crying. I hugged him, I felt like crying but I just tahan je. I don't wanna cry. I've been dealing with this kind of feeling for almost 5 years. For all these years, I've been crying on the plane on my way back to Malaysia. I never cried in front of my family bila time nak balik, Malaysia. I akan tunggu sampai dalam plane baru I akan nangis. Heh. Okay, enough for now. Gotta go. Haven't finish packing yet. Uncle Mansor will be here anytime by now. Gonna miss everything here. I miss everything already. =(

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

2008-06-25T20:58:00.000+08:00

I AM HAPPY

yeeayyyy!!!!!!!!

i think i deserve dis happiness after wut i went through for those past few days.

TODAY is my happiest day ever.

it feels like the whole world is mine.haha.

to shoba, lets just keep of wut happened to ourselves, okay?=)

and heres something dat i wud like to share wif u guys.

Younger man + older woman = Happy marriage?

What would a star couple have in common with the Iyers?

Like Bollywood stars Abhishek Bachchan and Aishwarya Rai, Gitanjali and Subodh Iyer, bank professionals from Mumbai, also have an age difference of three years.

Gitanjali is older than Subodh.

Talk to them about this and they laugh. "It doesn't matter any more," says Gitanjali, "We had almost forgotten about these small things."

But was it a 'small thing' when they got married? "It wasn't," she admits.

Both of them came from traditional families. Gitanjali is a Sindhi and Subodh a South Indian. They met in State Bank of India and fell in love. When the couple decided to get married, they realised it was not going to be an easy journey.

They had to decide on a strategy to tackle their respective parents. "We sat and discussed how we are going to go about it," says Subodh, "It was not a conventional marriage. Firstly, it was an intercaste match. And then, I was younger than the bride."

Maturity levels

The maturity levels of both the partners can make or break a marriage. That was the case with Ernest and Yasmin Remedios. Yasmin, a writer and yoga teacher, met Ernest, who works for E-serve, an IT company, while on a hiking trip.

The romance blossomed despite the age difference. "Our age was never a problem," says Yasmin. "Ernest is more mature when it comes to finance, home, and I don't think I would be able to manage without his support," she feels.

It also helped that they got the support of their respective families. She says their ethnic backgrounds are close (Yasmin is a Parsi and Ernest is Christian), as such both their parents were ok with the relationship.

Not everyone is lucky, though. Priya (name changed) was dating her friend, who was four years younger than her. "We were truly in love with each other to begin with," she says, "As time went by I realised that the enthusiasm that I had fallen for was actually childishness. I continued with the relationship in the hope that maturity would creep in."

Unfortunately, she recollects, that did not happen. Though both their families had accepted their relationship, Priya eventually broke up with him.

According to her, different women have different tolerance levels. "Younger men generally get attracted to older women because they see a more mature and responsible person in her," says Priya. "When a woman accepts this responsibility, the relationship works fine. But when a woman cannot be a mother-figure all the time, that's when the problems begin."

Career and money

One of the reasons why younger men end up with older women is because of the financial stability she offers. Rita Pandey, a psychiatrist from Pune, recounts the story of her cousin, a gazetted officer, who married her office assistant.

The girl, 30, married her 26-year old subordinate after putting him through night school to improve his English. Since he came from a modest background, she helped him apply for loans that would help them live independently. "She also makes him take exams regularly to further his career," Rita says.

Expert speak

Marriage counsellor Ratna Khemani says, "We've grown up with the traditional idea of a husband protecting the wife, caring for her, earning for her after they are married. That has changed today because both are qualified and earning." However, Ratna cautions that a big age disparity has led many couples to separate.

"If there is an eight to nine-year gap, the chance of it working out seems less bright. The first few years of bliss will be replaced by tension resulting from the insecurities that often creep up in a woman's mind," she says. Something as common as friends too can widen the rift between couples, as both sets have different mindset.

Stress too plays a role in the breakdown of these marriages.

"Today marriages between older women and younger men don't often work because of stress in everyday life. Criticism over expectations, fears and a suspicious nature add to the problems," she says. Financial disparity also plays a very key role, she adds.

Surprisingly, child bearing is never considered a problem because many high-powered couples do not even think of having a child these days.

Despite all these disparities, however, Ratna says these marriages can work if:

Both want it to work.
Both love, trust, and respect each other.
Adjust to and understand each other's needs, and
Are there for each other.

" If you like/love a woman who is older than you, then there comes the point, and age is not a concern if both of them are satisfied in the looks,maturity,love,understanding and affection".

*hana*=)

BOREDOM

2008-06-24T23:34:00.000+08:00

i am bored

i am bored

i am bored

this boredom is killing me

"i am praying for a better day tomorrow,way much more better".

one saturday morning

2008-06-22T21:54:00.000+08:00

call me kuno, outdated, jakun or wutsoever but yesterday was my 1st time pegi one utama lps their renovation about a yr ago. OMG, the new OU is freaking big.tersgt besar.n believe me it took me about 6hrs utk habiskn tour around OU. n its not too much for me to say dat its about 4 times bigger than jj melaka.i nvr tought dat dis new OU wud be dis big lps renovation. dah la mmg dah besar before renovation dulu, tambah plk another wing.haa lucky me, terfikir plk nk pki flopper.
i wud hv blisters all over my feet IF NOT.

n there was this one modern malay family which is way toooo modern dah dat captured my attention. i was so not to say impressed or amazed. neither dat i was proud of dis family. but kudos to their family bonding. okay enough about wut i feel about dis family. it does not matter since i'll leave it to u guys to judge. here we go. the father is about 50++ wif white hair all over his head, not forgotten baju y sgt fit, believe me,dat shirt was so damn *@#*. it does make sense if hes a teenager but hello UNCLE, u r jz too "young" for dis..ha ha and the mother is around 40++ but looks tremendously gorgeous and stunning wif the hair-style y sgt cun wif a tight red pants and blouse. together wif them, 3 hot hot hot girls which i believe their daughters. their outfit, wow!hot pants n baby-t. i NEVER get to wear dis when am wif my parents.ha ha ha. well i can say dat their family bonding is so STRONG. it was shown!the father kissing the daughters, the daughters kissing the father, the mother hugging and kissing the father all way long.=)

to all my besties, one day nnt kte pegi okay?

Counting the days...

2008-06-20T14:50:00.000+08:00

'Kalau ada orang cakap angah da gemuk, jawab je macam ni: Nak buat macam mane, dapat Boyfriend kaya, suka buat lawak pulak tu, hari² gelak, hati pun senang.' =)

These are the words yg Aunty Roza taught me. She said, if anybody tegur n cakap saya da gemuk, just say these words. Org tu sure x cakap pape da. Hehe. =). Thanks to Aunty Roza. I'll follow your advice by saying these words to whoever that will tegur me. =). I kind of missed Aunty Roza already. She told us so many jokes. For the whole 3 days we laughed a lot. I mean like we are seriously laughing and we just can't stop. BTW, did you know that gelak banyak² boleh buat org tu jadi gemuk? Huhu. No wonder la why I'm getting bigger and bigger day by day. LOL.

I have about 9 days left. I'll be going to Paris on the 26th and my flight will be on the 28th afternoon. I can't wait to be back to meet my friends but at the same time I'm sad cuz I have to leave my family. No more Mama's cooking after this. No more being stupid with Ayong and Ieqa after this. No more usik² Waffy and no more screaming at Raffy after this. No more watching football with the whole family in front of the t.v after this. I'll miss all of these. I'll be staying alone in Sitiawan for a whole week. Glad that I'll be back to Muadzam, at least I have Nina, Nadz and Fara there. I won't feel lonely anymore I guess. Glad that I'll be going to Malacca to meet Hana and probably Dla and Malya there. Glad that I get to meet up with my friends. At least I have them. Thanks a lot dearest friends. I don't know how my world will be without all of you.

To Ayong, I'll remember your words.

'Aku rasa kau akan end up kawin ng Best Friend kau or someone yang kau da kenal lama and rapat.'

And I hope that your words won't come true, or else my love story akan jadi xbest! =P. I'm not that choosy like what you said okay. I just want someone yang menepati citarasa je. =P. So, please pray for me so that I'll get my Prince Charming one day. =). Don't worry, I'll pray for you too and I hope that 'you-know-who' will learn his lesson. And, you deserve someone much much more better. =).

To Ieqa, Good Luck for your Bac. Hope you'll pass with flying colours. I know you can do it cuz I kept on nagging at you so that you'll read you books. =P. Ingat, jgn nnt aku da balik, kau termimpi² aku pulak. Xpun, nnt ada opah macam dalam cte congkak tu pulak. 'Ieqa, marila baca buku ng Opah'. BOL! =P. Get good results so that you'll get to go to any University with your own qualifications and because of your usaha for all these years. Bukan dgn guna org dalam, okay? That is not a good way to start your future. =P.

Okay, enough for today. I can't continue giving these pesanan or else I'll cry here. OMG! IMYA.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

My Feelings

2008-06-20T00:05:00.000+08:00

oh man! i've 'bout 2more weeks before my hols ends up..i feel so sad..havent u feel like u were forced to do sumtin that annoyed u?Here i am..rase kjap sgt cuti ni..tgk2 it's almost 2months hols..Once i thought bout 'Terengganu" i was like..huhhh...i am going to DIE..im not happy there..totally not! the environment,the ppl and even more my friends..they aren't suitable for me..they are so disgusting even ade yg ok.yg tu xpela lg..i dun even know why this feelings must came out..for the sake of my parents,my ambition n especially my NUTRITION book..Sy sggup balik terennganu..huh For this coming sem,im not ready yet actually.How can i stand with En Aziz classes ( Food lab )..well u know he's so strict and always mumbling. But i know he is a good person anyway.These all about my study.But my personal feelings,im so upset when i am going to lose someone.He is my bf.He will be a sailor on the next month..and ill be all alone here.Gosh! It will be tremendously boring without him all the way in my life..No messaging,No phone call,No teasing..And i have to berthn slama setahun..It's so bad! Hopefully ive chances to meet my besties so that ill forget those my bad feelings 100%..Harap2 leh meet u all soon..I've loads of story to tell u..hehe Angah n I will make a plan for our gathering next sem..xsbr gila!! That's all for now..Miss u guys! Now I am happy when ive started to think about us and no more sadness till i meet my bffs..=)

With Love,
MALYA

2008-06-17T20:53:00.000+08:00

kakak's phone call:

kakak : adik balik tak minggu ni?balik la please!!!

me : adik ingat nk balik nex week.

kakak : ala balik dis week la. masak ikan steam dgn lasagna jom!!
teman kakak pegi alamanda sat ari sabtu.

me : [those really turned me on=)]ha ok la kot. nnt adik msg kakak balik.

i cant stand the boredom anymore. this is the 1st week and everyone is still not in the mood for lectures. some of my friends are not even back yet. so, I AM GOIN BACK, back to kl.ok dat's it. i've made up my mind and i am goin back to kl tomoro mornin. plus there is no class on thursday n so is friday. so what is there to think of anymore?i shud just pack my things and i am all ready to go back to kl to be wif my sister, hariz, dina and dhia.

-hana-

Thanks. =)

2008-06-17T15:18:00.000+08:00

Jocelyn et Moi. =)

Yesterday was my last class. Xsempat nak update smalam cuz I was a bit busy. Hrrmm, sedar² da nak habis da pun cuti. I have about a week left and I'll be flying off babeh. =). Yesterday was quite awkward. I was the only girl in class. Heh. Lucracia and Svetlana can't make it I guess. By the end of class, everybody wished me 'Bonne Chance' and 'Au revoir'. But I stayed there for about 10 minutes, talking to Jocelyn n thanked her for teaching me french. We talked about few things. She asked me about my studies in Malaysia n so on. Then she told me about her son, Pierre Emmanual who's doing commerce right now. ^^. Hehe. After finish talking, we kissed goodbye and hugged for quite a long time. I was supposed to back home but I decided to take a walk alone in town. As I was walking to the bus stop from that building, I felt really sad. And suddenly all I know is that tears are already rolling down my cheeks. Jocelyn is a great teacher. She's very very patient and she never give up explaining. She's a great one. =). I'm going to miss her when I'm back in Malaysia. Trust me, you won't find that kind of teacher in Malaysia. People like her is one in a million. She said that she has a good memory of me, and so do I. I do have a very good memory of her. To Jocelyn, thanks for everything. thanks for teaching me french. Although its not that much, but for me, it's more than enough. Thanks for the memories. =)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland

when the new sem begins

2008-06-16T09:41:00.000+08:00

uwh shit!!i am rite here in MELAKA again. do u guys noe wut dis means?BYE BYE to happiness n joy. WELCOME to the "greatest hell" ever.
i wud say my last holiday was extremely superb. n yesterday was the 1st time i felt berat hati kind of feelin because i had to go back to melaka.i was so not in the mood to go back to melaka. to my ayah who had a surgery on his left eye recently, i really hope dat u 'll get well soon. thanx a bunch to those yang mendoakan kesihatan my ayah. okay, here we go. I hv a few reasons to consider my holiday as extremely superb.

firstly, dat was the 1st holiday tak gaduh dgn mama langsung. gaduh sounds harsh.no no its not gaduh but more to merajuk.it felt really great.haha.

secondly, i spent about a week wif my two cousins, angah n uda cookin, sharin stories, lepakin at burmese pool and so many other gila n fun stuffs. believe me when i say gila n fun.=)

thirdly, there was a gathering of the five of us which was suppposed to be six[convent friends]. suhaila could not make it since she was still in UIA takin her short sem. they came to my house for lunch n we chatted like 10 tahun x jumpa. i wud say wideeya was the penceria of the day.
to nani, adleen, farleen n wideeya, thanx for comin guys. i really had a great time. uwh ya thanx a bunch to adleen n wideeya for the kenduri gifts n rendang tok yang sgt sedap. sorry for not being able to attend ur brother's wedding.

fourthly, saya berjaya masak kentang putar dan ikan siakap steam.[not to be riak=)] okay, kentang putar sounds really weird.haha.its also called whipped or mashed potato. i had my very own version of the sauce n it was not to say sampai menjilat jari but okay la. and ikan siakap steam tak hanyir. most importantly, my parents loved it. i tried to cook dis wif my sister b4 but the ikan turned out to be hanyir. but now we noe dat we shud put banyak-banyak halia so dat the ikan will not be hanyir.

fifthly, 3 days before my holiday ended, i checked my result n guess wut?miracle miracle miracle!alhamdulillah.i am happy wif my result.most importantly, sik ching peng's paper. i was not wrong when i said i love you on the other day.haha.

i have a new roomie ppl. i felt terribly sad when kak nadia, my former roomie was not around when i stepped in my room yesterday. kenapa lah kak nadia kena pegi practical?
the surrounding of my room is totally different now. there's only kak nadia's curtain left to remind me of her. uwh i am so gona miss you kak nadia. there's no more any chit-chattin n gossiping session before i sleep. sob sob

uwh lets talk about my new roomie. shes okay but i hvnt got the chance to get to noe her dat well yet. 1st impression, okay!shes obviously not the feminine type n she even asked me akak ni mesti gurlish type kn?haha.u hv no choice. u have to bear wif me.i am jz hopin dat she'll be a good roomie n someone dat i can count on to.

whatever it is, the new sem has started. new sem, new determination. lets jz pray for the best for my 2nd year here=)

-hana-

2008-06-15T23:36:00.000+08:00

I AM BACK!!!!!!!!!!!

=)

-hana-

I'm back! weee~

2008-06-13T01:13:00.000+08:00

hello buddies! am so sory coz its been ages i left our blog n write nutin..i was quite bz lately till i noticed that i hve to update maself.to zafira,am so sory to hear bout ur prob.let me make a wild guess!! yeah..i know who's dat guy..if not mistaken la..to hana, im hoping that ur father will always be in a good condition and u MUST take a good care towards him..

I have a story n from this story i would like to advice all my friends,dun u ever neglect ur parents or even more hurt 'em at all.
I do have a cousin n i noticed that u guys knoe who he is..2weeks ago,i attended his wedding with a lovely baju kurung special for his wedding,make up bagai org gila n all that stuffs.im so excited for the wedding bcoz he's the 1st cucu my late atuk yg kawin.everybody very bz just for his wedding.im not blaming him,but i knoe that's his fault.the wedding was held in Pj in a big hall.i knoe he's engineer n he wanted sumtin that sgt grand n looked wealthy.but the things that happened were embarrassed US so muchh!!!
at about 10.30 am i arrived there n i just take a looked around..n it wasn't so bad..but the hall wasn't like a "wealthy" look as he wanted to..i felt so weird..but i just ignored it.i dont bother bout that..haha i was waitin there without doing nutin about half an hour..there's some ppl came n just sit.poor them.actually,the foods are not there!! ppl dtg makin ramai n just sit again..all of sudden,one of my uncle dtg tergesa2 n called all my aunties to discuss sumtin.yeah..im interested n i joined them..OMG!!!! u knoe wut..the caterer was ranaway with 12k!!!! gosh! we were so panic n blur..i cant doin nutin..my aunties dh mcm naik gila tawu x.n my Mak ngah especially dah nk pengsan.can u imagine d situation dat tyme?? it was so horrible!! afta a several suggestions,they decided to order foods from maple..MAPLE???sgt kesian..n mamak tu asked us 8K as early as we can..if no money,mamak wouldn't cook 4 us!!
dgn keadaan tergesa2,we found out 8K! mamak ttp kdai n cook for the wedding..klakar glee!! makan beradap pon mamak's foods!! haha we watched on the tv,but it happened in reality life..we cant arranged all His faith..
My cousin meraung2 in his car for what happened in his wedding.n he told us he didnt has any money anymore! poor him..
he's actually too trusted to wedding planner n the wedding planner was found while he's browsing the net..how bodoh he is??hurmm..
unfortunately,his parents didnt knoe all bout the wedding planner n they wouldn't knoe well bout their son's planned.
See,how bad a son to his parents? i dun wanna bukak pekung my fam..but it's just as a lesson to us..Allah wont bless for all our plans if we neglect our parents..

To all my peeps..
learn from the past..take this story as a lesson..i dun wanna this 'memorable moment' happen again among us..
I Love U all guys..

Written by: Mellyare_malya

I'm sick of it!

2008-06-12T16:49:00.000+08:00

I don't have much to say actually. But there's this feeling that kept bothering me. And of course it's not a good one. It annoys me very very much. I have a friend, I knew this friend for years. We were not that close before. But since we've finished our SPM, kitorg makin rapat. I mean rapat like bestfriends, for me la. But I don't know dia anggap macam mana. Then after few years, til now, dia da ade Girlfriend. At first, he didn't tell me yg dia da ada GF. I found out myself. But, I don't mind at all. Then bila I asked him about his GF, dia macam nak tanak jawab. He asked me how did I know bout that. Come on la, letak dalam Fs n all that thingy, org daripada tatau pun bole tau. Adoi je la. At that time, I was talking with him on the phone. Then he hung up. He texted me few minutes later, saying that he likes me n he cares bout me but I didn't give him any hints. Waddahel? He is my friend n I believe that I am not supposed to like him more than friends! Well I do love him, but as a friend n not more than that. For the time being, I just can accept him as my friend. But, a few days later our friendship went on as usual. Until right now, I don't feel like this friendship is a normal friendship. He kept on saying things that he is not suppose to say. Okay maybe he meant nothing but for me certain things mean a lot to me. Kitorg macam slalu la balas² comment dalam Fs. The way he comment tu x macam seorg kawan mengcomment kawan dia. Org lain pun bole nampak benda ni. I really don't understand him. Maybe right now, dia tgh ade problem or what so ever dengan GF dia. But then, if you ade problem dgn your GF, go and settle it properly. Don't do this to me! I don't wanna be the reason why you break up with your GF one day! I believe yg dia couple ng that girl because he likes her n he loves her. So, just go on with your relationship as usual. If ade problem, settle kan la betul² n don't FLIRT with other people especially ME!! I really hate it okay. I don't like this feeling. Seriously, I don't fucking like it. That day, I terbaca comment his GF and ade bau² jealous la because dia slalu online ng I n slalu balas² comment. Come on la, treat your GF the way you are supposed to. If both of you really love each other, find a way so that korg xkan ade problem yg macam remeh² ni. I'm sick of it okay. Seriously I don't know sampai bila akan macam ni. I hate it very² much. I don't like this feeling. I fucking hate it!

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Happy I am. =)

2008-05-30T18:20:00.000+08:00

Hey there! Just came back from today's class. Well, it was okay I guess. I'm starting to like the class n the teacher too. She's cute n kind hearted of course! I have about a month left here. I'm doing my countdown right now.*sigh*. I wanna go back but I don't wanna go back. OMG! Hey, u wanna know something? My friend is getting married!!!! She was my former schoolmate! Aaawww, I'm sssooo happy for her! I think she's the first person to get married among us. Best kan nak kawin da? Hehe. =P. She'll be having her majlis akad nikah tonight n her majlis bersanding tomorrow. Congratulations Aznifah! I'm happy for u! Hope berbahagia hingga ke akhir hayat. =). Ain't it sweet n great to get married with the person u love n knowing that u r already his, u're gonna live with him forever. OMG! I can't imagine myself doing that. Heh. Talking about getting married, I've always wanted to get married on 11.11.11. LOL. I like that date. But then, I don't even know wether I can get married on that day or not. Heh. Only God knows. =). Ouh yeah, I called Hana just now. Guess what? She's happy! And I'm happy for her too. =). I know that 'call' means alot to her. Glad to hear that my loved ones are happy. I hope Malya's happy too. Oh, I miss them so much.
I can't wait to go back to see them. But then I don't wanna go back cuz I wanna stay here with my family.*sigh*. Whatever it is, wether I want it or not, I still have to go back! Okay then, enough for today! I'm so happy today cuz I'm happy for my friends. =) Love u guys so mucho! *mwah*mwah*

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Ways to make a girl smile? =)

2008-05-27T15:42:00.000+08:00

Tell her she is beautiful (not fine, or sexy, or hot)

Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its just for a second
Kiss her on the forehead..

Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
When she is upset, hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.
Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.
Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with.
Write her notes. (she loves them)
Introduce her to family and friends . . . as your girlfriend.
Play with her hair.
Pick her up, tickle her, and play-wrestle with her.
Sit in the park and just talk to her.
Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, or just tell her jokes.
Let her fall asleep in your arms.
If she's mad at you, kiss her.
Give her piggyback rides.
Bring her flowers
Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.
Look her in the eyes and smile.
Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants.
Kiss her in the rain.
If you're in love with her . . . tell her.

I found this while i was browsing AGAIN. I've nothing to do than just sit in front of this computer everyday. Duhh. Well, whatever it is, I think that these ways are kind of sweet. Except for that 'piggy back ride'. Heh, I can't imagine how on earth 'my husband to be or my boyfriend to be' is going to give me that 'piggy back ride' since that I'm wayy too heavy for him I guess. LOL. And, for that 'bring her flowers' thingy, wouldn't it be nicer if 'bring her flowers n chocolates' ? Hehe. =P

XOXO

-zafirahrosland-

2008-05-22T02:36:00.000+08:00

I miss them and I miss these moments that I had with them.

5 Kappa (Annual Dinner 2005)

SMK Raja Permaisuri Bainun

Wana, Zafirah, Hana

Dla, Zafirah & Ruffedge

2004

Zafirah & Malya

Melaka 2007

Nany, Dla, Zafirah, Malya

Pulau Pangkor

2004

Zafirah,Hana,Malya

Hotel Seri Malaysia

2005

L-R: Nany, Dla, Zafirah, Hana

Komuter Station

XOXO,

-Zafirah a.k.a Angah-

Quotes

2008-05-19T15:45:00.000+08:00

Best Quotes.

And no relationship is perfect, EVER.
There are some ways you have to bend, to compromise,
to give something in order to gain something greater. But the love we have for each other is bigger than those small differences,
and that's the key. It's like a big pie chart, & the love in a relationship has to be the biggest piece. Love can make up for a lot.

Your character is based on what you stand for. Your reputation is based on what you fall for.

If you aren't falling down, then you aren't trying very hard. You're playing it safe, staying in your comfort zone. You aren't getting any better.

The fear of failure is a cruel & stupid trick we pull on ourselves. The fact that the fear of failure stops us from going after our goals & dreams means that we have already failed. I ask you this: who cares if you fail? Brilliant people fail every single day.

Well, I found these quotes while i was browsing the net today so I decided to post them in this blog. Got nothing else to do than just sit in front of this PC. God, I'm so fcuking BORING! So, enjoy reading the quotes. These quotes are motivational . I jus love reading quotes. =)

XOXO

-Zafirah a.k.a Angah-

2008-05-17T20:27:00.000+08:00

I AM A SUCCESSFUL SPENDER!!
ow U WISH!!!
i am so NOT a successful spender.
hv u ever wondered what is wrong with ur spending patterns and WHY "enough" simply NEVER is for you?
i hv been wondering those for years n years n today i know the answer.=)

6 "HIGHLY WISHED" habits of a so not successful spender:'i consider myself one'=)

1. ANTICIPATE YOUR NEEDS.the practice of thinking ahead and anticipating what my needs are going to be. *oh my!this is extremely "fucking" hard.

2. REWARD YOURSELVES DIFFERENTLY. do not consider activity of shopping to reward yourself. can i?*shopping is a good therapy.it really is!

3. BARTER SKILLS NOT CASH. change the perception of spending. practice barter system.*uwh yeah!sharing is caring.=)

4. WHERE POSSIBLE, BUY USED. recognize only the intrinsic value of a product instead of seeing the value of an item in its packaging and see nothing wrong with buying pre-owned products.*whoever denies the fact that attractive packaging attract more customers, raise up your hand!n I AM SO NOT GONNA buy pre-owned products.

5. SPEND SLOWLY. never carry more cash than needed.*this sounds good but it is not easy though.=)

6. PAY BY CASH NOT DEBT. never buy anythin on debt unless if it is considered as an in investment which helps to earn more money.*ABSOLUTELY!!

*HANA*

=)

2008-05-16T13:59:00.000+08:00

its EXACTLY 7 DAYS before my last paper. F.R.E.E.D.O.M!!! yeay yeay!!

I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD to:

23rd may - final exam of beta trimester 3 officially ENDS!!

24th may - balik tangkak, my anty's house since angah n uda are back
[ cousins' reunion]

27th may - balik taiping, my hometown. GOD knows hw much i miss my
hometown. HEAVEN'S KITCHEN, wait for me okay? ada banyak new recipe invention in my head=)

30th may - attend kak ain's wedding, so-called family relatives reunion. oh my! i have to khatam al-Quran on the nite before the wedding. i am a BIG microphone n crowd FREAK okay?

7th june - attend dla's sister's engagement. most importantly, HIGHLIGHT of the day and month, jumpa my
NUR ADILAH ROSLI>>kerinduan yang terlampau.

early of july - ANGAH'S COMIN.=)

*HANA*

HAPPY HAPPY=)

2008-05-15T19:43:00.000+08:00

100% HAPPINESS in me.
hahahaha.
i hv the right to laugh out loud.
CONTRACT II is finally OVER.
therefore my silence for those past 3 days is permissible.
n now i am back rite here in this blog.
hilang hidup utk past 3 days sbb 80% of my life was devoted for CONTRACT II.
now all i need is a lil bit of LUCK.
miss sik, please help me to get through dis paper okay?
sbbnye i started to LOVE you since midterm dat day.=)

hw i wish i cud hv my besties rite here at this very moment.
boleh share dis happiness sama sama.
*sigh*sigh*

*HANA*

=)

2008-05-15T03:29:00.000+08:00

I never knew perfection till

I heard you speak and now it kills me

Just to hear you say the simple things

Now waking up is hard to do

And sleeping is impossible too

Everything's reminding me of you

What can I do?

It’s not right, not okay

Say the words that you say

Maybe we’re better off this way

I’m not fine, I’m in pain

It’s harder everyday

Maybe we’re better off this way

It’s better that we break

A fool to let you slip away

I chase you just to hear you say

You’re scared and that you think that I’m insane

I see you look so nice from here

Pity I can’t see it clearly

While you’re standing there, it disappears

It disappears

It’s not right, not okay

Say the word it should say

Maybe we’re better off this way

I’m not fine, I’m in pain

It’s harder everyday

Maybe we’re better off this way

It’s better that we break

Saw you sitting all alone

You’re fragile and you’re cold, but that’s all right

Life these days is getting rough

They’ve knocked you down and beat you up

But it’s just a rollercoaster anyway, yeah

It’s not right, not okay

Say the words that you say

Maybe we’re better off this way

I’m not fine, I’m in pain

It’s harder everyday

Maybe we’re better off this way

I’m not fine, not okay

Say the words that you say

Maybe we’re better off this way

I’m not fine, I’m in pain

It’s harder everyday

Maybe we’re better off this way

It’s better that we break, baby.

This is one nice song by Maroon 5. I love this song so much! It explains like everything! When I first heard this song, it reminds me of certain people that had once been in my life and maybe some of them are still in my life but we're just...I just don't know how to explain it. Sometimes it just get so hard to explain things. But, whatever it is, I wanna thank all the people that had been in my life. No matter wether they are still with me or without me right now. Thanks for teaching me the meaning of life.

To my deary beloved FRIENDS :~
- Faridatun Hana Salleh
- NorAmalia Misnan
- Nur Adilah Rosli
- Hanani Mohammadiah
- Syazwana Zabidi
- Nur Shazreena Myeor
- Nurul Farhana Sumiran

Thanks for eveything. Thanks for the happiness that we've shared together. Thanks for those precious moments. I love all u so much. I AM MISSING U GUYS LIKE HELL! Do take care of urselves. No matter what u guys are doing right now and no matter where u guys are right now, hope all of u are doing great and I pray to God to protect all of always and I hope that my guardian angel is always with all of u.

Infinites of 'X'es and O'es'

-Zafirah a.k.a Angah-

i miss 'em

2008-05-15T02:55:00.000+08:00

all of sudden..
i miss my peeps..my besties..my bffs..
im here all alone..
incredibly get insane when i cant get over it..
i need sum1 to talk to..
i need my hana n zafira..
i need my boo..
those who i cant live without..
n ttbe sy rase mcm nk blk uni n blaja je..
i miss my nutrition book so much..
that's my only book with neatly wrapped...
coz i love spent time with it..=)
arrrgggghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i miss everytin that permanently i belong to...
owh GOD..Kau tlglah hambaMu ini..
Aminn..

Kerinduan,
+Malya+

I want..

2008-05-13T15:12:00.000+08:00

I want a guy to listen to my secrets,

take me out to dinner,

call me first,

label me as his,

understand my feelings,

write me a song,

ask me to dance,

kiss me in the rain,

pass me love letters,

never forgets my birthday,

hugs me when i'm cold,

tell me i'm always right,

be my sweet escape,

tell me to believe that this is a fairytale,

give me gummy worms,

remember my favourite colours,

treat me like a star,

dream about me,

say that i've the key to his heart,

walk me home so i'll be safe,

play my favourite game,

dance like retards,

act stupid together,

spends time with me anytime anywhere,

tell me that everything's gonna be okay,

stay together forever,

let this love last,

accepts me just the way i am,

and make me his one and only.

i wanna be the girl he's scared to lose,

the one where he can't walk away from knowing that i'm mad at him,

the one who can't fall asleep without my voice being the last one he hears,

and the one he can't live without.

i want him to call me back when i hang up on him,

who will stay awake just to watch me sleep,

the boy who kisses my forehead,

who wants to show me off to the world,

who holds my hands in front of his friends,

who thinks i'm just the same without make up,

the one who is constantly reminding me of how much he cares about me,

and how lucky he is to have me <3

XOXO

ZAfirah Rosland

KEMALASAN

2008-05-11T16:06:00.000+08:00

why cant i get my butt off dis chair n y can't i push myself to shower???????
MALAS.fullstop!!!!!
n fyi i've been sitting on dis chair for the past almost 30 mins listening to songs, my fav songs dgn harapan dpt kasi inspiration.chewaahh!!
u must hv been wonderin y am i makin dis such a big deal??
takkan la baru duduk 30mins pon bising.
the fact dat i am supposed to be studyin dat matters me at the moment.
i am truly mad at myself for choosing to lepak+berangan instead of STUDYIN.
but i think i deserve to memanjakan myself coz i went to bed at 4 last nyte.=)

after all, i only hv another chapter to cover.
not to be riak okay but i am givin u a gud reason y i am havin my own sweet time at the moment.=)
ALASAN!!
boleh habis by tonite KOT!!!!
if x sempat i'll hv to paksa myself not to sleep la tonite.
NO CHOICE!!!

plus whoever chooses to study now with dis fuckin extremely hot weather, i RESPECT u people.
can share with me the secret hw to study with dis kind of weather ah??
wutever it is, i am too MALAS for anythin at the moment.
bribe me wif shoppin therapy, money, steak or anythin but nothing turns me on.
=)

HAPPY MAMA'S DAY=)

2008-05-11T13:45:00.000+08:00

this post is specially meant to my MAMA, asmah napiah.

"HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, ma. THANK YOU for every single thing n i wana let u noe dat i am completely NOTHING without you. u've always been the GREATEST mother n u will always be".

"Semoga ALLAH akan sentiasa memberkati mama dgn kesihatan dan kehidupan yang baik. i MIGHT NOT be the greatest daughter but i will always try to be the one dat u wanted me to be."=)

::HANA::

2008-05-11T00:32:00.000+08:00

Today..
May 11...
I wrote a new entree to all the mothers in this world!!

Happy Mother's Day!!!!

Specially dedicated to my mother..
NORARZELA BT MAT ISA
Happy Mother's Day to u..
May Allah Blessing u..
Giving u a Good Health n Happiness all the way..
You're the one that i cant live without..
...I Love U..

I promise to u to be a good daughter..
I wont let u down..
I wont be disrecpectful child..
I wont never..
This I promise u..

With Love,
MALYA

~home sweet home~

2008-05-10T20:08:00.000+08:00

today,
May 10th,
finally ive been given a chance to write this new post!
yess!
Afta several trials sy sgtlaaa give up!
u knoe y??

ZAF gave me d wrong email!! aiyoo! how come la kakak..isk
but never mind..
im still can shout out even they are faraway from me..
For ur info, i hve a long sem hols till July mayb..
It's so relaxing n calming...
but, my dad asked me to be a maid in my ouse!!
Wut laaa...dhla xbg i keje..suh jadi maid pulak..
my mum actually offered me to be cikgu ganti at one school just nearer to my ouse..
but my dad said NO!!
His alasan is im goin to neglect my study n influence to perkara2 xelok laa..
To me,it doesnt a big prob to earn additional money..
well, u all knoe my dad kan..hurmmm..
wut can i say..
A big thanx to Allah coz my dad has tranferred to kl..
so that i can do wut i want..
it gives a bit freedom to me as well..

NO MONEY NO TALK!
my dad will give me gaji bulanan in order to do all housework!
yeah..i got xbanyak la..
approximately..RM400++ per month..
thats ok la compared to keje truk2 kt luar but earn just small salary..
ckupla utk bli wut i want n shoppin sk8..
yeah..i enjoyed cooking,dish-washing n all those stuff..
seriously xtipu..haha
at least im helping my mother..
lessen her burden..
u knoe im a good girl..=P
i think thats wut i wanna tell to u all now..
i wanna go to mandi 1st!

.........to be continued*
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fish spa=)

2008-05-05T17:45:00.000+08:00

i really CAN'T trust myself when it comes to MONEY.
n u shuldnt trust me if i say"eyh tak boleh xde budget" or "eyh tak nak lah, sayang duit oni".
hahahaha.
guess wut i did today??
FISH SPA..!!!
with my bestie, shoba.
the 1st 10mins:

shoba : makcik, come la try.BEST!!!
hana : eyh tak nak lah,geli. i don't want.u do alone.xpa.plus w8 my budget lari.haha.!!
10mins later, we BOTH dah masuk the pool..!!!!!!

it was very relaxing.SERIOUSLY..
the feeling of those fishes "tickling" n "kissing" my foot was great!!
at 1st i was like "eyh geli geli" but a few mins later "geli geli" turned out to be BEST!!!
hahaha...
u shud try dis fish spa..
its really worthy.
rm 42 for ur whole body..
okay kn??
haa now shoba n i are planning to hv dis fish spa as our monthly therapy since our 1st fish sp turned out to be WOW!!!
=)

*HANA*

unexpected

2008-05-02T18:54:00.000+08:00

if anyone asks, are u happy rite now??
the answer would definitely be YES!!
I AM HAPPY.yes i really am.

after knowin wut i've got 4 my contract paper, i told myself dat miss sik cheng peng is not dat bad.
hahahaha=)
i really tot she was gonna give me less than 5 out of 25 n i really tot i was gonna screw dis paper jz like hw i did for my contract I.
but it turned out to be good enough for me.=)
it wasn't dat gud or superb or extremely awesome but it was OKAY for me n OKAY for CONTRACT II paper, MISS SIK CHENG PENG'S paper, people!!!!!!
u noe wut i mean.haha!!
but somehow i still have to make sure dat i do well, i mean very very well for this paper in this comin final exam.
HOPEFULLY.AAMMMINNN.=)

-HANA-

my day=)

2008-05-01T20:22:00.001+08:00

the day has finally arrived.
i've finally got my "baby".
yeay!!!
thanx to my parents and brother for this precious "baby."
moga2 i can take a good care of it just like how my brother did.

-HANA-

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY=)

2008-04-30T10:02:00.000+08:00

this post is specially dedicated to my parents and my sister for their anniversary and birthday:

mama and ayah
::happy 30th anniversary::
::may you have a wonderful and blessed marriage::
::thank you for bringing me to this world=)::
::I LOVE YOU::

kakak[hani]
::happy 29th birthday::
::may Allah bless you::
::may you have a great and wonderful year ahead::
::I LOVE YOU::

-HANA-

yeay!!!!

2008-04-29T17:32:00.000+08:00

today is the HAPPIEST day of this whole sem!!!!!!
miss sik cheng peng's classes are finally OVER..
i couldnt sleep well last nite thinkin of her last class today..
happy gila sampai tak terkata sbb her last class today was pretty good..
thank you miss for being in such a good mood today..=)
n there's another thing dat makes me even more happier.
another 2 more days to get my new "baby".
i can HARDLY wait!!!!!!!

-hana-

Friendship is a strange thing. =)

2008-04-29T16:51:00.000+08:00

Well, I dont have much to say today.
But I've been thinking a lot lately bout all sort of thing.
And I've dicovered few things.
One of them is bout FRIENDSHIP.

Have u ever noticed that FRIENDSHIP is strange thing?
Our life doesn't depend on fame, or great acclaim or evern world's success.
But I think it depends a bit on world's success actually.
For sure everyone wants to be someone successful right?
But then the greatest thing in life is to know that there's someone who cares for u.
And even hold u close in their thoughts and prayers.
Imagine your life, knowing that no one even cares for u and no one even think of u.
Surely u'll be the saddest and the most pathetic person in this whole wide world!

Well, u can't live in this world without giving.
Life has its own give and take.
And as for me, a part of me, I put it into my friends.
Some of it, is my humor(although i suck at it),
A part of it are my ears for listening to all their problems and stories,
Some are my real life experience that I always share with them,
But above all, it is my friendship that I gave them.

Actually I've also discovered that our life of richness and completeness depends on the things we can share with our friends besides our family.
In this world, people need people and friends need friends right?
That is why I'm so thankful to have my friends around me and how they are always being there for me.
Thanks darlings, I do love u all so much.
It is by chance we met, by choice we bacame friends,
Locked up in this world full of strangers and we find ourselves telling each other the deepest of our lives.
See, FRIENDSHIP is strange thing!!

XOXO,

Zafirah Rosland

dedicated to my besties

2008-04-28T22:22:00.000+08:00

"Friends for life is what we are,

Through thick and thin you were my friend,

Leaning on you, you gave me support,

The strength to get up and go again,

If my heart was shattered, you'd heal it,

If my heart was happy, we both rejoiced in it,

You are my best friend always and forever,

It's been the best friendship ever,

Never end, now and forever"