I miss U both! :(

Hye readers!

This is the first entry for 2010 since I couldn't get along with this thingy before!

I do miss my besties..HANA n ZAFIRAH..Where r u guys?

Setau sy, angah da nk grad..hana stil kt umh n I??Still at this foreign place! Urgghh..

I feel so bad when it comes to this foreign place..I don't have besties like Hana N Zafirah..Pulak tu my soulmate 500km away from me..No fun, No malls, No parents here..sob2..

Ble sy boleh balik??En. Aziz, please tlg sy secepat mgkin..I need to go home..I miss my family and pets badly..

The problem now is..I don't know how to run the SPSS software expertly! I don't have a pinch of idea pun about inferential n all that..huh! Sbb dlu masa research methodlogy class sy sgt main2! Padan muka aku..No wonder I got B- oni for research method sbject..Plzz guys..Can u help me?

Angah? Have U used the software before?If U did, do tell me how..OK?
I'm waiting for ur 'research methodology class' to be started taw angah..;))

Nk tdo lah..penat mlayan respondent n mncari respondent..tomorrow am gonna meet Cosmopoint principal for the sake of the feedback letter N my fyp..

Nyte all..
Love, Malya_10

Sick and Tired

I am just so SICK and TIRED with normal guys.

Gosh! I need a MAN!!!

I need a one FINE MAN!

shoot!

xoxo

Cuti Saya Cuti

Saya tatau lah. Saya rasa seperti nak marah orang. Kenapa? Sebab orang tak faham keadaan saya. Tak faham apa? Tak faham yang saya ni ada tanggungjawab kat FAMILY saya. Macam mana? I have two little brothers to take care of. My parents are never ending busy. Ke sana ke sini. Saya kena menjaga makan minum adik-adik saya nih. Ingat saya tak nak keluar ke pegi tengok wayang segala? Saya nak sangat-sangat. But saya sedar yang saya ada tanggungjawab. Adik saya yang sorang tu sangatlah mengada tak nak makan makanan luar, so saya kena masak untuk dia. Yang lagi sorang tak habis-habis ajak saya tengok wayang. Tapi mak saya pulak tak habis-habis suruh saya buat tu buat ni. Nak marah or bantah tak boleh. Tu dah memang tanggungjawab saya sebagai seorang anak. Saya kena tolong mak saya. Yang buat saya marah nye, orang-orang yang tak faham nih. Yang sibuk nak message saya 24 jam. Saya malas lah nak reply. Yang ajak keluar lain pulak. Bukan saya taknak keluar. Okay, mungkin sebelum cuti saya ada cakap boleh keluar dengan orang-orang yang berkenaan. Tapi mana lah saya tau bila dah cuti jadi macam ni. Saya sibuk tolong packing barang abah, kemas rumah dan sebagainya. Ingat saya seronok ke? It's my freakin' holiday guys! I want to sit back and relax. But I can't! I want my own freakin' time! But I can't. Please la faham. Ingat saya ni tade keje lain ke nak keluar je? Saya bukan tak nak keluar. Saya mengaku, saya mungkin bole keluar tapi hanya untuk jangka masa yang singkat. Kalau nak keluar sangat dengan saya, jom, kita keluar pegi makan then terus balik. Nak? Mesti tak nak kan? Mama saya nih seorang ibu yang sangat lah risau akan keadaan anak-anak nya. Kalau saya keluar pukul 2 petang, pukul 7 saya tak balik lagi, mula lah dia risau. Biasalah, mothers. Ingat saya tak nak ke pegi bercuti. Saya nak bercuti jugak sebab this might be my last holiday. Next semester dah final semester. Then kena pegi practical and insyaAllah if murah rezeki, dapat keje I have to work pulak. Haihh. Tolong lah faham. Saya bila dah penat kemas rumah masak semua, mood nak keluar pun tade tau tak? Saya penat la. Tolong la, saya bukannya suka-suka tak nak keluar. Sepanjang cuti ni, saya asyik pegi jusco je. Banyak sangat barang nak kena beli. Saya rasa orang kat situ pun dah cam muka saya nih. Haihh. Saya tak tau lah nak cakap macam mana, bila orang tak faham, tu la yang membuatkan saya malas nak melayan. Menyampah pun ada. Annoyed tauuuuuuuu.

xoxo

Waffy yg Potex!

We were on our way back from Aunty Nordzie's house and heading to Waffy's French class in Jalan Gurney.

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Waffy : Angah Waffy rasa nanti hari Friday Waffy nak bawak camera la g skolah. Ye lah, friday kan hari last skolah.

Saya : Oh Okay, bawak lah. Eh, tapi mana ada camera. Camera mama, mama bawak. Kan mama nak g PD this friday.

Waffy : Waffy nak pinjam camera Angah la, boleh?

Saya : Boleh je. nanti charge la.

Waffy : Okay, nnt Angah bagi charger.

....few minutes later...

Waffy : Eh, tapelah Angah.

Saya : Nape pulak?

Waffy : Malu pulak Waffy nak bawak g skolah. Camera Angah kan ada bedazzled.

Saya : Potex lah Waffy!

xoxo

Nothing much....

I know I shouldn't be doing this. But, I'm just so tired of studying, Like I study alot lah kan, padahal buat revision x sampai half an hour, da penat, g kacau orang sana sini. I don't know how should I say this. But right now, what I am feeling is a mixture of feelings. First of all, kesian blog ni sebab da lama tak di update and I am very sure takde siapa pun baca blog ni dah. Hahaha. My first paper will be on 27th Oct. Very soon ayye? Haihh, sangat malas nak study ni. Kadang-kadang rasa marah, kadang-kadang rasa kesian, kadang0kadang rasa bengang. Entah lah. Penat tau tak? How I wish I could go some where yang orang lain tatau and be on my own. How I wish! Penat melayan kerenah orang. Penat nak puaskan hati semua orang and end up kita yang sakit. Sangat-sangat penat! Penat dengan orang yang tak faham kita. Penat dengan orang yang pentingkan diri sendiri. Penat dengan orang yang tak nak faham kehendak kita. Kita pun ada kehendak jugak. Kita pun ada rasa nak itu nak ini jugak. I am just so freakin tired! I really really am! I just need my own time. I need a 'me time'. But why I just can't get one? Why are all these people keep on doing things to me? Why? Dear God, I'll take these as my challenges. But till when do I have to face them? Sometimes I just kept on asking, why me? Why not anyone else? I know it's not a good thing to do. But I am just a normal human being and I want to live a normal life and sometimes I think that my life is abnormal. Why???? Haihhh. I know I shouldn't be complaining about things. I am just so thankful to have people who loves me around me. I do feel blessed. Bila saya tengok orang lain happy with their loved ones, saya jealous. Saya tak tahu kenapa. It's not that I am not happy, I am happy, tapi biasalah, manusia, tamak. I just don't know what to say anymore. I hope this feeling will end soon, very very soon. Dear God, please make me stronger. I know I have to be strong. I really need the strength. InsyaAllah I will never give up. My friends, I miss you very very much. I really need you right now. There's alot that I need to tell you guys about. I really hope we can meet.

xoxo

Katak dan Hujan

Katak panggil Hujan tapi Hujan tak turun.
Kenapa?
Katak perlukan Hujan, tapi Hujan tade.
Mungkin Hujan sudah bencikan Katak dan tidak mahu lagi menemani Katak.
Yea, mungkin begitu.
Terima kasih kepada Hujan kerana sudi menemani Katak selama ini.

xoxo

A little of something

Students In Free Enterprise or as we call it SIFE.
I've been busy with this SIFE thingy for the past 3 months, going back and forth from Ampang to Bangi and also from KL to Muadzam. Some people said that I am wasting my time with all of this stuff. When they asked me, what did I get by doing all of those, I will just smile. But, now, let me tell you, what did I gained from all of that.
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Well, to be frank, yeah, sometimes SIFE do pissed me of. Especially when it comes to time. They do not have the word PUNCTUALITY in the dictionary of their life and that really pissed me off.
But to think from the other side, it taught me how to be patient. Sangat menguji kesabaran..
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Friendship. There's always a time when you will realize who your 'friend' really is. So, as for me, I think I have come to that point. I have now realize few things bout friendship. My whole life, I've met lots and lots of people. All kind of people. And now, this particular friend of mine, has shown me, who this person really is. I am so grateful that SIFE has shown me your true colours me dear 'friend'. I still can accept you as a 'friend' but I don't think that we can be that close anymore. But wait, are we that close actually? Hrrmm, I just don't think so. Well, what you've done to me, I forgive you. I do not know whether to consider you as my bestie or not, because I just don't trust you anymore. I just can't. I'm sorry dear 'friend'. For me, there's only one thing you should do, you've not just hurt my feelings, but also the people around you. Just one thing, please, STOP PRETENDING! I know that you're kind, good and all that. But at times I just don't feel like you're doing it because you want to. I just don't understand you. What actually do you want from us. What actually are you thinking. Why do you hurt us? Why must you do that? Why do you have to be somebody else in front of everyone? Why do you have to deny the facts? Why do you have to choose someone that you just know for 2 months than your own friends that you've known for 3 years????? WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SUCH A HYPOCRITE????? Just stop pretending and be yourself. We're totally sick of it. Please!
But apart from that, I also met few people that are interesting, and motivating. Thanks to those who is always supporting me without fail. Thank you very much.
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Okay, bout the competition. There were 2 competitions. SHELL BETTER WORLD COMPETITION 2009 and SIFE MALAYSIA NATIONAL COMPETITION 2009. We won the 1st place for SHELL BETTER WORLD COMPETITION 2009. As for the national competition, we didn't get the 1st place but we made it to the final four. Maybe it's just not our time yet. Maybe Alah wants to give us something better than the 1st place. Everything happens for a reason. I was upset yesterday. I'm feeling better now. I do not want to think what had happened just from one point of view. For me, from the other point of view, SIFE has actually changed me and make me become a much better person. I used to be so afraid of talking in front of hundreds of people. But, finally, I did it. I managed to talk in front of hundreds of people. I'm so glad that I decided to join SIFE and be a speaker. To Kak Nad, thanks for training me. I know I'm not perfect but yet, you've taught me alot. Thank you very very much!
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I am happy and glad that the competiotion is over now. I am no longer going back and forth to bangi anymore. Ayong and Raffy are back. Ieqa and Mama will be back in 2 weeks time. Can't wait to see them. Yes, SIFE taught me a lot of things. And I shall remember those til the day that I die.

xoxo

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