Katak dan Hujan

Katak panggil Hujan tapi Hujan tak turun.
Kenapa?
Katak perlukan Hujan, tapi Hujan tade.
Mungkin Hujan sudah bencikan Katak dan tidak mahu lagi menemani Katak.
Yea, mungkin begitu.
Terima kasih kepada Hujan kerana sudi menemani Katak selama ini.

xoxo

A little of something

Students In Free Enterprise or as we call it SIFE.
I've been busy with this SIFE thingy for the past 3 months, going back and forth from Ampang to Bangi and also from KL to Muadzam. Some people said that I am wasting my time with all of this stuff. When they asked me, what did I get by doing all of those, I will just smile. But, now, let me tell you, what did I gained from all of that.
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Well, to be frank, yeah, sometimes SIFE do pissed me of. Especially when it comes to time. They do not have the word PUNCTUALITY in the dictionary of their life and that really pissed me off.
But to think from the other side, it taught me how to be patient. Sangat menguji kesabaran..
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Friendship. There's always a time when you will realize who your 'friend' really is. So, as for me, I think I have come to that point. I have now realize few things bout friendship. My whole life, I've met lots and lots of people. All kind of people. And now, this particular friend of mine, has shown me, who this person really is. I am so grateful that SIFE has shown me your true colours me dear 'friend'. I still can accept you as a 'friend' but I don't think that we can be that close anymore. But wait, are we that close actually? Hrrmm, I just don't think so. Well, what you've done to me, I forgive you. I do not know whether to consider you as my bestie or not, because I just don't trust you anymore. I just can't. I'm sorry dear 'friend'. For me, there's only one thing you should do, you've not just hurt my feelings, but also the people around you. Just one thing, please, STOP PRETENDING! I know that you're kind, good and all that. But at times I just don't feel like you're doing it because you want to. I just don't understand you. What actually do you want from us. What actually are you thinking. Why do you hurt us? Why must you do that? Why do you have to be somebody else in front of everyone? Why do you have to deny the facts? Why do you have to choose someone that you just know for 2 months than your own friends that you've known for 3 years????? WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SUCH A HYPOCRITE????? Just stop pretending and be yourself. We're totally sick of it. Please!
But apart from that, I also met few people that are interesting, and motivating. Thanks to those who is always supporting me without fail. Thank you very much.
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Okay, bout the competition. There were 2 competitions. SHELL BETTER WORLD COMPETITION 2009 and SIFE MALAYSIA NATIONAL COMPETITION 2009. We won the 1st place for SHELL BETTER WORLD COMPETITION 2009. As for the national competition, we didn't get the 1st place but we made it to the final four. Maybe it's just not our time yet. Maybe Alah wants to give us something better than the 1st place. Everything happens for a reason. I was upset yesterday. I'm feeling better now. I do not want to think what had happened just from one point of view. For me, from the other point of view, SIFE has actually changed me and make me become a much better person. I used to be so afraid of talking in front of hundreds of people. But, finally, I did it. I managed to talk in front of hundreds of people. I'm so glad that I decided to join SIFE and be a speaker. To Kak Nad, thanks for training me. I know I'm not perfect but yet, you've taught me alot. Thank you very very much!
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I am happy and glad that the competiotion is over now. I am no longer going back and forth to bangi anymore. Ayong and Raffy are back. Ieqa and Mama will be back in 2 weeks time. Can't wait to see them. Yes, SIFE taught me a lot of things. And I shall remember those til the day that I die.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Somebody's Me

You, do you remember me?

Like I remember you?

Do you spend your life

Going back in your mind to that time?

Because I

I walk the streets alone

I hate being on my own

And everyone can see that

I really fell

And I'm going through hell

Thinking about you with somebody else

Somebody wants you

Somebody needs you

Somebody dreams about you every single night

Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely

Somebody hopes that someday you will see

That Somebody's Me

How,

How could we go wrong

It was so good and now it's gone

And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross

And what we had isn't lost

Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

Somebody wants you

Somebody needs you

Somebody dreams about you every single night

Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely

Somebody hopes that someday you will see

That Somebody's Me

You'll always be in my life

Even if I'm not in your life

Because you're in my memory

You,

will you remember me

And before you set me free

Oh listen please

Somebody wants you

Somebody needs you

Somebody dreams about you every single night

Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely

Somebody hopes that someday you will see

That Somebody's Me

Song: Somebody's Me - Enrique Iglesias

I really like this song. Currently addicted to this song. Thanks to krul for introducing me to this song. X)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

saya pening

Dah lama saya tak update blog ni.

Been meaning to update but I just do not know what to share. Life has been quite dull for me I guess for the past few months. Actually I'm in the middle of completing my speech for the competition. But I'm lack of ideas. I do not know what to talk about and I do not know how to make my speech sounds great. Haiihh.. I really need help! I've been quite busy these days. Been going back and forth to Uniten Bangi. Hope its worth doing that. Huhu. I am just so tired right now. Been doing alot of thinking these days. Terlalu banyak yang difikirkan.

Sebenarnya saya baru sahaja lepas bergayut kat telefon dengan seorang sahabat saya yang boleh dikatakan agak lama tak contact atas sebab-sebab yang tak dapat nak dielakkan. Rasa cam best pulak bersembang. Banyak benda yang nak diceritakan. Hahaha. Apa2 pun, saya rindu kamu, kawan! XP.

Oh ya, SIFE National Competition will be in 2 and a half weeks time. The competition will be on 19th July til 21st July. Wish me luck! ^^.

Tiba-tiba sejak akhir-akhir ni saya terasa rindu pada seseorang. Seseorang yang pernah saya rapat dulu. Dah lama saya tak jumpa dan bercakap dengan beliau. Sebelum ni saya tak pernah pun terfikir sangat pasal beliau selepas apa yang jadi antara kitorang akhir tahun lepas. Tapi, sejak saya agak rapat dengan salah seorang kawan beliau ni, saya teringat kat beliau. Apa khabar beliau sekarang eh? Saya tatau nak cakap apa yang sebenarnya saya rasa sekarang ni. Mungkin saya konfius. Mungkin saya sebenarnya dalam dilema. *no matter what i do, all i think about is you..lalalala..*. Mungkinkah saya menyesal?? Oh tidak!! Saya tidak sepatut nya berfikiran begini. Life is all about making choices and taking risks. Tapi hakikatnya saya rindukan beliau!! Tapelah, saya doakan supaya beliau sentiasa happy and berjaya. ;)

Saya juga sebenarnya tak sabar nak tunggu kepulangan orang-orang yang saya sayang. Cepatlah pulang wahai Cik2 saya. Hehe. Bolehlah kita spend masa bersama-sama. Hari tu tak cukup. Huhu.

Okay lah, saya pun da ngantuk, speech tak siap-siap jugak. Haihh. Habis lah saya jika terus begini.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Suddenly..im upset. :(

I dont know why.
All of sudden i feel so lonely n upset.hurm.Maybe sbb xdpt join my girls(hana n zaf) spend tyme togetha.My mom went for a course, so, ive to take care towards my lil' sista.So annoying! heh.

I promise to meet up u guys in Malacca next July!
Sgt2 rindu to have a memorable moments, laughter and chit-chat all the times.
Ble igt telatah hana sy gelak sorg2..She is so makcik.haha kuat pelupa.Short term memory kowt.haha
Ble igt angah n her story, rse mcm nk jmpe skarang. Gosipping and crita2 mcm2 yg panas2..haha
U're guys so meaningful to me n i couldnt find anyonelse like You.
U must always update me and so do i.
I wont never breaking up our 5 years friendship.
Love You.

-Malya-

im back!

hey friends!

Im back with a new me and d latest stories. It's been ages i didnt write anytin or update myself on any post. Sebabnya, my room kt Uni cant be connected to the internet at all. So, i dont have an oppurtunity to write or even update my Fb or Friendster. Rase mcm kuno gle kan my Uni. Sgt la xbest.hurm..

UPSET
Last week, my exams's result was announced. Im the one who really2 scared of it. But then, mmg xsabar nak tau. I was checked my result via the net and i was so shocked! It didnt turn out so well.I feel so so upset because didnt achieve my targets. Memang 3. ++ tp still cant achieved dean lists!! After finished up all exams, i was like sgt2 confident and i know, ill get dean lists. But im still didnt get it.Sigh. Sedih mmg la sedih. Tp nk wat cmne. Maybe it's not my rezeki yet.

HAPPY
It has been few weeks aku di rumah. Wat sume keja umah and ive been paid by abah. Tu yang seronok tuh.hehe but ive just been paid for two months oni b'coz ive another commitment to be done. By 18th June, ill be going back to the foreign land. That's d place where i must graduate in flying colors. I dont give a damn on it. I must finish up my another 2 years course there! I planned to continue my studies after this. Yet, i dont hve any idea where should to go to. Sume org balik lambat ok! 4th July. But ive to get there earlier bcoz of music camp. Yes. That's one of my fav and fulfill my co-curiculum activities. tp,napelaaa tyme cuti.hurm. XSUKE2!
It spoilt my mood tau. Dahla nnt trus blaja..I dun have much time to rest dah.haish.Ni sume sbb show for convo. For this time being, i need to relief all the stresses before another depressed coming up upon the pack schedule and hectic condition. Btw, im still enjoy for what im gonna do and dont want to spoilt my music's spirit. ;)

LOVE
Yeah.. Im in love. He is differ from other guy and he has somthin that attracted me to him. He is not that handsome man like ppl gonna crazy into it. But he has 'handsome' style and aura to me. He wasnt too socialize to girls but he is so friendly. Maybe bcoz of he was ex-MCKKian that we've known there is no girl at all in that school except for the teachers. TETAPI, he is so close to me as in im his gf. hehe. He is always there for me. When im down, when im happy. He is always by my side. He is my really soulmate and best2 friend. We share everything. He never let me down but im the one who make him down sometimes. Im sorry dear.
He has finished his degree and will be graduated this coming convo. I feel like losing someone becoz i dun have anyone that close to me to share my probs or anytin in Uni. And now, ive to be an independant woman and do anytin by my own feet. Sometimes, rase bagus jugak sbb i can give full concentration on my study and no more day dreaming. He knows what i want and i know what he wanted for us. For the sake of this relationship, i wont let him go and ill try my best to accompany him. To my dear bff, HANA and ZAFIRAH, ill do the same thing 2 u guys as well. I'll try to be with u wherever u need me. This is the truly meaning of Love..:)

i cant believe hw fast things change.
but somehow i've decided to just move on with my life.
completing my studies wif DESIRED cgpa and that's it!
thanx to malya for your phone calls and messages which helped me a lot!
thanx to my dearly boyf who has always been there whenever i needed him esp when i was down and needed someone to lean on.
angah and malya, am missing u guys like hell.
i just want u guys to noe dat i cud nvr find someone who can replace u guys.
i've learnt something precious here, i mean living here has taught me a lot of things dat i shall nvr regret.
i believe dat God has determined the best for me.