A little of something

Students In Free Enterprise or as we call it SIFE.
I've been busy with this SIFE thingy for the past 3 months, going back and forth from Ampang to Bangi and also from KL to Muadzam. Some people said that I am wasting my time with all of this stuff. When they asked me, what did I get by doing all of those, I will just smile. But, now, let me tell you, what did I gained from all of that.
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Well, to be frank, yeah, sometimes SIFE do pissed me of. Especially when it comes to time. They do not have the word PUNCTUALITY in the dictionary of their life and that really pissed me off.
But to think from the other side, it taught me how to be patient. Sangat menguji kesabaran..
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Friendship. There's always a time when you will realize who your 'friend' really is. So, as for me, I think I have come to that point. I have now realize few things bout friendship. My whole life, I've met lots and lots of people. All kind of people. And now, this particular friend of mine, has shown me, who this person really is. I am so grateful that SIFE has shown me your true colours me dear 'friend'. I still can accept you as a 'friend' but I don't think that we can be that close anymore. But wait, are we that close actually? Hrrmm, I just don't think so. Well, what you've done to me, I forgive you. I do not know whether to consider you as my bestie or not, because I just don't trust you anymore. I just can't. I'm sorry dear 'friend'. For me, there's only one thing you should do, you've not just hurt my feelings, but also the people around you. Just one thing, please, STOP PRETENDING! I know that you're kind, good and all that. But at times I just don't feel like you're doing it because you want to. I just don't understand you. What actually do you want from us. What actually are you thinking. Why do you hurt us? Why must you do that? Why do you have to be somebody else in front of everyone? Why do you have to deny the facts? Why do you have to choose someone that you just know for 2 months than your own friends that you've known for 3 years????? WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SUCH A HYPOCRITE????? Just stop pretending and be yourself. We're totally sick of it. Please!
But apart from that, I also met few people that are interesting, and motivating. Thanks to those who is always supporting me without fail. Thank you very much.
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Okay, bout the competition. There were 2 competitions. SHELL BETTER WORLD COMPETITION 2009 and SIFE MALAYSIA NATIONAL COMPETITION 2009. We won the 1st place for SHELL BETTER WORLD COMPETITION 2009. As for the national competition, we didn't get the 1st place but we made it to the final four. Maybe it's just not our time yet. Maybe Alah wants to give us something better than the 1st place. Everything happens for a reason. I was upset yesterday. I'm feeling better now. I do not want to think what had happened just from one point of view. For me, from the other point of view, SIFE has actually changed me and make me become a much better person. I used to be so afraid of talking in front of hundreds of people. But, finally, I did it. I managed to talk in front of hundreds of people. I'm so glad that I decided to join SIFE and be a speaker. To Kak Nad, thanks for training me. I know I'm not perfect but yet, you've taught me alot. Thank you very very much!
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I am happy and glad that the competiotion is over now. I am no longer going back and forth to bangi anymore. Ayong and Raffy are back. Ieqa and Mama will be back in 2 weeks time. Can't wait to see them. Yes, SIFE taught me a lot of things. And I shall remember those til the day that I die.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Somebody's Me

You, do you remember me?

Like I remember you?

Do you spend your life

Going back in your mind to that time?

Because I

I walk the streets alone

I hate being on my own

And everyone can see that

I really fell

And I'm going through hell

Thinking about you with somebody else

Somebody wants you

Somebody needs you

Somebody dreams about you every single night

Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely

Somebody hopes that someday you will see

That Somebody's Me

How,

How could we go wrong

It was so good and now it's gone

And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross

And what we had isn't lost

Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

Somebody wants you

Somebody needs you

Somebody dreams about you every single night

Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely

Somebody hopes that someday you will see

That Somebody's Me

You'll always be in my life

Even if I'm not in your life

Because you're in my memory

You,

will you remember me

And before you set me free

Oh listen please

Somebody wants you

Somebody needs you

Somebody dreams about you every single night

Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely

Somebody hopes that someday you will see

That Somebody's Me

Song: Somebody's Me - Enrique Iglesias

I really like this song. Currently addicted to this song. Thanks to krul for introducing me to this song. X)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

saya pening

Dah lama saya tak update blog ni.

Been meaning to update but I just do not know what to share. Life has been quite dull for me I guess for the past few months. Actually I'm in the middle of completing my speech for the competition. But I'm lack of ideas. I do not know what to talk about and I do not know how to make my speech sounds great. Haiihh.. I really need help! I've been quite busy these days. Been going back and forth to Uniten Bangi. Hope its worth doing that. Huhu. I am just so tired right now. Been doing alot of thinking these days. Terlalu banyak yang difikirkan.

Sebenarnya saya baru sahaja lepas bergayut kat telefon dengan seorang sahabat saya yang boleh dikatakan agak lama tak contact atas sebab-sebab yang tak dapat nak dielakkan. Rasa cam best pulak bersembang. Banyak benda yang nak diceritakan. Hahaha. Apa2 pun, saya rindu kamu, kawan! XP.

Oh ya, SIFE National Competition will be in 2 and a half weeks time. The competition will be on 19th July til 21st July. Wish me luck! ^^.

Tiba-tiba sejak akhir-akhir ni saya terasa rindu pada seseorang. Seseorang yang pernah saya rapat dulu. Dah lama saya tak jumpa dan bercakap dengan beliau. Sebelum ni saya tak pernah pun terfikir sangat pasal beliau selepas apa yang jadi antara kitorang akhir tahun lepas. Tapi, sejak saya agak rapat dengan salah seorang kawan beliau ni, saya teringat kat beliau. Apa khabar beliau sekarang eh? Saya tatau nak cakap apa yang sebenarnya saya rasa sekarang ni. Mungkin saya konfius. Mungkin saya sebenarnya dalam dilema. *no matter what i do, all i think about is you..lalalala..*. Mungkinkah saya menyesal?? Oh tidak!! Saya tidak sepatut nya berfikiran begini. Life is all about making choices and taking risks. Tapi hakikatnya saya rindukan beliau!! Tapelah, saya doakan supaya beliau sentiasa happy and berjaya. ;)

Saya juga sebenarnya tak sabar nak tunggu kepulangan orang-orang yang saya sayang. Cepatlah pulang wahai Cik2 saya. Hehe. Bolehlah kita spend masa bersama-sama. Hari tu tak cukup. Huhu.

Okay lah, saya pun da ngantuk, speech tak siap-siap jugak. Haihh. Habis lah saya jika terus begini.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-