Cuti Saya Cuti

Saya tatau lah. Saya rasa seperti nak marah orang. Kenapa? Sebab orang tak faham keadaan saya. Tak faham apa? Tak faham yang saya ni ada tanggungjawab kat FAMILY saya. Macam mana? I have two little brothers to take care of. My parents are never ending busy. Ke sana ke sini. Saya kena menjaga makan minum adik-adik saya nih. Ingat saya tak nak keluar ke pegi tengok wayang segala? Saya nak sangat-sangat. But saya sedar yang saya ada tanggungjawab. Adik saya yang sorang tu sangatlah mengada tak nak makan makanan luar, so saya kena masak untuk dia. Yang lagi sorang tak habis-habis ajak saya tengok wayang. Tapi mak saya pulak tak habis-habis suruh saya buat tu buat ni. Nak marah or bantah tak boleh. Tu dah memang tanggungjawab saya sebagai seorang anak. Saya kena tolong mak saya. Yang buat saya marah nye, orang-orang yang tak faham nih. Yang sibuk nak message saya 24 jam. Saya malas lah nak reply. Yang ajak keluar lain pulak. Bukan saya taknak keluar. Okay, mungkin sebelum cuti saya ada cakap boleh keluar dengan orang-orang yang berkenaan. Tapi mana lah saya tau bila dah cuti jadi macam ni. Saya sibuk tolong packing barang abah, kemas rumah dan sebagainya. Ingat saya seronok ke? It's my freakin' holiday guys! I want to sit back and relax. But I can't! I want my own freakin' time! But I can't. Please la faham. Ingat saya ni tade keje lain ke nak keluar je? Saya bukan tak nak keluar. Saya mengaku, saya mungkin bole keluar tapi hanya untuk jangka masa yang singkat. Kalau nak keluar sangat dengan saya, jom, kita keluar pegi makan then terus balik. Nak? Mesti tak nak kan? Mama saya nih seorang ibu yang sangat lah risau akan keadaan anak-anak nya. Kalau saya keluar pukul 2 petang, pukul 7 saya tak balik lagi, mula lah dia risau. Biasalah, mothers. Ingat saya tak nak ke pegi bercuti. Saya nak bercuti jugak sebab this might be my last holiday. Next semester dah final semester. Then kena pegi practical and insyaAllah if murah rezeki, dapat keje I have to work pulak. Haihh. Tolong lah faham. Saya bila dah penat kemas rumah masak semua, mood nak keluar pun tade tau tak? Saya penat la. Tolong la, saya bukannya suka-suka tak nak keluar. Sepanjang cuti ni, saya asyik pegi jusco je. Banyak sangat barang nak kena beli. Saya rasa orang kat situ pun dah cam muka saya nih. Haihh. Saya tak tau lah nak cakap macam mana, bila orang tak faham, tu la yang membuatkan saya malas nak melayan. Menyampah pun ada. Annoyed tauuuuuuuu.

xoxo

Waffy yg Potex!

We were on our way back from Aunty Nordzie's house and heading to Waffy's French class in Jalan Gurney.

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Waffy : Angah Waffy rasa nanti hari Friday Waffy nak bawak camera la g skolah. Ye lah, friday kan hari last skolah.

Saya : Oh Okay, bawak lah. Eh, tapi mana ada camera. Camera mama, mama bawak. Kan mama nak g PD this friday.

Waffy : Waffy nak pinjam camera Angah la, boleh?

Saya : Boleh je. nanti charge la.

Waffy : Okay, nnt Angah bagi charger.

....few minutes later...

Waffy : Eh, tapelah Angah.

Saya : Nape pulak?

Waffy : Malu pulak Waffy nak bawak g skolah. Camera Angah kan ada bedazzled.

Saya : Potex lah Waffy!

xoxo

Nothing much....

I know I shouldn't be doing this. But, I'm just so tired of studying, Like I study alot lah kan, padahal buat revision x sampai half an hour, da penat, g kacau orang sana sini. I don't know how should I say this. But right now, what I am feeling is a mixture of feelings. First of all, kesian blog ni sebab da lama tak di update and I am very sure takde siapa pun baca blog ni dah. Hahaha. My first paper will be on 27th Oct. Very soon ayye? Haihh, sangat malas nak study ni. Kadang-kadang rasa marah, kadang-kadang rasa kesian, kadang0kadang rasa bengang. Entah lah. Penat tau tak? How I wish I could go some where yang orang lain tatau and be on my own. How I wish! Penat melayan kerenah orang. Penat nak puaskan hati semua orang and end up kita yang sakit. Sangat-sangat penat! Penat dengan orang yang tak faham kita. Penat dengan orang yang pentingkan diri sendiri. Penat dengan orang yang tak nak faham kehendak kita. Kita pun ada kehendak jugak. Kita pun ada rasa nak itu nak ini jugak. I am just so freakin tired! I really really am! I just need my own time. I need a 'me time'. But why I just can't get one? Why are all these people keep on doing things to me? Why? Dear God, I'll take these as my challenges. But till when do I have to face them? Sometimes I just kept on asking, why me? Why not anyone else? I know it's not a good thing to do. But I am just a normal human being and I want to live a normal life and sometimes I think that my life is abnormal. Why???? Haihhh. I know I shouldn't be complaining about things. I am just so thankful to have people who loves me around me. I do feel blessed. Bila saya tengok orang lain happy with their loved ones, saya jealous. Saya tak tahu kenapa. It's not that I am not happy, I am happy, tapi biasalah, manusia, tamak. I just don't know what to say anymore. I hope this feeling will end soon, very very soon. Dear God, please make me stronger. I know I have to be strong. I really need the strength. InsyaAllah I will never give up. My friends, I miss you very very much. I really need you right now. There's alot that I need to tell you guys about. I really hope we can meet.

xoxo

Katak dan Hujan

Katak panggil Hujan tapi Hujan tak turun.
Kenapa?
Katak perlukan Hujan, tapi Hujan tade.
Mungkin Hujan sudah bencikan Katak dan tidak mahu lagi menemani Katak.
Yea, mungkin begitu.
Terima kasih kepada Hujan kerana sudi menemani Katak selama ini.

xoxo

A little of something

Students In Free Enterprise or as we call it SIFE.
I've been busy with this SIFE thingy for the past 3 months, going back and forth from Ampang to Bangi and also from KL to Muadzam. Some people said that I am wasting my time with all of this stuff. When they asked me, what did I get by doing all of those, I will just smile. But, now, let me tell you, what did I gained from all of that.
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Well, to be frank, yeah, sometimes SIFE do pissed me of. Especially when it comes to time. They do not have the word PUNCTUALITY in the dictionary of their life and that really pissed me off.
But to think from the other side, it taught me how to be patient. Sangat menguji kesabaran..
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Friendship. There's always a time when you will realize who your 'friend' really is. So, as for me, I think I have come to that point. I have now realize few things bout friendship. My whole life, I've met lots and lots of people. All kind of people. And now, this particular friend of mine, has shown me, who this person really is. I am so grateful that SIFE has shown me your true colours me dear 'friend'. I still can accept you as a 'friend' but I don't think that we can be that close anymore. But wait, are we that close actually? Hrrmm, I just don't think so. Well, what you've done to me, I forgive you. I do not know whether to consider you as my bestie or not, because I just don't trust you anymore. I just can't. I'm sorry dear 'friend'. For me, there's only one thing you should do, you've not just hurt my feelings, but also the people around you. Just one thing, please, STOP PRETENDING! I know that you're kind, good and all that. But at times I just don't feel like you're doing it because you want to. I just don't understand you. What actually do you want from us. What actually are you thinking. Why do you hurt us? Why must you do that? Why do you have to be somebody else in front of everyone? Why do you have to deny the facts? Why do you have to choose someone that you just know for 2 months than your own friends that you've known for 3 years????? WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SUCH A HYPOCRITE????? Just stop pretending and be yourself. We're totally sick of it. Please!
But apart from that, I also met few people that are interesting, and motivating. Thanks to those who is always supporting me without fail. Thank you very much.
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Okay, bout the competition. There were 2 competitions. SHELL BETTER WORLD COMPETITION 2009 and SIFE MALAYSIA NATIONAL COMPETITION 2009. We won the 1st place for SHELL BETTER WORLD COMPETITION 2009. As for the national competition, we didn't get the 1st place but we made it to the final four. Maybe it's just not our time yet. Maybe Alah wants to give us something better than the 1st place. Everything happens for a reason. I was upset yesterday. I'm feeling better now. I do not want to think what had happened just from one point of view. For me, from the other point of view, SIFE has actually changed me and make me become a much better person. I used to be so afraid of talking in front of hundreds of people. But, finally, I did it. I managed to talk in front of hundreds of people. I'm so glad that I decided to join SIFE and be a speaker. To Kak Nad, thanks for training me. I know I'm not perfect but yet, you've taught me alot. Thank you very very much!
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I am happy and glad that the competiotion is over now. I am no longer going back and forth to bangi anymore. Ayong and Raffy are back. Ieqa and Mama will be back in 2 weeks time. Can't wait to see them. Yes, SIFE taught me a lot of things. And I shall remember those til the day that I die.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Somebody's Me

You, do you remember me?

Like I remember you?

Do you spend your life

Going back in your mind to that time?

Because I

I walk the streets alone

I hate being on my own

And everyone can see that

I really fell

And I'm going through hell

Thinking about you with somebody else

Somebody wants you

Somebody needs you

Somebody dreams about you every single night

Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely

Somebody hopes that someday you will see

That Somebody's Me

How,

How could we go wrong

It was so good and now it's gone

And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross

And what we had isn't lost

Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

Somebody wants you

Somebody needs you

Somebody dreams about you every single night

Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely

Somebody hopes that someday you will see

That Somebody's Me

You'll always be in my life

Even if I'm not in your life

Because you're in my memory

You,

will you remember me

And before you set me free

Oh listen please

Somebody wants you

Somebody needs you

Somebody dreams about you every single night

Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely

Somebody hopes that someday you will see

That Somebody's Me

Song: Somebody's Me - Enrique Iglesias

I really like this song. Currently addicted to this song. Thanks to krul for introducing me to this song. X)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

saya pening

Dah lama saya tak update blog ni.

Been meaning to update but I just do not know what to share. Life has been quite dull for me I guess for the past few months. Actually I'm in the middle of completing my speech for the competition. But I'm lack of ideas. I do not know what to talk about and I do not know how to make my speech sounds great. Haiihh.. I really need help! I've been quite busy these days. Been going back and forth to Uniten Bangi. Hope its worth doing that. Huhu. I am just so tired right now. Been doing alot of thinking these days. Terlalu banyak yang difikirkan.

Sebenarnya saya baru sahaja lepas bergayut kat telefon dengan seorang sahabat saya yang boleh dikatakan agak lama tak contact atas sebab-sebab yang tak dapat nak dielakkan. Rasa cam best pulak bersembang. Banyak benda yang nak diceritakan. Hahaha. Apa2 pun, saya rindu kamu, kawan! XP.

Oh ya, SIFE National Competition will be in 2 and a half weeks time. The competition will be on 19th July til 21st July. Wish me luck! ^^.

Tiba-tiba sejak akhir-akhir ni saya terasa rindu pada seseorang. Seseorang yang pernah saya rapat dulu. Dah lama saya tak jumpa dan bercakap dengan beliau. Sebelum ni saya tak pernah pun terfikir sangat pasal beliau selepas apa yang jadi antara kitorang akhir tahun lepas. Tapi, sejak saya agak rapat dengan salah seorang kawan beliau ni, saya teringat kat beliau. Apa khabar beliau sekarang eh? Saya tatau nak cakap apa yang sebenarnya saya rasa sekarang ni. Mungkin saya konfius. Mungkin saya sebenarnya dalam dilema. *no matter what i do, all i think about is you..lalalala..*. Mungkinkah saya menyesal?? Oh tidak!! Saya tidak sepatut nya berfikiran begini. Life is all about making choices and taking risks. Tapi hakikatnya saya rindukan beliau!! Tapelah, saya doakan supaya beliau sentiasa happy and berjaya. ;)

Saya juga sebenarnya tak sabar nak tunggu kepulangan orang-orang yang saya sayang. Cepatlah pulang wahai Cik2 saya. Hehe. Bolehlah kita spend masa bersama-sama. Hari tu tak cukup. Huhu.

Okay lah, saya pun da ngantuk, speech tak siap-siap jugak. Haihh. Habis lah saya jika terus begini.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Suddenly..im upset. :(

I dont know why.
All of sudden i feel so lonely n upset.hurm.Maybe sbb xdpt join my girls(hana n zaf) spend tyme togetha.My mom went for a course, so, ive to take care towards my lil' sista.So annoying! heh.

I promise to meet up u guys in Malacca next July!
Sgt2 rindu to have a memorable moments, laughter and chit-chat all the times.
Ble igt telatah hana sy gelak sorg2..She is so makcik.haha kuat pelupa.Short term memory kowt.haha
Ble igt angah n her story, rse mcm nk jmpe skarang. Gosipping and crita2 mcm2 yg panas2..haha
U're guys so meaningful to me n i couldnt find anyonelse like You.
U must always update me and so do i.
I wont never breaking up our 5 years friendship.
Love You.

-Malya-

im back!

hey friends!

Im back with a new me and d latest stories. It's been ages i didnt write anytin or update myself on any post. Sebabnya, my room kt Uni cant be connected to the internet at all. So, i dont have an oppurtunity to write or even update my Fb or Friendster. Rase mcm kuno gle kan my Uni. Sgt la xbest.hurm..

UPSET
Last week, my exams's result was announced. Im the one who really2 scared of it. But then, mmg xsabar nak tau. I was checked my result via the net and i was so shocked! It didnt turn out so well.I feel so so upset because didnt achieve my targets. Memang 3. ++ tp still cant achieved dean lists!! After finished up all exams, i was like sgt2 confident and i know, ill get dean lists. But im still didnt get it.Sigh. Sedih mmg la sedih. Tp nk wat cmne. Maybe it's not my rezeki yet.

HAPPY
It has been few weeks aku di rumah. Wat sume keja umah and ive been paid by abah. Tu yang seronok tuh.hehe but ive just been paid for two months oni b'coz ive another commitment to be done. By 18th June, ill be going back to the foreign land. That's d place where i must graduate in flying colors. I dont give a damn on it. I must finish up my another 2 years course there! I planned to continue my studies after this. Yet, i dont hve any idea where should to go to. Sume org balik lambat ok! 4th July. But ive to get there earlier bcoz of music camp. Yes. That's one of my fav and fulfill my co-curiculum activities. tp,napelaaa tyme cuti.hurm. XSUKE2!
It spoilt my mood tau. Dahla nnt trus blaja..I dun have much time to rest dah.haish.Ni sume sbb show for convo. For this time being, i need to relief all the stresses before another depressed coming up upon the pack schedule and hectic condition. Btw, im still enjoy for what im gonna do and dont want to spoilt my music's spirit. ;)

LOVE
Yeah.. Im in love. He is differ from other guy and he has somthin that attracted me to him. He is not that handsome man like ppl gonna crazy into it. But he has 'handsome' style and aura to me. He wasnt too socialize to girls but he is so friendly. Maybe bcoz of he was ex-MCKKian that we've known there is no girl at all in that school except for the teachers. TETAPI, he is so close to me as in im his gf. hehe. He is always there for me. When im down, when im happy. He is always by my side. He is my really soulmate and best2 friend. We share everything. He never let me down but im the one who make him down sometimes. Im sorry dear.
He has finished his degree and will be graduated this coming convo. I feel like losing someone becoz i dun have anyone that close to me to share my probs or anytin in Uni. And now, ive to be an independant woman and do anytin by my own feet. Sometimes, rase bagus jugak sbb i can give full concentration on my study and no more day dreaming. He knows what i want and i know what he wanted for us. For the sake of this relationship, i wont let him go and ill try my best to accompany him. To my dear bff, HANA and ZAFIRAH, ill do the same thing 2 u guys as well. I'll try to be with u wherever u need me. This is the truly meaning of Love..:)

i cant believe hw fast things change.
but somehow i've decided to just move on with my life.
completing my studies wif DESIRED cgpa and that's it!
thanx to malya for your phone calls and messages which helped me a lot!
thanx to my dearly boyf who has always been there whenever i needed him esp when i was down and needed someone to lean on.
angah and malya, am missing u guys like hell.
i just want u guys to noe dat i cud nvr find someone who can replace u guys.
i've learnt something precious here, i mean living here has taught me a lot of things dat i shall nvr regret.
i believe dat God has determined the best for me.

Yeay!!

Exams over! Yeayyyy!!!!! But still x bole balik. Have to go to Felda tomorrow morning for Bihah's project. Will be going back on Saturday insyaAllah. Can't wait to go back! France, here I come! =P

x0x0

-zafirahrosland-

Happy Birthday Dear Sister

This entry is specially dedicated to my beloved sister, Liyana Rosland.

Dear sister,
Do you still remember when we were small, we used to stick together? Do you still remember how Abah and Mama always bought us the same clothes, toys, watches and almost everything that we had when we were small were the same except for the colours. Oh! I miss the good old days.

I miss you dear sister. I miss celebrating our birthday together like we used to when we were small. I miss celebrating my birthday with you and with the rest of the family. I miss celebrating your birthday and I miss celebrating Ieqa's, Raffy's, Waffy's, Abah's and Mama's birthday. I miss those moments. I miss us.

Things are different nowadays. We can hardly be together, go out together, shop together and gossip together. It's because of the distance that we are in right now. But no matter how far we are, we are still sisters. You will always be remembered in my heart and soul.(Macam ayat utk bf pula. =P).

Having a sister like you is like having a bestfriens that I can't get rid of. I know that no matter what I do, you will still be there for me. Thanks sis. You are the part of my childhood that I am very sure will never be lost. When Abah and Mama don't undertand, you always will. I am so thankful to have a sister like you. It was nice growing up with someone like you, someone to lean on, someone to count on and also someone to tell everything to. You are my mirror, shining back at me with a world of possibilities. You are my witness, who sees me at my worst and best, and loves me anyway. You are my partner in crime, my midnight companion, someone who knows when I'm smiling, even in the dark. You are my teacher, my defense attorney, my personal press agent, even I shrink. Thanks alot sister!

Happy 23rd birthday my dearest sister. Enjoy your special day. Have a blast! May Allah swt bless you always and all your dreams come true. May you find the perfect man to be yourn perfect husband, perfect friend, who can take care of you, accept you for who you are and be with you through thick and thins. Cepat-cepatlah kawin! Semoga dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki. Berjaya dan bahagia dunia dan akhirat. I love you so much. I miss you like hell lah. Can't wait to see you!

"Sisters annoy, interfere, criticize. Indulge in monumental sulks, in
huffs, in snide remarks. Borrow. Break. Monopolize the
bathroom. Are always underfoot. But if catastrophe should strike,
sisters are there. Defending you against all comers."

XOXO

-zafirahrosland-

Hey there.

I've been abandoning this thingy for quite a long time. Been very very busy with stuffs. Ouh yeah, Abah, Mama and Waffy are back. Sangat sangat bahagia. My finals are next week. I'm not sure whether I'm fully prepared or not. got loads f other stuffs coming up and i'm becoming stress and stresser(is that a word?). Yeah, whatevs.

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March 24th

Management Information System.

--> i dont really like this subject. About those IT thingy. Saya ni buta IT okay. I really hope I can jawab those soalan yang bakal keluar dengan jaya nya.

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March 26th
Macroeconomics.
--> Need to study balik apa yg dia ajar. Cuz the lecturer also ajar dlm keadaan kelam kabut cuz x cukup masa. Yeah. sem ni sangat banyak cuti.

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March 27th.
English.
--> Saya tatau apa yg akan masuk and saya tatau nak study apa untuk subject ini. HELP!!

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March 28th.
Research Method
--> One of the killer subject. Apa yg diajar, xkan keluar dalam exam, apa yg tak diajar akan keluar. So, saya sangat risau. =S

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March 31st.
Management Science.
--> Killer subject. Saya seorang yg gelabah dan cepat panik. So, saya akan gelabah bila nak buat soalan and end up saya tak dapat jawab. Thats why I hate maths!

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April 2nd.
Human Resource Management.
--> My fav subject. Sangat berharap dapat score.

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No gab from 26th til 28th. Saya sangat takut dan risau. Please pray for me. Wish me luck for my finals.

Ouh yeah, I just can't wait! Will be going to France on April 13th til May 12th. Bole g sebulan je sbb beli ticket murah. Huhu. Never mind, janji dapat pegi. Sangat2 excited. Can't wait to see my sisters n brother.

Need to sambung my revision. Please pray for my success.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

MISKUZA

Feels like updating this blog although I don't have much to say. Abah, Mama and Waffy will be arriving on the 1st of March. Really can't wait to see them. Will have to wait few more months to meet my sisters and Raffy. Never mind, I'm sure it worth the wait. Ouh yeah, I am in the middle of a mission right now. Hehe. XD. The name of my mission is "MISKUZA". It stands for "Misi Kurus Zafirah". LOL. Please do pray for my success. I am trying my best to control my diet. I can't stand it. Perut saya buncit and it does not look good! Huhu. Do pray for my success eh? I want to look good in my graduation day photo (although it will be in July or Aug 2010, insyaAllah), I want to look gorgeous in my wedding photo too (walaupun ni lambat lagi, tapi saya hanya m'buat persediaan awal. =P)!

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

21 I am.

I am officially 21! Heh. it was a big day for me. It started with a quite dull day and a not so good morning but it ended with a really great night for me. I was sick on my birthday night. Had sore throat and flu. I had a serious head ache that night. Feels like nak demam. I slept early that night but still I woke up at 12. My housemates woke me up and sang 'Happy birthday to u' for me. Really appreciate that dears. Love u lots. Got the 1st call from my beloved Hana. Thanks dear. Went to my lab class at 8. Then after that I did some revision for my exam at 3. Went for my tutor class at 6 and I have class at 7.30. And yeah, ada presentation jugak. Hows that? I hate my birthday. But, that was what I felt in the firts place. Bila class da habis, tiba2 Mizah cakap nak g toilet and I was like, "huh? okay, g la, I tggu u dlm kete". I was so not in the mood at that time. Suddenly she said, 'Yang, I takut la, gelap". Dengan muka yang kerek I jawab, "U nak takut ape? Bukannye ade pape", sambil berjalan dengan laju nya ke kereta. By the time I opened my pintu kereta, I heard a few people singing 'Happy birthday to u'. When I turned my back, there they were, with a cake for me. Hehe. Sangat lah teruja dan seronok. Huhu. I never thought of celebrating it because we were all busy with quizzes, exams and assignments. I just have to thank them all for these. And, the mastermind for this surprise, MR.BB (bntt besar). Thanks dear! <3. Thanks to Mr.BB, Yus, Samad, Eg, Nina, Nadz, Fara, Nana n Mizah. Love you guys lots n lots. *hugs+kisses*. <3. Here are some of last night's pics. =)

-Fara, Nadz n Yus-

-Mr.BB, Eg, Yus, Fara n Nadz-

-Mereka lagi. =)-

L-R: Samad, Eg, Yus, Mr.BB

-Us-

-Mr.BB n I-

-My presents-

These are the pictures during the bbq night on SIFE Open Day. They celebrated my birthday and also Didi's.

-Didi and I =)-

Thats all for now. =)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Hati saya sakit

I do not know how to explain how am I feeling right now. But what I know is that it is a mixture of offended, angry and insulted. I felt offended by an opinion given by one of my classmate. A few weeks ago, we were given a few topics on opinion speech. The topics were Learning English, World Peace and the Quality of Young Graduates in Malaysia. We were given an assignment to write an essay based on the topic that we choose. As for my group and I, we chose Learning English. Okay, that was no what I wanted to talk about now.

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Actually I wanted to talk about one of my classmate that chose World Peace as his topic. Okay, that was an interesting topic to choose. After completing the essay, we have to present it in front of the whole class. So, today was his turn. His opinion was, there will be no world peace in this world. Okay, at first I wanted to accept his opinion. I know and I understand that it is hard for us to actually achieve world peace. But when he kept on talking about his opinion, I felt angry and offended. Why?

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1. Because he said that all humans are cruel. Well, mister, a bit of correction there. Not everybody in this world are cruel. When you say everyone in this world is cruel, you are pointing at yourself too.

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2. He also said that, 'don't ever dream of world peace'. He was talking about Nakhbar Palestine (I'm not sure whether that's the correct spelling, Sorry if the spelling is wrong.) that happened about 60 years ago. He said that nobody did anything. So, till now, the Israeli are still doing the same thing to the Palestinians and still we did nothing. Because we are cruel. Oh man, you got that wrong. You might not see what others did because you did not do the same thing. You might say people are wasting their time by doing things and end up nothing happened, the war is still on and what ever it is. You said things like that, because you never did your part. We, here, have done our parts. At least we did something for them. We helped them. Encik, tolong tu tak semestinya kita kena pergi berperang sekali dengan diorang. Sangat banyak cara untuk tolong diorang. Kita bersuara, kita sign petition, kita boycott barangan Yahudi, kita derma kat tabung untuk Plaestin. With those things, they actually menolong sedikit sebanyak.

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3. You said that people are wasting their time by signing those petitions and when our PM send that thing to US, they rejected it. I don't feel that thing as a watse of time. Don't you know, dengan cara tu, bila ramai dah bersuara and so on barulah Israel berundur? (Do correct me if I'm wrong).

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4. You also pointed out that we Malaysians are so proud with what we have. But we did nothing with those things. You mentioned about the new jet, I can't remember what was the name of the jet. Starts with S something something. And yeah, I can remember clearly you mentioned about the new submarine. Hello mister? Did you know yang the submarine is still in progress? Memanglah submarine tu dah siap, tapi bukannya boleh guna terus terus macam tu je. Still need nak train lagi nak test semua benda lagi. Macam if nak beli kereta baru la, kena test drive dulu. Bukannya baru keluar dari kilang dah bole terus pakai macam tu je. Dude, do think before you nak cakap apa-apa. Jangan cakap pakai sedap mulut je.

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5. You also said to those who did not agree with you, please wake up and be realistic. There's no such thing as world peace. I am awake right now and I believe that you are not rationale. Anda cakap ikut sedap mulut je. Sekurang-kurangnya, saya ada menolong sedikit sebanyak daripada tak tolong langsung. Setidak-tidaknya saya tolong orang yang seagama dengan saya. Orang yang seIslam dengan saya. Awak tu? Apa yang awak buat? Awak bukan je tak buat pape je, awak siap pengaruh orang lagi untuk tak payah buat apa-apa. Saya bukannya nak berbangga atau bermegah-megah dengan apa yang saya buat, tapi saya sangat sangat marah bila awak cakap macam tu. Walau sebesar zarah pun awak tolong, biarpun orang lain tak nampak, tapi Allah nampak. Nanti bila Allah tanya apa yang awak lakukan untuk tolong orang-orang yang seagama dengan awak, apa yang awak nak jawab? Awak pengaruh orang supaya tak payah buat apa-apa? Huh. Walaupun saya ni taklah pious, tapi saya taklah sejahil awak. Saya tak pentingkan diri sendiri.

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From what you've presented, I can conclude that you actually know nothing but instead you act like you know everything. It is true that he who knows does not speak. He who speak does not know. That clearly represents you. For me, you are the one who should wake up and think rationally. Don't jump into conclusions easily. If tak nak buat, jangan ajak orang lain, and jangan sakitkan hati orang lain dengan kata-kata awak. Awak macam merendah-rendah kan usaha orang lain.

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I'm done.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland

30 days to go.

Hey!!! 30 days to go till my birthday!! Oh I just can't wait! I'm turning 21. It's the key of freedom. Hehe. Is it? Nope, I don't think so. Well, for me, 21 means I'm getting old! But I can't wait to get old. Haha. Okay, enough bout that. Still have 30 days to go. But am excited! =P.

1. My parents will be coming back soon! Oh! I just can't wait! =D. They will be coming back by end of February, insyaAllah.

2. Got a lot of tests coming up. Let me see, errrmmm, there's,

a) Management Information System Quiz that covers 3 chapters this Monday(Jan 12th).

b) Management Science Quiz on Tuesday( Jan 13th)

c) Research Method test that covers 4 chapters on Wednesday(Jan 14th) at 1.00-2.00pm.

d) Macroeconomy quiz that covers 3 chapters on Wednesday too at 3.00-4.30pm.

I am so dead!

3. And yeah, it's 'his' birthday on Wednesday. My dear, am so sorry that your birthday falls on that particular Wednesday. =P

4. HANA and MALYA, am missing you like hell here. When can I see you guys? Ohh! ='(

Okay, I guess gotta start studying. I'm off to the world of reading! Hehe. =)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-