" do you know wut ur problem is, naz?
U memamg tak boleh tengok org lain lebih dr u kan?"

did i say those words?

YES i did.i really did.

it happened about a yr ago, it took place in clc and the main casts of this so-called tragic scene are
NAZUAN and HANA.hahaha.

we fought over the smallest stupidest thing ever, jz bcoz of the ending of our drama, tasked by our english lecturer. okay, there is no need to elaborate more.when i come to think of dis,i keep telling myself,"eh bodohnye la aku.bnde kecik pon nk jd isu."

and later we were not in the speaking term for a few mnths. he even called me puaka!hahaha.JAHAT u naz!

n yesterday was our 1st time hanging out together after wut happened. yesterday, i realized hw much i miss all those moments we had before. i miss all the gossiping sessions wif him.I REALLY DO.nazuan is the type of person u dun wana mess up wif n u dun wana let go as a friend.hes really gud in cheering u up n he noes hw to make u laugh n he even noes hw to make you CRY.believe me!!
we even brought up the issue of our "gaduh scene" n we both laughed at our own stupidity or shud i call it immaturity?
WUTEVER.

i did learn sumthin precious of wut happened.apart of me, i thank God dat dis happened to me,to us."jgn percaya ckp org 100%".dats wut i have learnt, a very good lesson indeed.u see hw "A MOUTH" can actually destroy one's life.

enough reminiscing!! lets talk about GET SMART!!

me, shoba n nazuan went to watch get smart last nite n i rated 5 stars for dis movie. thanx to naz sbb belanja ticket.hehe. i jz couldnt stop laughing while watchin dis movie. u shud see hw smart max is as the CIA. our tenses in miss monique's class have peen paid-off after watching dis movie.hahaha.u guys patut pegi tgk dis movie.its worth it.=)

*hana*

Time to go.

I'll be leaving soon. I'll be going to Paris in a few hours time. OMG! I'm so sad actually. Pagi tadi lepas bangun tidur I saw Waffy crying. I asked him nape dia nangis but then he didn't answer and keep on crying. Actually, I tau nape dia nangis. Adoi je. Waffy ni, dia buat I nak nangis skali snanye. But, I tried my best not to cry in front of him. Iskk. I said to him, 'Nnt if da nak g skola, cari Angah kat atas. Angah kat attic.' And, few minutes later, he came. He didn't say anything but then just salam and kissed me. Then dia nangis balik. Adoi je la Waffy, nape la awak nangis. Kan Angah pun da nak nangis same nih. Sentimental betul la budak nih. Then bila I turun bawah, dia x g skola lagi. Tapi dia tgh nangis kat depan. Adoi, Waffy, Waffy. I told him to study hard n jgn lawan cakap mama. Lagi teruk dia nangis lepas tu. By the time dia nak g skola, he was still crying. I hugged him, I felt like crying but I just tahan je. I don't wanna cry. I've been dealing with this kind of feeling for almost 5 years. For all these years, I've been crying on the plane on my way back to Malaysia. I never cried in front of my family bila time nak balik, Malaysia. I akan tunggu sampai dalam plane baru I akan nangis. Heh. Okay, enough for now. Gotta go. Haven't finish packing yet. Uncle Mansor will be here anytime by now. Gonna miss everything here. I miss everything already. =(

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

I AM HAPPY

yeeayyyy!!!!!!!!

i think i deserve dis happiness after wut i went through for those past few days.

TODAY is my happiest day ever.

it feels like the whole world is mine.haha.

to shoba, lets just keep of wut happened to ourselves, okay?=)

and heres something dat i wud like to share wif u guys.


Younger man + older woman = Happy marriage?

What would a star couple have in common with the Iyers?

Like Bollywood stars Abhishek Bachchan and Aishwarya Rai, Gitanjali and Subodh Iyer, bank professionals from Mumbai, also have an age difference of three years.

Gitanjali is older than Subodh.

Talk to them about this and they laugh. "It doesn't matter any more," says Gitanjali, "We had almost forgotten about these small things."

But was it a 'small thing' when they got married? "It wasn't," she admits.

Both of them came from traditional families. Gitanjali is a Sindhi and Subodh a South Indian. They met in State Bank of India and fell in love. When the couple decided to get married, they realised it was not going to be an easy journey.

They had to decide on a strategy to tackle their respective parents. "We sat and discussed how we are going to go about it," says Subodh, "It was not a conventional marriage. Firstly, it was an intercaste match. And then, I was younger than the bride."

Maturity levels

The maturity levels of both the partners can make or break a marriage. That was the case with Ernest and Yasmin Remedios. Yasmin, a writer and yoga teacher, met Ernest, who works for E-serve, an IT company, while on a hiking trip.

The romance blossomed despite the age difference. "Our age was never a problem," says Yasmin. "Ernest is more mature when it comes to finance, home, and I don't think I would be able to manage without his support," she feels.

It also helped that they got the support of their respective families. She says their ethnic backgrounds are close (Yasmin is a Parsi and Ernest is Christian), as such both their parents were ok with the relationship.

Not everyone is lucky, though. Priya (name changed) was dating her friend, who was four years younger than her. "We were truly in love with each other to begin with," she says, "As time went by I realised that the enthusiasm that I had fallen for was actually childishness. I continued with the relationship in the hope that maturity would creep in."

Unfortunately, she recollects, that did not happen. Though both their families had accepted their relationship, Priya eventually broke up with him.

According to her, different women have different tolerance levels. "Younger men generally get attracted to older women because they see a more mature and responsible person in her," says Priya. "When a woman accepts this responsibility, the relationship works fine. But when a woman cannot be a mother-figure all the time, that's when the problems begin."

Career and money

One of the reasons why younger men end up with older women is because of the financial stability she offers. Rita Pandey, a psychiatrist from Pune, recounts the story of her cousin, a gazetted officer, who married her office assistant.

The girl, 30, married her 26-year old subordinate after putting him through night school to improve his English. Since he came from a modest background, she helped him apply for loans that would help them live independently. "She also makes him take exams regularly to further his career," Rita says.

Expert speak

Marriage counsellor Ratna Khemani says, "We've grown up with the traditional idea of a husband protecting the wife, caring for her, earning for her after they are married. That has changed today because both are qualified and earning." However, Ratna cautions that a big age disparity has led many couples to separate.

"If there is an eight to nine-year gap, the chance of it working out seems less bright. The first few years of bliss will be replaced by tension resulting from the insecurities that often creep up in a woman's mind," she says. Something as common as friends too can widen the rift between couples, as both sets have different mindset.

Stress too plays a role in the breakdown of these marriages.

"Today marriages between older women and younger men don't often work because of stress in everyday life. Criticism over expectations, fears and a suspicious nature add to the problems," she says. Financial disparity also plays a very key role, she adds.

Surprisingly, child bearing is never considered a problem because many high-powered couples do not even think of having a child these days.

Despite all these disparities, however, Ratna says these marriages can work if:

• Both want it to work.
• Both love, trust, and respect each other.
• Adjust to and understand each other's needs, and
• Are there for each other.

" If you like/love a woman who is older than you, then there comes the point, and age is not a concern if both of them are satisfied in the looks,maturity,love,understanding and affection".

*hana*=)

BOREDOM

i am bored





i am bored




i am bored


this boredom is killing me


"i am praying for a better day tomorrow,way much more better".

one saturday morning

call me kuno, outdated, jakun or wutsoever but yesterday was my 1st time pegi one utama lps their renovation about a yr ago. OMG, the new OU is freaking big.tersgt besar.n believe me it took me about 6hrs utk habiskn tour around OU. n its not too much for me to say dat its about 4 times bigger than jj melaka.i nvr tought dat dis new OU wud be dis big lps renovation. dah la mmg dah besar before renovation dulu, tambah plk another wing.haa lucky me, terfikir plk nk pki flopper.
i wud hv blisters all over my feet IF NOT.

n there was this one modern malay family which is way toooo modern dah dat captured my attention. i was so not to say impressed or amazed. neither dat i was proud of dis family. but kudos to their family bonding. okay enough about wut i feel about dis family. it does not matter since i'll leave it to u guys to judge. here we go. the father is about 50++ wif white hair all over his head, not forgotten baju y sgt fit, believe me,dat shirt was so damn *@#*. it does make sense if hes a teenager but hello UNCLE, u r jz too "young" for dis..ha ha and the mother is around 40++ but looks tremendously gorgeous and stunning wif the hair-style y sgt cun wif a tight red pants and blouse. together wif them, 3 hot hot hot girls which i believe their daughters. their outfit, wow!hot pants n baby-t. i NEVER get to wear dis when am wif my parents.ha ha ha. well i can say dat their family bonding is so STRONG. it was shown!the father kissing the daughters, the daughters kissing the father, the mother hugging and kissing the father all way long.=)

to all my besties, one day nnt kte pegi okay?

Counting the days...

'Kalau ada orang cakap angah da gemuk, jawab je macam ni: Nak buat macam mane, dapat Boyfriend kaya, suka buat lawak pulak tu, hari² gelak, hati pun senang.' =)

These are the words yg Aunty Roza taught me. She said, if anybody tegur n cakap saya da gemuk, just say these words. Org tu sure x cakap pape da. Hehe. =). Thanks to Aunty Roza. I'll follow your advice by saying these words to whoever that will tegur me. =). I kind of missed Aunty Roza already. She told us so many jokes. For the whole 3 days we laughed a lot. I mean like we are seriously laughing and we just can't stop. BTW, did you know that gelak banyak² boleh buat org tu jadi gemuk? Huhu. No wonder la why I'm getting bigger and bigger day by day. LOL.

I have about 9 days left. I'll be going to Paris on the 26th and my flight will be on the 28th afternoon. I can't wait to be back to meet my friends but at the same time I'm sad cuz I have to leave my family. No more Mama's cooking after this. No more being stupid with Ayong and Ieqa after this. No more usik² Waffy and no more screaming at Raffy after this. No more watching football with the whole family in front of the t.v after this. I'll miss all of these. I'll be staying alone in Sitiawan for a whole week. Glad that I'll be back to Muadzam, at least I have Nina, Nadz and Fara there. I won't feel lonely anymore I guess. Glad that I'll be going to Malacca to meet Hana and probably Dla and Malya there. Glad that I get to meet up with my friends. At least I have them. Thanks a lot dearest friends. I don't know how my world will be without all of you.

To Ayong, I'll remember your words.

'Aku rasa kau akan end up kawin ng Best Friend kau or someone yang kau da kenal lama and rapat.'

And I hope that your words won't come true, or else my love story akan jadi xbest! =P. I'm not that choosy like what you said okay. I just want someone yang menepati citarasa je. =P. So, please pray for me so that I'll get my Prince Charming one day. =). Don't worry, I'll pray for you too and I hope that 'you-know-who' will learn his lesson. And, you deserve someone much much more better. =).

To Ieqa, Good Luck for your Bac. Hope you'll pass with flying colours. I know you can do it cuz I kept on nagging at you so that you'll read you books. =P. Ingat, jgn nnt aku da balik, kau termimpi² aku pulak. Xpun, nnt ada opah macam dalam cte congkak tu pulak. 'Ieqa, marila baca buku ng Opah'. BOL! =P. Get good results so that you'll get to go to any University with your own qualifications and because of your usaha for all these years. Bukan dgn guna org dalam, okay? That is not a good way to start your future. =P.

Okay, enough for today. I can't continue giving these pesanan or else I'll cry here. OMG! IMYA.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

My Feelings

oh man! i've 'bout 2more weeks before my hols ends up..i feel so sad..havent u feel like u were forced to do sumtin that annoyed u?Here i am..rase kjap sgt cuti ni..tgk2 it's almost 2months hols..Once i thought bout 'Terengganu" i was like..huhhh...i am going to DIE..im not happy there..totally not! the environment,the ppl and even more my friends..they aren't suitable for me..they are so disgusting even ade yg ok.yg tu xpela lg..i dun even know why this feelings must came out..for the sake of my parents,my ambition n especially my NUTRITION book..Sy sggup balik terennganu..huh For this coming sem,im not ready yet actually.How can i stand with En Aziz classes ( Food lab )..well u know he's so strict and always mumbling. But i know he is a good person anyway.These all about my study.But my personal feelings,im so upset when i am going to lose someone.He is my bf.He will be a sailor on the next month..and ill be all alone here.Gosh! It will be tremendously boring without him all the way in my life..No messaging,No phone call,No teasing..And i have to berthn slama setahun..It's so bad! Hopefully ive chances to meet my besties so that ill forget those my bad feelings 100%..Harap2 leh meet u all soon..I've loads of story to tell u..hehe Angah n I will make a plan for our gathering next sem..xsbr gila!! That's all for now..Miss u guys! Now I am happy when ive started to think about us and no more sadness till i meet my bffs..=)

With Love,
MALYA

kakak's phone call:

kakak : adik balik tak minggu ni?balik la please!!!

me : adik ingat nk balik nex week.

kakak : ala balik dis week la. masak ikan steam dgn lasagna jom!!
teman kakak pegi alamanda sat ari sabtu.

me : [those really turned me on=)]ha ok la kot. nnt adik msg kakak balik.

i cant stand the boredom anymore. this is the 1st week and everyone is still not in the mood for lectures. some of my friends are not even back yet. so, I AM GOIN BACK, back to kl.ok dat's it. i've made up my mind and i am goin back to kl tomoro mornin. plus there is no class on thursday n so is friday. so what is there to think of anymore?i shud just pack my things and i am all ready to go back to kl to be wif my sister, hariz, dina and dhia.

-hana-

Thanks. =)

Jocelyn et Moi. =)

Yesterday was my last class. Xsempat nak update smalam cuz I was a bit busy. Hrrmm, sedar² da nak habis da pun cuti. I have about a week left and I'll be flying off babeh. =). Yesterday was quite awkward. I was the only girl in class. Heh. Lucracia and Svetlana can't make it I guess. By the end of class, everybody wished me 'Bonne Chance' and 'Au revoir'. But I stayed there for about 10 minutes, talking to Jocelyn n thanked her for teaching me french. We talked about few things. She asked me about my studies in Malaysia n so on. Then she told me about her son, Pierre Emmanual who's doing commerce right now. ^^. Hehe. After finish talking, we kissed goodbye and hugged for quite a long time. I was supposed to back home but I decided to take a walk alone in town. As I was walking to the bus stop from that building, I felt really sad. And suddenly all I know is that tears are already rolling down my cheeks. Jocelyn is a great teacher. She's very very patient and she never give up explaining. She's a great one. =). I'm going to miss her when I'm back in Malaysia. Trust me, you won't find that kind of teacher in Malaysia. People like her is one in a million. She said that she has a good memory of me, and so do I. I do have a very good memory of her. To Jocelyn, thanks for everything. thanks for teaching me french. Although its not that much, but for me, it's more than enough. Thanks for the memories. =)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland

when the new sem begins

uwh shit!!i am rite here in MELAKA again. do u guys noe wut dis means?BYE BYE to happiness n joy. WELCOME to the "greatest hell" ever.
i wud say my last holiday was extremely superb. n yesterday was the 1st time i felt berat hati kind of feelin because i had to go back to melaka.i was so not in the mood to go back to melaka. to my ayah who had a surgery on his left eye recently, i really hope dat u 'll get well soon. thanx a bunch to those yang mendoakan kesihatan my ayah. okay, here we go. I hv a few reasons to consider my holiday as extremely superb.

firstly, dat was the 1st holiday tak gaduh dgn mama langsung. gaduh sounds harsh.no no its not gaduh but more to merajuk.it felt really great.haha.

secondly, i spent about a week wif my two cousins, angah n uda cookin, sharin stories, lepakin at burmese pool and so many other gila n fun stuffs. believe me when i say gila n fun.=)

thirdly, there was a gathering of the five of us which was suppposed to be six[convent friends]. suhaila could not make it since she was still in UIA takin her short sem. they came to my house for lunch n we chatted like 10 tahun x jumpa. i wud say wideeya was the penceria of the day.
to nani, adleen, farleen n wideeya, thanx for comin guys. i really had a great time. uwh ya thanx a bunch to adleen n wideeya for the kenduri gifts n rendang tok yang sgt sedap. sorry for not being able to attend ur brother's wedding.

fourthly, saya berjaya masak kentang putar dan ikan siakap steam.[not to be riak=)] okay, kentang putar sounds really weird.haha.its also called whipped or mashed potato. i had my very own version of the sauce n it was not to say sampai menjilat jari but okay la. and ikan siakap steam tak hanyir. most importantly, my parents loved it. i tried to cook dis wif my sister b4 but the ikan turned out to be hanyir. but now we noe dat we shud put banyak-banyak halia so dat the ikan will not be hanyir.

fifthly, 3 days before my holiday ended, i checked my result n guess wut?miracle miracle miracle!alhamdulillah.i am happy wif my result.most importantly, sik ching peng's paper. i was not wrong when i said i love you on the other day.haha.

i have a new roomie ppl. i felt terribly sad when kak nadia, my former roomie was not around when i stepped in my room yesterday. kenapa lah kak nadia kena pegi practical?
the surrounding of my room is totally different now. there's only kak nadia's curtain left to remind me of her. uwh i am so gona miss you kak nadia. there's no more any chit-chattin n gossiping session before i sleep. sob sob

uwh lets talk about my new roomie. shes okay but i hvnt got the chance to get to noe her dat well yet. 1st impression, okay!shes obviously not the feminine type n she even asked me akak ni mesti gurlish type kn?haha.u hv no choice. u have to bear wif me.i am jz hopin dat she'll be a good roomie n someone dat i can count on to.

whatever it is, the new sem has started. new sem, new determination. lets jz pray for the best for my 2nd year here=)

-hana-

I AM BACK!!!!!!!!!!!

=)

-hana-

I'm back! weee~

hello buddies! am so sory coz its been ages i left our blog n write nutin..i was quite bz lately till i noticed that i hve to update maself.to zafira,am so sory to hear bout ur prob.let me make a wild guess!! yeah..i know who's dat guy..if not mistaken la..to hana, im hoping that ur father will always be in a good condition and u MUST take a good care towards him..

I have a story n from this story i would like to advice all my friends,dun u ever neglect ur parents or even more hurt 'em at all.
I do have a cousin n i noticed that u guys knoe who he is..2weeks ago,i attended his wedding with a lovely baju kurung special for his wedding,make up bagai org gila n all that stuffs.im so excited for the wedding bcoz he's the 1st cucu my late atuk yg kawin.everybody very bz just for his wedding.im not blaming him,but i knoe that's his fault.the wedding was held in Pj in a big hall.i knoe he's engineer n he wanted sumtin that sgt grand n looked wealthy.but the things that happened were embarrassed US so muchh!!!
at about 10.30 am i arrived there n i just take a looked around..n it wasn't so bad..but the hall wasn't like a "wealthy" look as he wanted to..i felt so weird..but i just ignored it.i dont bother bout that..haha i was waitin there without doing nutin about half an hour..there's some ppl came n just sit.poor them.actually,the foods are not there!! ppl dtg makin ramai n just sit again..all of sudden,one of my uncle dtg tergesa2 n called all my aunties to discuss sumtin.yeah..im interested n i joined them..OMG!!!! u knoe wut..the caterer was ranaway with 12k!!!! gosh! we were so panic n blur..i cant doin nutin..my aunties dh mcm naik gila tawu x.n my Mak ngah especially dah nk pengsan.can u imagine d situation dat tyme?? it was so horrible!! afta a several suggestions,they decided to order foods from maple..MAPLE???sgt kesian..n mamak tu asked us 8K as early as we can..if no money,mamak wouldn't cook 4 us!!
dgn keadaan tergesa2,we found out 8K! mamak ttp kdai n cook for the wedding..klakar glee!! makan beradap pon mamak's foods!! haha we watched on the tv,but it happened in reality life..we cant arranged all His faith..
My cousin meraung2 in his car for what happened in his wedding.n he told us he didnt has any money anymore! poor him..
he's actually too trusted to wedding planner n the wedding planner was found while he's browsing the net..how bodoh he is??hurmm..
unfortunately,his parents didnt knoe all bout the wedding planner n they wouldn't knoe well bout their son's planned.
See,how bad a son to his parents? i dun wanna bukak pekung my fam..but it's just as a lesson to us..Allah wont bless for all our plans if we neglect our parents..

To all my peeps..
learn from the past..take this story as a lesson..i dun wanna this 'memorable moment' happen again among us..
I Love U all guys..

Written by: Mellyare_malya

I'm sick of it!

I don't have much to say actually. But there's this feeling that kept bothering me. And of course it's not a good one. It annoys me very very much. I have a friend, I knew this friend for years. We were not that close before. But since we've finished our SPM, kitorg makin rapat. I mean rapat like bestfriends, for me la. But I don't know dia anggap macam mana. Then after few years, til now, dia da ade Girlfriend. At first, he didn't tell me yg dia da ada GF. I found out myself. But, I don't mind at all. Then bila I asked him about his GF, dia macam nak tanak jawab. He asked me how did I know bout that. Come on la, letak dalam Fs n all that thingy, org daripada tatau pun bole tau. Adoi je la. At that time, I was talking with him on the phone. Then he hung up. He texted me few minutes later, saying that he likes me n he cares bout me but I didn't give him any hints. Waddahel? He is my friend n I believe that I am not supposed to like him more than friends! Well I do love him, but as a friend n not more than that. For the time being, I just can accept him as my friend. But, a few days later our friendship went on as usual. Until right now, I don't feel like this friendship is a normal friendship. He kept on saying things that he is not suppose to say. Okay maybe he meant nothing but for me certain things mean a lot to me. Kitorg macam slalu la balas² comment dalam Fs. The way he comment tu x macam seorg kawan mengcomment kawan dia. Org lain pun bole nampak benda ni. I really don't understand him. Maybe right now, dia tgh ade problem or what so ever dengan GF dia. But then, if you ade problem dgn your GF, go and settle it properly. Don't do this to me! I don't wanna be the reason why you break up with your GF one day! I believe yg dia couple ng that girl because he likes her n he loves her. So, just go on with your relationship as usual. If ade problem, settle kan la betul² n don't FLIRT with other people especially ME!! I really hate it okay. I don't like this feeling. Seriously, I don't fucking like it. That day, I terbaca comment his GF and ade bau² jealous la because dia slalu online ng I n slalu balas² comment. Come on la, treat your GF the way you are supposed to. If both of you really love each other, find a way so that korg xkan ade problem yg macam remeh² ni. I'm sick of it okay. Seriously I don't know sampai bila akan macam ni. I hate it very² much. I don't like this feeling. I fucking hate it!

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-