happy us=)

gossiping=)

being free=)

the man=)

we were caught red-handed.=p

am not sure wut dis is.haha.

eyes on melacca

mesmerizing sunrise=)


last weekend was a total blast!

sunrise-eyes on melacca-melacca road tour[all in 6days in a row]

i really did enjoy myself to the maximum since i'll be having my finals after raya.

oh my!

White Lie

Guy : Hye there. How r u?

Me : Hye, am fine.

Guy : Tgh buat ape? Raya ni balik mane?

Me : Baru hbs class, nak mandi jap. Raya ni I g Singapore.

Guy : Owh, u balik kg sape kat Singapore?

Me : Bf I.

Guy : Okay then.

Me : Okay.

Guy : Hrrmmm, sejak bile u ade bf? Nape i xtau pun? Nape u xgtau i?

Me : Errmm, dulu time u baru cple ng gf u, u ade gtau i ke? I dpt tau pun dari org lain. Ni kira bagus la u dpt tau dari i sndiri tau.

Guy : Hrmm, past is past. Sejak bile u ade bf? Cemana u bole knal dia?

Me : Errmm, cple baru lagi, knal da lama da. Dia satu U ng I.

Guy : Ouh, kiranya raya ni u balik kg dia ng family dia la?

Me : Yeap.

Guy : I org yg keberapa tau u da ada bf? Ape name bf u?

Me : I pggl dia baby. Cukup sekadar u kenal dia ng name tu.

Guy : Ouh, okay.

...Few hours later...

Guy : Zafiera, I da nak tdo da ni. Good night. Take care. I hope u will always be happy with ur baby. Sorry for everything n thanks for everything. Bye Zafiera.


This was what happened between this someone and I yesterday. Okay, first of all, I am going to Singapore this Raya (Yeay!!). Well, I am not going there with my boyfriend since I don't have one. I am going there for the SIFE World Cup Competition. I will be an observer for the competition and will be going there with the rest of the crew. Will be going on the September 30th till October 4th. And yeah, I will be celebrating my Raya there. Can't wait!! Hehe. About that conversation that I had with this someone, well yeah, I lied to him. I just have to! I want to some kind like get rid of him. He kept on disturbing me so I decided to lie to him by telling him that I already have a boyfriend. I guess that's the best way. He da ada girlfriend so I don't want him to disturb me anymore and I want him to concentrate on his girlfriend je. I don't know for how long do I have to keep this lie from him. But right now, I prefer to keep on lying to him so that he will not put any hope on me anymore. I'm sorry but I just have to.


xoxo
-zafirahrosland-

THANK YOU TO THE MAN=)

i just cant forget everythin dat happened today!
too much of sweet memories.
fr his 1st time phone call to "cedok" tomyam" session to AIR-COND and to phone messages.

i was waiting for HIS YM reply when i received a phone call fr an unknown number.
i was damn freakin happy when i heard "eh ni fariss lah!ym problem lah.x boleh login plk".
OMG!
okay,he CALLED not to jz inform me dat but the conversation went on for about a few mins as if we hv known each other for 10years!

we went out for dinner and there goes the 'cedok' tomyam session.
he INSISTED on helpin me to put the tomyam in the bowl.
dat was gentleman enough for me.
hes definitely wut i hv been lookin for!

okay!
here comes the sweetest part ever.
i jz could not stop coughing on our way back after dinner.
it surprised me how caring he was when he turned down the air-cond shuttle and said 'eh batuk x boleh sejuk tau.'
and he made me promise to go get the medicine tomorrow.

as soon as i reached home something was tellin me to check my hp and guess wut?
i left my hp in the car.
perfecth hah?
i waited for HIS ym to inform him dat i left my hp.
and another unexpected thing happened.
he started our conversation in ym by saying

him :"eh sombongnye x angkat phone.haha."

me : eh bkn!hp tertinggal dlm kereta lah.adoi!

him : laa ptt lah x angkat hp td.jap.nnt tolong amikkan.tunggu dkt bwh nnt.

my instinct has never been wrong!
he tried to reach me as soon as he reached home.
he offered to pass me the phone and i said YES since i needed my hp badly.[alarm clock of course]
as soon as i gt my phone, i opened it and there were THREE messages from him and one missed call.
and one of the messages says 'smpi tertdo kte tunggu die'
oh my!
and yes! i could hardly breathe at dat moment.

thank you to the man who has made my today as the most perfect day EVER=)

i never thought dat being attached to someone could be dis suffocating.
well not to say dat am really attached to dis someone but the situation itself is more or less like being attached to someone which i dont even noe how to explain.
and guess wut?
i just found out dat am the type of person who gets bored easily wif too much conversation in a day.
well i noe dat am supposed to be happy coz it shows dat hes spending his time wif me but AM NOT.
spending ALMOST 24hrs (which i only have about 7-8hrs for myself, when i sleep of course!) wif dat someone is really not a good idea.
and it makes me thinking twice or maybe thrice or maybe more than dat(100000x maybe) to have a commitment wif someone.maybe am just not ready for dat.
NOT JUST YET!
with all the complaints dat i've got from my housem8s dat am no longer HANA who spends most of the time chatting+gossiping with them, it makes me wana have a deeper thought of the need to have a boyf for the time being.
na! i don't wana be the type of person who forgets everything around him/her when he/she is in love.
am just so comfortable with the way i live my life at the moment.
am just gona wait for the perfect time to come.
and when it comes, i'll make sure dat am 100% ready to have myself devoted for a sacred thing called LOVE.
=)

I am so sorry

Today didn't went really well for me. I am so tired today. Didn't sleep well last night. Went to class as usual. But I was a bit blur today. Okay, am lying. Not a bit. But I was totally and extremely blur. I don't know why. Maybe because I didn't get enough sleep kot.

Now, let me move to the worst part of my day today. Okay, actually today ade 'Hari Pidato Umum' for the pilihanraya for MPP. I was involved for the so called konvoi to support my friend, Sobrie, yang bertanding. That thingy started around 10pm macam tu la. Before that I went to Harmoni (Miza's house) to finish up our Psycho assignment. I went there after berbuka, around 9pm. Luckily we finished our assignment in half an hour. Yeala, satu soalan je pun yang kena jawab. Heh. Then Nadz 'sms'ed me, asked me to get ready to go to the wisma cuz we're kind of late. We were supposed to gather at wisma first then only konvoi to Bestari. So, I pun pegi lah. When I was on my way to Wisma, I hit a CAT. I didn't hit on purpose. Okay, I was driving a bit fast, because I was in a hurry. I didn't expect the cat nak lintas jalan at that time. All I know is that I da langgar the cat. At first I didn't know it was a cat. I thought tu biawak. Then lepas da sampai Wisma, I rasa xsedap hati and I asked Fara to teman me to go back ke tempat kejadian. Then bila tgk balik, it was a cat. A black cat. Terbaring kat situ. Poor cat.

Dear cat, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to do that. Seriously I didn't mean to hit you and kill you on the same time. I wasn't expecting that. I am seriously sorry about that. I didn't know that you were going to cross that road and I tak sempat nak mengelak. I am so so so sorry. I hope you can forgive me. =(



xoxo
-zafirahrosland-

Hoping for a better day

"If you love something, sometimes you just wanna be surrounded by it."

It's true, right? Okay, first of all, I am so not in love at the moment. This is some kind like a quote that I got from watching 'Good Luck Chuck'. Heh. What I'm going to blog about today has nothing to do with that so called quote actually.

Have you guys ever come to a point where you feel tired of everything? I mean like EVERYTHING?? That is what I am feeling right now. I am so tired of everything. I'm tired of waiting, I'm tired of hoping, I'm tired of being sorry, I'm tired giving chances to people, I'm tired of trying so hard. I am just so tired. I feel like giving up everything. I don't know why I just feel like the strength inside me is fading away and it will be gone soon. Like very very soon. At times, I just feel like there's no point trying so hard, cuz things will just be the same when I am the only one who's trying so hard while the others act like they just don't care. Haish. I'm tired of some people who always think that diorang je yang betul and orang lain semua salah. I'm tired of some people who never think about others while others think about them. That is just so not fair. I'm tired of hoping and waiting. I'm tired of waiting and hoping for someone and something that won't be mine. I'm tired of being sorry for other people when they never felt the same way as I do. It is not that I ni berkira or what, but please, hello?! I have feelings too.

God, please help me to be strong again. I have to be strong to face everything. I have to be very very patient. I'm trying my best to be strong and to be patient. I hope things will be better tomorrow and onwards.


*missing my family so much*


xoxo
-zafirahrosland-

thank you very much for giving me the "air" to breathe again.
i've forgotten you about weeks ago since u are 'TOO SLOW',real 'SLOW' and now u r back into my life w/o being invited.
its unbelievable how a phrase of "SELAMAT BERBUKA" could change everything, every single thing for TODAY literally.
oh my!
wif one great big smile on the face sayin 'selamat berbuka' directly looking at me w/o lookin at others, it leads to a conclusion of what we've been wondering n guessing for all this while.
haha!
but TOO BAD u dun have the courage just yet to concede, do you?
using third parties, giving signals, sending regards and stuff, those are too cliche!
i need a man, a real man, definitely NOT a boy who does not have the courage to confront me and look at me in the eyes and tell me dat he likes me.
is dat too much too ask?

Happy Birthday dearest brother!

Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to Waffy
Happy birthday to you.

Happy 11th birthday my dearest Waffy. You're one year older. 11 is not a small number anymore. You are getting bigger and bigger and obviously bigger than me. LOL. Wishing you the best of luck in whatever you do. May Allah swt grant you happiness, success and wealth. May Allah bless you always and I hope you had a great day today. Hope things will go the way you wanted to in your life. Jangan nakal-nakal. Dengar cakap Mama and Abah. Study hard and smart. Can't wait to see you February next year! Am counting the days. =). Missing you lots here. And ouh yeah, one more thing, jangan mengada-ngada dah, awak tu dah besar. Last but not least, love you till the last breath of my life. =). I'm so thankful to have a little brother like you!



"In every conceive manner, the family is link to our past, bridge to our future."








xoxo
-zafirahrosland-

berbuka puasa today was a lil bit different than those past two days.
BBQ!
it was supposed to be awesome but it turned out to be not-so-great,in fact, DISASTER.
it was supposed to be OUR BBQ party?, session? or shud i say event?
ah wutever u call dat but it was NOT.
there were about 10 strangers, complete STRANGERS who were invited by airy's housem8s who have completely ruined everything.
they acted as if they were the ones who planned it.
to make it worse, they even came wif their tak malu and mengada-ngada girlfriends.
they din even pay a single cent or contribute anythin and they din even greet us AT ALL.
tapi makan more than us yang dah bertungkus-lumus prepared for the BBQ.
its not the matter of kedekut or anythin like dat but at least have a lil bit of respect.
anyways, towards the end of the party,event or wutever we call dat we decided to take over the "LIMELIGHT" back.haha.
and we somehow enjoyed the BBQ AMONG US, only US.

Dalam kehidupan kita,

Allah akan bagi 1 peluang,

Untuk kita berjumpa dengan orang yang betul-betul menyayangi diri kita,

Sekiranya kita leka, kita akan kehilangannya buat selamanya.

Tapi kita tidak pernah tahu siapa orangnya,

Jika kita sendiri tidak pernah sedar dan tidak pernah mencuba untuk menilai kehadirannya.

Mungkin setelah segalanya berlalu dan kita dah kehilangannya,

Masa tu barulah kita mula sedar kehadirannya cukup bermakna.

Tapi mungkin kita tidak berpeluang lagi untuk memilikinya.

Jadi, fahamilah hati seseorang itu sedalam-dalamnya.

Curahkanlah rasa kasih sayang kepadanya seikhlas hati.

=)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

its the 1st day of RAMADHAN people.
i hope its not too late to wish you guys SELAMAT MENJALANI IBADAH BERPUASA.
semoga ramadhan tahun ini akan membawa seribu keberkatan dan menjadi titik tolak utk kehidupan yang lebih baik.
seperti biasa, ramadhan tahun ini di melaka lagi tanpa keluarga terutamanya mama dan ayah.
alangkah bagusnya sekiranya dapat menjalani ibadah puasa bersama keluarga yang tercinta.
teringat masa berpuasa ketika zaman kanak-kanak.MERIAH!
masa berbuka mesti berebut2 nak duduk paling dekat dgn makanan yang sedap.
chik lah org yang selalu jadi mangsa kena mengalah.
sebelum buka puasa mcm2 nk mkn.
dengar je ayah nk pergi bazar ramadhan bulat mata.
kadang2 tak semua makanan yang dibeli dimakan.
betul lah apa org kata selama ni, nafsu mkn masa bln ramadhan ni bertambah2.
lps habis je buka puasa kena siap2 nk pergi terawih.
bak kata ayah, "kalau xnk pergi terawih nnt duit raya pun kurang eh."
DUIT RAYA sentiasa menjadi satu insentif yang paling efektif.=)

well, that's all in the past. how i wish i cud turn back the time.*sigh*
anyways, SELAMAT BERPUASA once again.

-hana-