Selamat Berpuasa everyone!

Okay, here it goes. First of all, I would like to warn you guys, this entry is going to be a not so good entry cuz currently I am so pissed off. But, before that, I would like to wish all the Muslim Selamat Berpuasa. May this Ramadhan brings keberkatan to all of us. To all the people in my life or had been in my life, sorry for words which my hurt and sorry for any of my wrong doings. Hope all of you can forgive me.

Okay, now, this is about the thing that pissed me off. This is about someone who I used to know. I knew him since January this year. Well, what made me pissed is that he told almost everyone, ALMOST everyone that I'm his EX-GIRLFRIEND! WTF? Okay, we were close back then, but I was never his girlfriend. He wanted me to be his girlfriend. I told him that I needed time to think about it first. We knew each other tak sampai sebulan pun then he terus nak mintak couple ng I. Gila ke? Sepanjang I kenal and cuba mengenali dia, I perhatikan everything about him. Then during my 3 months holiday, I decided not to accept him. Well, yeah it was kind of hard for him to accept it. But what can I do? I don't have feelings for him. I realized that he wasn't what I want and what I thought. Then bila masuk je semester ni, he da ada new scandal. That was so fast okay. But, yeah I don't give a damn. We're still friends as usual, it just that we don't go out together anymore. He did asked me to go out for dinner with him but I refuse. Like 10 times kot. I just don't feel like going out with him. I remember once, he called me. At that time I baru lepas hantar my roomate to the Wisma cuz she had an exam that day. Then we terserempak with this guy and his scandal. That evening, he called me. The conversation went this way:

Guy : Hye you, nape you drive laju sgt tadi? ***** **** baru nak tgk you.
Me : I ada class la tadi. Huh?! Dia nak tgk I? What for?
Guy : Yeala, dia nak tgk EX-GF I cantik ke tak.
Me : .....(wtf?!).....

OMG! Waddahell??? I don't know what did he bgtau that girl. Sepanjang semester ni, da dekat 100 kali jugak lah terserempak dgn diorg. But, I don't really care actually. He did call me few times to ask me out for dinner, but then I rejected all of his invitation. I always la jugak usik2 him bout his scandal. Like few days before, I accidently met him at the library while I was studying there with Mizah. He saw me studying there, then he came and we talked. But we didn't talk much cuz I was concerntrating on my revision at that time and I don't feel like talking to him actually cuz he was distracting me. When I went back to my apartment, he called. We talked on the phone like for half an hour. He asked me why susah sangat nak ajak I keluar sekarang ni. I cakap la I'm busy and so on, plus, he da ada someone yg he can ajak keluar makan, why should he ajak me lagi, right? Then, he started to deny things. He said that he tade pape with that girl la tu la ni la. OMG! Please stop that. I don't even care who you're with. Why do you have to keep on denying things? Benda tu terang jelas and nyata depan mata you are with that girl. Then you bole lagi nak deny things and you bole lagi nak cakap kat I yang you missed me la, you can't forget me lah. Then, you know, he bole cakap like this: " Antara I ngan you lain. Antara I ngan **** **** lain". OMG! Waddahell are trying to do man? Look, listen here, I don't give a s**t on who you're with okay. I don't have feelings for you and I'm not jealous. I am just so f***king pissed because you said things like that to me and about me. And, I f***king hate it okay? I don't understand why do you have to deny things padahal benda tu semua orang nampak. And, if you pegang2 tangan tu you bole cakap yang you tade pape. Duuuhhh, you mmg tak reti nak treat someone special eyh? Dengan semua orang pun you bole pegang2 tangan eyh? What a jerk! And yeah, you sangat hipokrit! Please stop saying that you can't forget me, I'm the only one stuck on your mind all the time, you missed me, and all of those stupid sweet things. I had enough of those okay? Please. I would be happier if you get out of my life! I am just so pissed and I hate you so much right now eventhough I know that I shouldn't hate you at time like this cuz esok da start puasa. But right now, I'm so sorry I just can't forgive you for that.

Sorry guys, I just can't stand it. I am so pissed right now.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

some random pictures during CYBERP project.=)

Update update update

Hey there. Da lama sangat x update this thing. Been seriously busy.I have midterm exams waiting for me tomorrow and also next week. Haish. Not feeling very well at the moment. Got flu and a quite bad sore throat. Sangat menyeksakan. I just don't know how am I going to sit for my exam tomorrow with this flu. It sure will disturb me. Wish me luck for my exam tomorrow guys. It's Managerial Accounting. =)

Well, thats not the exact reason why I'm updating this blog today actually. This entry is specially dedicated to one of my loved ones, Adilah Rosli. She'll be going back to the USA tomorrow(Aug 29th 2008). She was back in Malaysia for the summer holiday, around 2 months la jugak she's here. But, I only get the chance to meet her once. Well, that is much more better than never get the chance to meet her at all right? We were best friends since we're in Form 1. We're classmates till we're in Form 5. And yet, till now, we're still best friends! Thank God for giving me a chance to know a person like her. Eventhough we've went through quite alot of things, but yet, we are still best friends. Can't thank you enough for everything that you've done, dear friend! So, to Dla, take good care of yourself. Selamat berpuasa to you. Selamat Hari Raya in advance too. Hehe. Do keep in touch. Love u lots girl!

'I cannot even imagine where I would be today were not for that handful of friends who have given me a HEART FULL OF JOY. Let's face it, friends make life a lot more fun.' =)

x0x0

-zafirahrosland-

*you are to be reminded dat dis is goin to be a long-dragging entry.

ow i miss this blog so damn freaking much.
i have not been blogging for quite some time.
i've been very buzy, i mean very very buzy for the past week.
EXAMS+TORTS ASSIGNMENT+CYBERP PROJECT+LAW SEMINAR
and today i am finally FREE and welcome back to my boring+lame+pathetic life which i have been living for almost 2 years (since i got here)

well, exams??
hope dat i did all the 3 papers well or maybe not to say well but okay.
yeah, OKAY is preferable here.
but it doesnt sound confident enough rite?
ah, WUTEVER!
jz hoping for the best result which will be out anytime soon!

procrastination is never a good thing to do.
last minute work is never a good one.
but am glad dat we finally completed our assignment in 3 days time.
but it was definitely not a good one, sekadar melepaskan batuk di tangga.
haha!

CYBERP PROJECT?
if u wonder wut dis CYBERP PROJECT is, let me give u a brief view of dis project.
it is a project where students have to gain profit by doing any business as long as u gain as much profit as possible.
i really had fun doing this project.
it was freaking awesome.
eventhough it was a lil bit tiring but it was all worth it.
u wana noe y?
our business was a blast, meeting new+great+fabulous friends and everythin went well, perfectly like the way we wanted it to be.
uwh ya, there i met these 4 wonderful kind-hearted people.
ARI, DEEBA, CONSTANT and EEL.
thanx for supporting and helping us throughout this project.
and yes, we are now friends and am glad dat i've found another 4 wonderful friends.
uwh btw, thanx, terima kasih yang tak terhingga to all of them.
last 2 days, i went through such a tragic and so NOT gona be remembered experience.
i had lost or maybe not lost but DROPPED my PURSE which i jz bought a week ago n there were cards,cash of rm600 for my rental and my other precious items (pictures of my family+friends)
OMG, trust me u dun wana go through dis experience.
it was awful.SERIOUSLY!
i wud not hv been as calm as i was without u guys.
eventhough we jz met but u guys sgt baik, in fact terlalu baik.
thank you so very much for helpin me to find my purse.=)

LAW SEMINAR?
ow i had a lot of fun being one of the emcees for the law seminar which was TODAY.
thanx to COLLIN ANDREW, the greatest+superb+wonderful partner ever!!!!!
thanx for helpin me to be a good emcee, just like you!=)
thanx for the "stories" which helped me to chill.=)
not forgotten,madam geetha, mr gary, ju-li, suria, ali and all committees which i cant remeber ur names but faces, YES!
thank you so much for your support.
u made me feel like being in a FAMILY.=)
i think i am no longer a stage freak.
yeay!!i've finally got over my fear!
it felt really good being one of the emcees.
i was a lil bit shaking at the beginning and kept tellin collin, "ow am scared, think am gona have to pee again" but am glad i made it.
and collin, everytime u said, "chill la hana, jgn takut!" with one big smile on ur face, it did help me,in fact, it helped me A LOT.
with all the compliments and credits to us, i am looking forward to have a second, third fourth and........time=)

and not forgotten, to DLA.
thanx for the wonderful weekend i had last week.
God knows how much i actually missed u girl.
u'll be leavin in a week time.
take care of yourself ok?
remember that our friendship does not have an end as it continues FOREVER!
i love you my dear friend=)

remeber when i said dat "luck has never been on my side''?

now its a big "NO-NO".

there's still a room for me to be the lucky one.

yes i am definitely the lucky one.

the most luckiest one indeed.

thank you for making my day.

u'll nvr know hw much it means to me.

i am all delighted and inspired right now.[semangat nk exam besok.=)]

Ridan Hill IQ Challenge =)

Bersama 'orang kuat' program. =)

I've never tried hiking before. Slalunya g jungle trekking je, but today, I went hiking. This event was organized by Persatuan Pelajar Islam (PPI), Uniten. And, the manager of this project is my housemate, Nadzirah. So, in order to support her project, I decided to join this thingy. Well, for sure it's tiring, but the fun that we had, mengatasi everything.

On the way to the puncak. =)

Keadaan kasut yang agak menyedihkan.

This program started last night, there was a briefing about what we're going to do and we were divided nto groups. And at 4.30 this morning, we did 'qiamullail' which I haven't been doing it for quite a long time. Huhu. So, after the qiamullail, kitorg gerak ke Kem PLKN Muadzam Shah cuz kat situ la start trek dia. Ridan Hill is not that far from our campus actually. About 5 to 10 minutes drive je. After having our breakfast, kitorg start naik.

Wow, mendaki sangat lah penat!! Rasa nak give up je mula-mula. Huh. But, I kuatkan semangat, and Alhamdulillah kitorg sampai jugak kat puncak Bukit Ridan. Huhu. Sangatlah lega bila da sampai puncak. By the time dah sampai puncak baru I sedar my so called 'kekasih' da buat lovebite kat I! Berdarah2 socks I. LOL. Nasib baik x sakit. =P. We did a few activities on the puncak. It was fun. Then bila da habis activities, kitorg gerak turun. Okay, sangat mencabar bila nak turun. Dengan keadaan my shoes yg tapaknya da nak tercabut, sangatlah sedih. But thank God, the tapak x tercabut. If x, memang I akan meninggalkan tapak lah kat situ. Hehe. Bila da sampai kat bawah, wow, lega x terkata. We had our lunch after that, then there was a prize giving ceremony. And guess what? My group was awarded as the 'Kumpulan Paling Cute'! LOL.

Lovebite from my so called 'kekasih', Mr.Pacat. =)

Mesti sebab ahli-ahli kumpulan kitorang nih cute-cute. =P. Sangat x bole blah. Hehe. Whatever it is, I'm happy today, I gained a very very special experience. At least, I pernah naik Bukit Ridan and I am proud of that, eventhough it is not Mount Kinabalu or what so ever mount it is, I'm still happy for that. =D.

Kumpulan Paling Cute. ^^

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

08.08.08

Hey it's 08.08.08!

Nice date right? But too bad, nothing interesting happened today. I am not so happy anymore when I found out something quite bad last night. All of my happiness was gone in the nick of time. Heh, but, never mind. It's okay. I still wanna thank that stranger for making me smile. Heh. I'm not really in the mood today. This morning, when I went to my Agama class, Ustaz was talking about this family thingy and all that. Haish. I'm a bit sensitive when it comes to things like these. At times I just can't control myself from crying. I did cried a bit this morning. So what?

But what he said this morning, made me realized something. For 20 years I've been living in this world, but for only 12 years I lived with my family. The other 8 years were spent living with my friends. What he said was asbo-bloody-lutely true. I started to go to boarding school since I was 13, then after that I went to this place and after that, InsyaAllah I'll be getting married and for sure I'll live with my future husband and I will be having my own family. Then I'll be concerntrating on my own family. Without realizing it, the gap within the members in the family will grow bigger and bigger day by day. This happen to every single person in this world. But, I hope as time flies, the bond that I have with my family will grow stronger no matter how far I am and no matter who I turn out to be. No matter how and no matter what, my family will always be in my heart. That rhymes. Hehe. =)

I am missing my family so badly right now. How I wish I could be there with them. Hoping that they are in the pink of health and things are going the way they wanted to there.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Happy day. =)

I AM SO HAPPY TODAY!!!

Its not my style to get all excited, but right now I really really like it and I just don't know why.

All I know is that I am very very happy today. Did you know that even the smallest thing that someone do for you will make you happy? I mean like totally happy? LOL. This thing happened to me today, and I am so happy. I can't even describe it in words! OMG! Okay, I don't even know who this person is but what this person did to me today, really made my day! Thanks alot to you stranger! Hehe. You can call me crazy, you call me anything. But, what I know right now is that I am happy. I just wanna thank this stranger for making my day and for making me smile the whole day today! And ouh yeah, not forgotten, berangan sikit la. LMFAO! Thanks once again to you mr.stranger. XD

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Makan buah day

Today is Nadzirah's birthday.
Happy 20th Birthday my dearest so called cousin.
May Allah bless u always.
Hope U'll have the best in life and I hope that happiness and success will always be with u.
Love u loads.
Thanks for being a great friend!
Friends forever.
Sayang kamu sangat banyak!
*mwah*mwah*

I will consider today as my 'makan buah day'. Heh, I've been eating a lot of fruits lately. Since sekarang ni musim buah, so tersangatlah banyak makan buah and now I'm so la bloated. LOL. Last night Nina and I ate a big tupperware of durians. We finished it in one night. I'm not sure la ada berapa ulas dalam tu but yang I tau sangat la banyak. Then bila nak tidur, kami kepanasan. Haha. Today lepas lunch kitorg g hantar kereta kat car wash. Sementara menunggu kereta siap, kitorg jalan2 kat pasar. Then terserempak dengan Nina's uncle. Dia ajak dtg rumah dia untuk makan rambutan. We accept his invitation then kitorang g beli 2 kilos of manggis. Balik rumah je, kitorg rehat2 jap. Then terus hadap manggis tu. Sekali hadap je bole habis. Huhu. Sangat lah kuat makan kami ni. Da la 2 org je yg makan since Fara and Nadz are not here, diorang balik KL. Around 5 lebeyh, we went to Nina's Uncle's house. OMG, the rambutans are so tempting. Merah2 semuanya. I don't know berapa banyak yang I makan tapi yang pastinya sangat banyaklah. Sangat kenyang. Rasanya hari ni kenyang makan buah je. Huhu. We stayed at Nina's Uncle's house till 7.25 then balik dengan perut yang kenyang. Huhu. Thanks Pakcik! =)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-