i hate dis feeling.
insecured.......!jealous.......!
u noe people, i went tru such a terrible experience about 2weeks ago.
ONE experience dat i cud never forget.
it all started wif a packet of milo ice.
i found out about dis ''nabila huda'' n i chose not to talk to him as much as i used to since then.
i pretended to be strong which was totally not as easy as i tot it was.
he kept on persuading and convincing me.
as planned, EGO!
no matter wut, DONT EVER FALL FOR HIS SWEET TALK!
dat was the policy dat i applied and it WORKED!
dis situation went on for a few days til i found out the truth fr my 2 friends.
argghh i made the biggest mitake ever by not trusting him!
stupid me!
i made him sick n i was the reason for him to be moody.
the 1st day i started the so-called 'war', he din sleep the entire nyte persuading me and asking why why why!
but me?
i chose to reply him entah entah and entah!
it must have been hard for him.
sorry!
n on the day i chose to forgive him, i mean after knowing the truth, there was one thing he said dat i cud never forget, "tak nak tido lagi sbb hati riang sgt"
i am glad dat today everything has changed to the way it used to be.
i am so thankful to have him back.
if there is one thing i cud ever ask for, it would definitely be this precious moment wif him.
i dont wana be the one who ends it n definitely not him either.

Update

I've been meaning to update this blog, but I just don't have the right time to do it.
I was so super duper busy I guess. Got lots of things came up. So many things happened.

1. My new sem has just begun. It's my 2nd semester 2nd year everyone!! 2 more semesters to
go and I'll be out from here baby. Can't wait for that. Hehe

2. Nina's Orang Asli Project (SIFE). Novemeber 29th. Went to Rompin for that project.
A one day project but get a hell lot of experience. =)

3. Jelajah Integriti 2008. A collaboration with CSR Rebung (MRSM students) and also Institut
Integriti Malaysia (IIM). A 3 day program. From December 12th to December 14th. Met a lot of
interesting people. Seriously, they are 'INTERESTING'. =P

4. Netball interblock. Me? Netball? Hehe. We won the 2nd place. But that was not too bad aite?
Ingat senang ke nak menang? Huhu. A few minor injuries and a quite an obvious change on my
skin tone. =P

Okay, thats all for now I guess. Will update more later.


xoxo
-zafirahrosland-

xkan la dah 18thn pn still xtau nk respect people.
my parents always reminded me to respect others when i was still a kid.
dis particular person made me thinkin the way her parents brought her up.
yeah i noe its a bit harsh.
am not blamin her parents but somehow, more or less, it did affect her, i mean the way she carries herself.
well dont get me wrong.i am not sayin dat am a well-brought up children but at least i still noe hw to respect others.
i never insisted or precisely, FORCED anyone to do sumthing for my own sake.
even if i had to i'll do it nicely, wif my own way.
asking if she or he is free for instance would definitely be my first step of asking someone's help.
not jz "akak, nnt anta kite pegi mc! akak, nnt bwk kite pegi pegi melaka mall!"
who does she think i am?
her driver?
hell no!
i hv to learn to say NO!
and YES I DID for a few times.
even my close friends will start by saying, "eh rs bersalah la nk mntk tolong", or "can u help me......u sure eh?sorry eh!"
well people, the way u ask for someones help does matter.
it really does!
try askin someones help by saying "wey, kau pegi amikkan buku tu." and "eh, boleh tak tolong amikkan buku tu?
see which one responds better.

i am now a celcom X pax user.
yeay!
i wud hv changed to celcom X pax a long time ago if i knew about it earlier.
see hw "jakun" i am.
haha.
it has the best rates ever!

messages:
1/2 cent to 8 fav X pax users
1 cent to other celcom users
6cents to friends on other networks.

calls:
10cents/min to 8 fav X pax users
15 cents/min to everyone

see!very cheap kn?
say wutever u want.
jakun?kuno?ketinggalan zaman?or wutever u wana say.
but still, I AM HAPPY being one of the X pax users.
hahaha.
and the most important thing i get to msg him whenever i want w/o thinkin 'alamak credit da nk abis' since i jz registered him as one of my 8 fav X pax users and i dun have to spend rm10 per day just 4 my topup anymore.YEAY!

lets forget about dis X pax thingy.
i wana talk about someone who has stolen my heart dgn sepenuhnya.
chewahhhh!!!
i jz feel like blogging bout him.
if u dun like it, am sorry!

hes definitely everything that i want in a man.
he noes hw to make me happy and he even noes hw to make me feel jealous.
frankly speaking, i nvr knew the exact feeling of being jealous in a relationship since i've nvr been in a real relationship before.
but not til i met him.
hahaha.
and the best part is he gets jealous more than i do!
hahaha.
i like it when we both call ourselves ''pakcik'' and ''makcik''
it is rare u noe!
vr vr rare but i like it.
haha.
i like it when he informs me everything he does in a day eventho sumtimes i tend to get bored but i noe dat he does dat to show dat he thinks of me for all the time.*perasan nk mati*
i like it when he teases me.i dun find it annoying at all.
and i like it when he wans me to go hiking wif him everytime.he definitely makes me feel 'wanted.'
and yes! i like everything about him.
the way he talks, the way he smiles, the way he laughs and even the way he carries himself.

to the man : thank you for being apart of my happiness=)

Growing apart.

Have you ever felt like you are about to grow apart from someone that you love? Well, yes, time change, people change. But how would you feel if that someone who is the one that is very dear to you? It's hard to accept the fact that the one that you love is growing apart from you and the person is changing. Today, I want to blog about someone that always have a special place in my heart and I can feel like we're now growing apart. Quite far apart.

What really is the main thing that cause this thing? Was it the distance? I don't really think the distance. Maybe you've changed. And yeah, people change. I am trying my best to accept the fact that you've changed completely. You chose to be who you are today. I guess you are not matured enough for the time being. Maybe it takes time. But, how long will it take? I'm afraid if one day, you are too late to realize that what you've done for all these while are useless. I don't want you to ruin your life. I don't want you to regret with what you've done.

To be frank, I miss you. I miss the old you. I miss the time when we used to sit together wth the rest and talk about everything. You were so dear to me. I've known you for my whole life. I cried for you when you were being scolded by Abah when you were small. I miss 'bangcik yang anak Mama'. I don't like the new you. I know that people change. But why do you have to change to be someone like this? I miss 'bangcik yg naive'. Oh! How I miss the good old days. I wish you change to be someone better because I have faith in you that you will be someone better. I am not saying that you turn out to be a bad person, but you've change alot through these years. It's like you are no longer my bangcik. It's like I don't even know who you are anymore. But, no matter how, I hope one day you'll realize this. No matter how and no matter what, you are still my bangcik and I'll always pray for your succes. =). And yeah, I will still love you with all my heart. =)

I know that I should be doing some revisions right now. Sorry mama, jap lagi angah study eyh. I don't know why but I miss my brother so much. I miss the old him. But then I have to acept the fact that he is no longer the old bangcik.

My next paper is on Friday (Oct 31st). Please pray for me. =)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

=)

"Yesterday is a history,

Tomorrow is a mystery,

Today is a gift, a gift from God,

And that is why it is call 'present'."

Yes, today is a gift. We have to cherish everything that happen today. No matter what it is. We can remember that past but we can't live with the past. The past is a history to be remembered and not to live with. Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, but we have to concentrate our minds on the present moment. What ever that had happened in my past, I will still keep them as memories no matter how sweet they were and no matter how bad they were. And one day, I am sure when I look back to the past, I will smile because I know that what happened in the past and what is happening right now, are the things that make me what I am today. But, eventhough I want to move forward in my life, I may still have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, I have learn how to let go. I have to release the hurt, release the fear and refuse to entertain my old pain. I am trying my best not to live with the past. I have moved on with my life. Thanks to the people that never gave up on me eventhough sometimes I gave up on myself. Thanks to those who believe in me. Thanks to the people who is always there for me. Thanks for the advices. Thanks to those who had hurt me. Thanks for giving me the pain. The pain thought me how to be stronger. Thanks. To this one particular person, *thenameshouldnotbementioned*, I have moved on. Thanks for making me stronger. With every cruel intention you helped me find my indipendence. Thanks. =)

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Ouh yeah, my finals are just around the corner. Will sit for my agama paper this Tuesday (Oct 28th). Wish me luck guys. Do pray for my success.

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I am missing my family so much at the moment. How I wish they were here with me. Missing my sisters like hell and missing my little brother so much. Oh, I can't wait to meet them next year! Oh please let the time flies fast. =)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Fall for you

The best thing bout tonight's that we're not fighting

Could it be that we have been this way before

I know you don't think that I am trying

I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath

Because tonight will be the night

That I will fall for you over again

Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended

I always swore to you that I'd never fall apart

You always thought that I was stronger

I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

Oh, but hold your breath

Because tonight will be the night

That I wil fall for you over again

Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

It's impossible

So breathe in so deep

Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep

And hold on to your words cause talk is cheap

And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night

That I will fall for you over again

Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night

That I will fall for you over again

Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

You're impossible to find.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

i cant believe how fast time flies.

i am now 20.

20?

OMG!

i dun even feel like 20.

hahaha!

i just celebrated my 20th birthday on last tuesday.

bye bye to teen teen sound.

last birthday was my 1st time celebrating it wif my MMU peeps.

thanx to shoba who acted as the so-called 'surprise' party planner.

haha.

it was well-planned but shoba, too bad i knew it earlier.

haha.

nex tym jgn nk plan everyone pki same color baju eh.

=)

i am finally free.

hooooraayyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!

exams are finally over.

bye bye notes+cases!

=)

Happy Birthday to my dearest Hana

 Dearest Hana,
Happy 20th birthday
May Allah bless you always and may all your dreams come true.
Hope that you'll have another year filled with success and happiness.
Thanks for being a fab and great friend.
Thanks for being a good listener and being there for me when I needed someone to talk to.
Thanks for always supporting in whatever I do.
I just can't thank you enough for everything that you had done for me.
Hope you'll have a great day today.
Enjoy your day dear!

.

For a shield from the storm, for a friend, for a love to keep me safe and warm...I turn to you. For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on, for everything you do, for everything thats true, I turn to you.

.

Friendship is born at the moment when one person says to another, "What?! You too?! I thought I was the only one!" =)

.

Life is partly what we make it, and partly what is made by the friends we choose.

And I believe that I made the right choice. =)

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Friends aren't jumper cables. You don't throw them in the trunk and pull them out for emergencies.

.

Hope you'll have a blast on your birthday!

I am missing you so much here.

How I wish I can be there on your birthday.

Enjoy your special day and hope you had a great one!

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Promise

'I promise to be with you forever'

'I promise I won't leave you'

'I promise you will be mine forever'

'I promise I will never forget you'

' I promise etc, etc, etc...'

.

Those are examples of promises that we used to hear in our daily lives. To make a promise is easy. But to keep one is not that easy, right? Don't you ever promise anything if you can't keep it. Please, don't give hope to others if you, yourself will destroy that hope. I've learnt that never put high expectation on someone recently. Actually I've learnt that a long time ago. I remember once, my former class teacher, Pn Wan Norasmah told me to never put high expectation on someone. But I don't know why I still want to put a very high expectation on this particular friend. Hoping that whatever this friend say is true and that this friend will change and keep the promise that this friend had made. Sometimes I feel like I am so stupid to believe in this friend.

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Yes my dearest Hana, you are absolutely right. Kawan memang ramai, untuk happy sama2 memang senang nak cari, but kawan yg boleh nangis same2 ngan kita bila kita sedih, susah nak cari. I am so glad that I have a few of them in my life. Thanks for always being there for me. You guys never made any promise to be with me forever or not to forget me but you guys are always there for me. I can't thank you guys enough for that. I really really appreciate every single thing what you guys had done for me.

.

I am disappointed, I am sad but I believe that everything happens for a reason. Now I know who my true friends are. I don't need those promises. I don't want any promises. I just need a real true friend who can share everything with me, who will always be there for me, who will never complain and who accept me the way I am.

.

I am right now trying my best not to believe in promises and not to make any promise anymore. Please don't make any promises if you know that you can't keep it. Don't give hope to others. It hurts when you don't keep the promise that had been made. I'm saying this to remind myself as well. Like what my sister always said. karma is a bitch, it will finally get u later in life. So, when the time comes, don't blame others.

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To my deares Hana, Happy becoming birthday! Love u loads dear! I'll call u at 12 tonight.

Hehe

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

its 4 in the mornin people.
but i stil cant sleep.
i dont even feel like sleeping.
not just yet.
this might be due to my sleeping disorder.
uwh yea!SLEEPING DISORDER!
i've been havin dis problem since a month ago?
a month or maybe more than dat.
i used to stay up til late in the mornin esp during last ramadhan where i used to sleep after sahur which was around 5 or 6.
i hate the fact dat i am now used to this situation.
ahhh!!!
i miss my former sleeping habit so damn much.
teratur!

and now am thinking of angah aka zafirah!
God knows hw much i miss her.
and i noe hw much she misses me as well when she texted me and sent me a testi.*perasan=)*
angah, i miss you mucho!

i miss TALKING to you.
i miss HANGING OUT wif you.
i miss LAUGHING OUT LOUD wif you.
i miss GOSSIPING wif u!
i miss being miss 'independent' aka adventurous.penang, remember?=)
i miss being ur so-called gf when u r driving.remember dis one?=)
i miss EVERYTHING about you my bestie!

i could never find someone like you anymore.
wut more could i ask for in a friendship?
you've given me everything dat i needed in a friendship.
am sorry for being tooooo 'busy' and am sorry for not updating much bout myself.
we'll get everythin back to how it used to be ok?
if i were given a chance to make a wish, i wud wish to spend at least one day, one whole day to be wif u without no distraction or interruption AT ALL to share our stories, a to z and every single thing.
I MISS YOU!!!
=(

-hana-

a little bit of update

Hello there.

I was busy with stuffs, I guess today is the only day that I got the chance to update this thingy. Well, as you all know that I celebrated my raya in Singapore. Singapore was not that good actually for me. Heh. But the event that I attended was fab! Seriously. I was so inspired by the spirit that I saw from the participating teams.

I went to Singapore with Kak Nad (She's one of the SIFE Uniten's alumni), Abg.Sham (Kak Nad's husband), Kak Ju, Nini, Kak Dyla, Botak, Put and Zil. Didi and Suresh went with SIFE Malaysia. Kak Nad and Abg.Sham were our foster parents there. They took good care of us when we were there. Thanks to Kak Nad and Abg.Sham. We went there on September 30th at 11oo and we arrived there at 1600. We stayed at Fragrance Backpackers Hostel in Dunlop Street. That place was called 'little india'. Some sort like indian town. So, I'm very sure you can imagine how does that place looks like right? After checking in, we went out to find a place for 'buka puasa'. Since all of us had never been to Singapore, we do not know which place is the best to go. Then we found a banana leaf restaurant and we decided to eat there since waktu berbuka da sgt dekat. The food was okay I guess cuz I'm not a fan of nasi briyani much so I can't comment anything. Huhu. After that, we decided to take a walk and see what we can find in Singapore. We walked everywhere including Haji Lane, Arab Street, etc. But, Singapore was like so boring at night. It's like they don't have a life there. Sangat sunyi sepi. Most of the shops are closed. Hello?! It's only like 2130!! Adoi je la. After having a drink at one of the so called 'maple' at Haji Lane, we decided to walk back to our place. It was tiring.

Okay this was where the quite sedih part started. It was our 1st raya. We woke up quite early, had shower and so on. Then around 0815, we went downstairs to go to the mosque near our hostel. There was an Indian muslim mosque there. It was about 5 minutes walk to the mosque. When we arrived there, we did not see a single woman. All of them are men. Then, Kak Nad asked one of the men there, kat mana tempat solat org perempuan. Then that guy answered that women are not allowed to pray there during raya. They told us to go to another mosque. What?? Gila ke? As if kitorg tau je mana lagi satu mosque. Then they tried to find a room for us jugak so that we can pray there. But in order to get to the room, we have to rempuh all of the men there. OMG! Sangat sesak, sangat penuh dan sangat 'harum'. The room yg diorg bagi tu, sangat menyedihkan actually. I just do not know how to describe it. But the khutbah for hari raya was recited in their language and I don't understand a thing. Sangat sedih. After da solat tu, we went Kak Ju's aunt's house in Tempanise. We get to eat lontong there and some rendang. At least that felt like home. Huhu. After that we went to SIFE Cultural Fair. That fair was amazing. I really enjoyed it.

The competition starts on the 2nd of October. The final round was on the 3rd of October. The Canadian team, Indian team, Nigerian team and the Singaporean team get to go to the finals. The Canadian team won the competition and they really deserved to win it. They were great! Their presentation was the best and their projects were magnifique! their spirits were great. I pun tetbe bersemangat x tentu pasal bila tgk diorg bersemangat. Hehe
But whatever it is, I wanted to thank Didi for bringing me there. Thank you so much Didi. I've gained alot from that.

And yeah, kitorg x sempat g Sentosa Island. Too bad. But, never mind, at least I dapat something yg lagi bermakna from that. Hehe. Okay then, I guess thats all for today. Actually I wanted to tell you more, but not now, maybe some other time. I am missing my family so much right now. Miss my sisters sgt banyak. Miss going out with them. How I wish I was there with them. Haish.

Hope its not too late for me to wish Selamat Hari Raya to everyone!

xoxo
-zafirahrosland-

happy us=)

gossiping=)

being free=)

the man=)

we were caught red-handed.=p

am not sure wut dis is.haha.

eyes on melacca

mesmerizing sunrise=)


last weekend was a total blast!

sunrise-eyes on melacca-melacca road tour[all in 6days in a row]

i really did enjoy myself to the maximum since i'll be having my finals after raya.

oh my!

White Lie

Guy : Hye there. How r u?

Me : Hye, am fine.

Guy : Tgh buat ape? Raya ni balik mane?

Me : Baru hbs class, nak mandi jap. Raya ni I g Singapore.

Guy : Owh, u balik kg sape kat Singapore?

Me : Bf I.

Guy : Okay then.

Me : Okay.

Guy : Hrrmmm, sejak bile u ade bf? Nape i xtau pun? Nape u xgtau i?

Me : Errmm, dulu time u baru cple ng gf u, u ade gtau i ke? I dpt tau pun dari org lain. Ni kira bagus la u dpt tau dari i sndiri tau.

Guy : Hrmm, past is past. Sejak bile u ade bf? Cemana u bole knal dia?

Me : Errmm, cple baru lagi, knal da lama da. Dia satu U ng I.

Guy : Ouh, kiranya raya ni u balik kg dia ng family dia la?

Me : Yeap.

Guy : I org yg keberapa tau u da ada bf? Ape name bf u?

Me : I pggl dia baby. Cukup sekadar u kenal dia ng name tu.

Guy : Ouh, okay.

...Few hours later...

Guy : Zafiera, I da nak tdo da ni. Good night. Take care. I hope u will always be happy with ur baby. Sorry for everything n thanks for everything. Bye Zafiera.


This was what happened between this someone and I yesterday. Okay, first of all, I am going to Singapore this Raya (Yeay!!). Well, I am not going there with my boyfriend since I don't have one. I am going there for the SIFE World Cup Competition. I will be an observer for the competition and will be going there with the rest of the crew. Will be going on the September 30th till October 4th. And yeah, I will be celebrating my Raya there. Can't wait!! Hehe. About that conversation that I had with this someone, well yeah, I lied to him. I just have to! I want to some kind like get rid of him. He kept on disturbing me so I decided to lie to him by telling him that I already have a boyfriend. I guess that's the best way. He da ada girlfriend so I don't want him to disturb me anymore and I want him to concentrate on his girlfriend je. I don't know for how long do I have to keep this lie from him. But right now, I prefer to keep on lying to him so that he will not put any hope on me anymore. I'm sorry but I just have to.


xoxo
-zafirahrosland-

THANK YOU TO THE MAN=)

i just cant forget everythin dat happened today!
too much of sweet memories.
fr his 1st time phone call to "cedok" tomyam" session to AIR-COND and to phone messages.

i was waiting for HIS YM reply when i received a phone call fr an unknown number.
i was damn freakin happy when i heard "eh ni fariss lah!ym problem lah.x boleh login plk".
OMG!
okay,he CALLED not to jz inform me dat but the conversation went on for about a few mins as if we hv known each other for 10years!

we went out for dinner and there goes the 'cedok' tomyam session.
he INSISTED on helpin me to put the tomyam in the bowl.
dat was gentleman enough for me.
hes definitely wut i hv been lookin for!

okay!
here comes the sweetest part ever.
i jz could not stop coughing on our way back after dinner.
it surprised me how caring he was when he turned down the air-cond shuttle and said 'eh batuk x boleh sejuk tau.'
and he made me promise to go get the medicine tomorrow.

as soon as i reached home something was tellin me to check my hp and guess wut?
i left my hp in the car.
perfecth hah?
i waited for HIS ym to inform him dat i left my hp.
and another unexpected thing happened.
he started our conversation in ym by saying

him :"eh sombongnye x angkat phone.haha."

me : eh bkn!hp tertinggal dlm kereta lah.adoi!

him : laa ptt lah x angkat hp td.jap.nnt tolong amikkan.tunggu dkt bwh nnt.

my instinct has never been wrong!
he tried to reach me as soon as he reached home.
he offered to pass me the phone and i said YES since i needed my hp badly.[alarm clock of course]
as soon as i gt my phone, i opened it and there were THREE messages from him and one missed call.
and one of the messages says 'smpi tertdo kte tunggu die'
oh my!
and yes! i could hardly breathe at dat moment.

thank you to the man who has made my today as the most perfect day EVER=)

i never thought dat being attached to someone could be dis suffocating.
well not to say dat am really attached to dis someone but the situation itself is more or less like being attached to someone which i dont even noe how to explain.
and guess wut?
i just found out dat am the type of person who gets bored easily wif too much conversation in a day.
well i noe dat am supposed to be happy coz it shows dat hes spending his time wif me but AM NOT.
spending ALMOST 24hrs (which i only have about 7-8hrs for myself, when i sleep of course!) wif dat someone is really not a good idea.
and it makes me thinking twice or maybe thrice or maybe more than dat(100000x maybe) to have a commitment wif someone.maybe am just not ready for dat.
NOT JUST YET!
with all the complaints dat i've got from my housem8s dat am no longer HANA who spends most of the time chatting+gossiping with them, it makes me wana have a deeper thought of the need to have a boyf for the time being.
na! i don't wana be the type of person who forgets everything around him/her when he/she is in love.
am just so comfortable with the way i live my life at the moment.
am just gona wait for the perfect time to come.
and when it comes, i'll make sure dat am 100% ready to have myself devoted for a sacred thing called LOVE.
=)

I am so sorry

Today didn't went really well for me. I am so tired today. Didn't sleep well last night. Went to class as usual. But I was a bit blur today. Okay, am lying. Not a bit. But I was totally and extremely blur. I don't know why. Maybe because I didn't get enough sleep kot.

Now, let me move to the worst part of my day today. Okay, actually today ade 'Hari Pidato Umum' for the pilihanraya for MPP. I was involved for the so called konvoi to support my friend, Sobrie, yang bertanding. That thingy started around 10pm macam tu la. Before that I went to Harmoni (Miza's house) to finish up our Psycho assignment. I went there after berbuka, around 9pm. Luckily we finished our assignment in half an hour. Yeala, satu soalan je pun yang kena jawab. Heh. Then Nadz 'sms'ed me, asked me to get ready to go to the wisma cuz we're kind of late. We were supposed to gather at wisma first then only konvoi to Bestari. So, I pun pegi lah. When I was on my way to Wisma, I hit a CAT. I didn't hit on purpose. Okay, I was driving a bit fast, because I was in a hurry. I didn't expect the cat nak lintas jalan at that time. All I know is that I da langgar the cat. At first I didn't know it was a cat. I thought tu biawak. Then lepas da sampai Wisma, I rasa xsedap hati and I asked Fara to teman me to go back ke tempat kejadian. Then bila tgk balik, it was a cat. A black cat. Terbaring kat situ. Poor cat.

Dear cat, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to do that. Seriously I didn't mean to hit you and kill you on the same time. I wasn't expecting that. I am seriously sorry about that. I didn't know that you were going to cross that road and I tak sempat nak mengelak. I am so so so sorry. I hope you can forgive me. =(



xoxo
-zafirahrosland-

Hoping for a better day

"If you love something, sometimes you just wanna be surrounded by it."

It's true, right? Okay, first of all, I am so not in love at the moment. This is some kind like a quote that I got from watching 'Good Luck Chuck'. Heh. What I'm going to blog about today has nothing to do with that so called quote actually.

Have you guys ever come to a point where you feel tired of everything? I mean like EVERYTHING?? That is what I am feeling right now. I am so tired of everything. I'm tired of waiting, I'm tired of hoping, I'm tired of being sorry, I'm tired giving chances to people, I'm tired of trying so hard. I am just so tired. I feel like giving up everything. I don't know why I just feel like the strength inside me is fading away and it will be gone soon. Like very very soon. At times, I just feel like there's no point trying so hard, cuz things will just be the same when I am the only one who's trying so hard while the others act like they just don't care. Haish. I'm tired of some people who always think that diorang je yang betul and orang lain semua salah. I'm tired of some people who never think about others while others think about them. That is just so not fair. I'm tired of hoping and waiting. I'm tired of waiting and hoping for someone and something that won't be mine. I'm tired of being sorry for other people when they never felt the same way as I do. It is not that I ni berkira or what, but please, hello?! I have feelings too.

God, please help me to be strong again. I have to be strong to face everything. I have to be very very patient. I'm trying my best to be strong and to be patient. I hope things will be better tomorrow and onwards.


*missing my family so much*


xoxo
-zafirahrosland-

thank you very much for giving me the "air" to breathe again.
i've forgotten you about weeks ago since u are 'TOO SLOW',real 'SLOW' and now u r back into my life w/o being invited.
its unbelievable how a phrase of "SELAMAT BERBUKA" could change everything, every single thing for TODAY literally.
oh my!
wif one great big smile on the face sayin 'selamat berbuka' directly looking at me w/o lookin at others, it leads to a conclusion of what we've been wondering n guessing for all this while.
haha!
but TOO BAD u dun have the courage just yet to concede, do you?
using third parties, giving signals, sending regards and stuff, those are too cliche!
i need a man, a real man, definitely NOT a boy who does not have the courage to confront me and look at me in the eyes and tell me dat he likes me.
is dat too much too ask?

Happy Birthday dearest brother!

Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to Waffy
Happy birthday to you.

Happy 11th birthday my dearest Waffy. You're one year older. 11 is not a small number anymore. You are getting bigger and bigger and obviously bigger than me. LOL. Wishing you the best of luck in whatever you do. May Allah swt grant you happiness, success and wealth. May Allah bless you always and I hope you had a great day today. Hope things will go the way you wanted to in your life. Jangan nakal-nakal. Dengar cakap Mama and Abah. Study hard and smart. Can't wait to see you February next year! Am counting the days. =). Missing you lots here. And ouh yeah, one more thing, jangan mengada-ngada dah, awak tu dah besar. Last but not least, love you till the last breath of my life. =). I'm so thankful to have a little brother like you!



"In every conceive manner, the family is link to our past, bridge to our future."








xoxo
-zafirahrosland-

berbuka puasa today was a lil bit different than those past two days.
BBQ!
it was supposed to be awesome but it turned out to be not-so-great,in fact, DISASTER.
it was supposed to be OUR BBQ party?, session? or shud i say event?
ah wutever u call dat but it was NOT.
there were about 10 strangers, complete STRANGERS who were invited by airy's housem8s who have completely ruined everything.
they acted as if they were the ones who planned it.
to make it worse, they even came wif their tak malu and mengada-ngada girlfriends.
they din even pay a single cent or contribute anythin and they din even greet us AT ALL.
tapi makan more than us yang dah bertungkus-lumus prepared for the BBQ.
its not the matter of kedekut or anythin like dat but at least have a lil bit of respect.
anyways, towards the end of the party,event or wutever we call dat we decided to take over the "LIMELIGHT" back.haha.
and we somehow enjoyed the BBQ AMONG US, only US.

Dalam kehidupan kita,

Allah akan bagi 1 peluang,

Untuk kita berjumpa dengan orang yang betul-betul menyayangi diri kita,

Sekiranya kita leka, kita akan kehilangannya buat selamanya.

Tapi kita tidak pernah tahu siapa orangnya,

Jika kita sendiri tidak pernah sedar dan tidak pernah mencuba untuk menilai kehadirannya.

Mungkin setelah segalanya berlalu dan kita dah kehilangannya,

Masa tu barulah kita mula sedar kehadirannya cukup bermakna.

Tapi mungkin kita tidak berpeluang lagi untuk memilikinya.

Jadi, fahamilah hati seseorang itu sedalam-dalamnya.

Curahkanlah rasa kasih sayang kepadanya seikhlas hati.

=)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

its the 1st day of RAMADHAN people.
i hope its not too late to wish you guys SELAMAT MENJALANI IBADAH BERPUASA.
semoga ramadhan tahun ini akan membawa seribu keberkatan dan menjadi titik tolak utk kehidupan yang lebih baik.
seperti biasa, ramadhan tahun ini di melaka lagi tanpa keluarga terutamanya mama dan ayah.
alangkah bagusnya sekiranya dapat menjalani ibadah puasa bersama keluarga yang tercinta.
teringat masa berpuasa ketika zaman kanak-kanak.MERIAH!
masa berbuka mesti berebut2 nak duduk paling dekat dgn makanan yang sedap.
chik lah org yang selalu jadi mangsa kena mengalah.
sebelum buka puasa mcm2 nk mkn.
dengar je ayah nk pergi bazar ramadhan bulat mata.
kadang2 tak semua makanan yang dibeli dimakan.
betul lah apa org kata selama ni, nafsu mkn masa bln ramadhan ni bertambah2.
lps habis je buka puasa kena siap2 nk pergi terawih.
bak kata ayah, "kalau xnk pergi terawih nnt duit raya pun kurang eh."
DUIT RAYA sentiasa menjadi satu insentif yang paling efektif.=)

well, that's all in the past. how i wish i cud turn back the time.*sigh*
anyways, SELAMAT BERPUASA once again.

-hana-

Selamat Berpuasa everyone!

Okay, here it goes. First of all, I would like to warn you guys, this entry is going to be a not so good entry cuz currently I am so pissed off. But, before that, I would like to wish all the Muslim Selamat Berpuasa. May this Ramadhan brings keberkatan to all of us. To all the people in my life or had been in my life, sorry for words which my hurt and sorry for any of my wrong doings. Hope all of you can forgive me.

Okay, now, this is about the thing that pissed me off. This is about someone who I used to know. I knew him since January this year. Well, what made me pissed is that he told almost everyone, ALMOST everyone that I'm his EX-GIRLFRIEND! WTF? Okay, we were close back then, but I was never his girlfriend. He wanted me to be his girlfriend. I told him that I needed time to think about it first. We knew each other tak sampai sebulan pun then he terus nak mintak couple ng I. Gila ke? Sepanjang I kenal and cuba mengenali dia, I perhatikan everything about him. Then during my 3 months holiday, I decided not to accept him. Well, yeah it was kind of hard for him to accept it. But what can I do? I don't have feelings for him. I realized that he wasn't what I want and what I thought. Then bila masuk je semester ni, he da ada new scandal. That was so fast okay. But, yeah I don't give a damn. We're still friends as usual, it just that we don't go out together anymore. He did asked me to go out for dinner with him but I refuse. Like 10 times kot. I just don't feel like going out with him. I remember once, he called me. At that time I baru lepas hantar my roomate to the Wisma cuz she had an exam that day. Then we terserempak with this guy and his scandal. That evening, he called me. The conversation went this way:

Guy : Hye you, nape you drive laju sgt tadi? ***** **** baru nak tgk you.
Me : I ada class la tadi. Huh?! Dia nak tgk I? What for?
Guy : Yeala, dia nak tgk EX-GF I cantik ke tak.
Me : .....(wtf?!).....

OMG! Waddahell??? I don't know what did he bgtau that girl. Sepanjang semester ni, da dekat 100 kali jugak lah terserempak dgn diorg. But, I don't really care actually. He did call me few times to ask me out for dinner, but then I rejected all of his invitation. I always la jugak usik2 him bout his scandal. Like few days before, I accidently met him at the library while I was studying there with Mizah. He saw me studying there, then he came and we talked. But we didn't talk much cuz I was concerntrating on my revision at that time and I don't feel like talking to him actually cuz he was distracting me. When I went back to my apartment, he called. We talked on the phone like for half an hour. He asked me why susah sangat nak ajak I keluar sekarang ni. I cakap la I'm busy and so on, plus, he da ada someone yg he can ajak keluar makan, why should he ajak me lagi, right? Then, he started to deny things. He said that he tade pape with that girl la tu la ni la. OMG! Please stop that. I don't even care who you're with. Why do you have to keep on denying things? Benda tu terang jelas and nyata depan mata you are with that girl. Then you bole lagi nak deny things and you bole lagi nak cakap kat I yang you missed me la, you can't forget me lah. Then, you know, he bole cakap like this: " Antara I ngan you lain. Antara I ngan **** **** lain". OMG! Waddahell are trying to do man? Look, listen here, I don't give a s**t on who you're with okay. I don't have feelings for you and I'm not jealous. I am just so f***king pissed because you said things like that to me and about me. And, I f***king hate it okay? I don't understand why do you have to deny things padahal benda tu semua orang nampak. And, if you pegang2 tangan tu you bole cakap yang you tade pape. Duuuhhh, you mmg tak reti nak treat someone special eyh? Dengan semua orang pun you bole pegang2 tangan eyh? What a jerk! And yeah, you sangat hipokrit! Please stop saying that you can't forget me, I'm the only one stuck on your mind all the time, you missed me, and all of those stupid sweet things. I had enough of those okay? Please. I would be happier if you get out of my life! I am just so pissed and I hate you so much right now eventhough I know that I shouldn't hate you at time like this cuz esok da start puasa. But right now, I'm so sorry I just can't forgive you for that.

Sorry guys, I just can't stand it. I am so pissed right now.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

some random pictures during CYBERP project.=)

Update update update

Hey there. Da lama sangat x update this thing. Been seriously busy.I have midterm exams waiting for me tomorrow and also next week. Haish. Not feeling very well at the moment. Got flu and a quite bad sore throat. Sangat menyeksakan. I just don't know how am I going to sit for my exam tomorrow with this flu. It sure will disturb me. Wish me luck for my exam tomorrow guys. It's Managerial Accounting. =)

Well, thats not the exact reason why I'm updating this blog today actually. This entry is specially dedicated to one of my loved ones, Adilah Rosli. She'll be going back to the USA tomorrow(Aug 29th 2008). She was back in Malaysia for the summer holiday, around 2 months la jugak she's here. But, I only get the chance to meet her once. Well, that is much more better than never get the chance to meet her at all right? We were best friends since we're in Form 1. We're classmates till we're in Form 5. And yet, till now, we're still best friends! Thank God for giving me a chance to know a person like her. Eventhough we've went through quite alot of things, but yet, we are still best friends. Can't thank you enough for everything that you've done, dear friend! So, to Dla, take good care of yourself. Selamat berpuasa to you. Selamat Hari Raya in advance too. Hehe. Do keep in touch. Love u lots girl!

'I cannot even imagine where I would be today were not for that handful of friends who have given me a HEART FULL OF JOY. Let's face it, friends make life a lot more fun.' =)

x0x0

-zafirahrosland-

*you are to be reminded dat dis is goin to be a long-dragging entry.

ow i miss this blog so damn freaking much.
i have not been blogging for quite some time.
i've been very buzy, i mean very very buzy for the past week.
EXAMS+TORTS ASSIGNMENT+CYBERP PROJECT+LAW SEMINAR
and today i am finally FREE and welcome back to my boring+lame+pathetic life which i have been living for almost 2 years (since i got here)

well, exams??
hope dat i did all the 3 papers well or maybe not to say well but okay.
yeah, OKAY is preferable here.
but it doesnt sound confident enough rite?
ah, WUTEVER!
jz hoping for the best result which will be out anytime soon!

procrastination is never a good thing to do.
last minute work is never a good one.
but am glad dat we finally completed our assignment in 3 days time.
but it was definitely not a good one, sekadar melepaskan batuk di tangga.
haha!

CYBERP PROJECT?
if u wonder wut dis CYBERP PROJECT is, let me give u a brief view of dis project.
it is a project where students have to gain profit by doing any business as long as u gain as much profit as possible.
i really had fun doing this project.
it was freaking awesome.
eventhough it was a lil bit tiring but it was all worth it.
u wana noe y?
our business was a blast, meeting new+great+fabulous friends and everythin went well, perfectly like the way we wanted it to be.
uwh ya, there i met these 4 wonderful kind-hearted people.
ARI, DEEBA, CONSTANT and EEL.
thanx for supporting and helping us throughout this project.
and yes, we are now friends and am glad dat i've found another 4 wonderful friends.
uwh btw, thanx, terima kasih yang tak terhingga to all of them.
last 2 days, i went through such a tragic and so NOT gona be remembered experience.
i had lost or maybe not lost but DROPPED my PURSE which i jz bought a week ago n there were cards,cash of rm600 for my rental and my other precious items (pictures of my family+friends)
OMG, trust me u dun wana go through dis experience.
it was awful.SERIOUSLY!
i wud not hv been as calm as i was without u guys.
eventhough we jz met but u guys sgt baik, in fact terlalu baik.
thank you so very much for helpin me to find my purse.=)

LAW SEMINAR?
ow i had a lot of fun being one of the emcees for the law seminar which was TODAY.
thanx to COLLIN ANDREW, the greatest+superb+wonderful partner ever!!!!!
thanx for helpin me to be a good emcee, just like you!=)
thanx for the "stories" which helped me to chill.=)
not forgotten,madam geetha, mr gary, ju-li, suria, ali and all committees which i cant remeber ur names but faces, YES!
thank you so much for your support.
u made me feel like being in a FAMILY.=)
i think i am no longer a stage freak.
yeay!!i've finally got over my fear!
it felt really good being one of the emcees.
i was a lil bit shaking at the beginning and kept tellin collin, "ow am scared, think am gona have to pee again" but am glad i made it.
and collin, everytime u said, "chill la hana, jgn takut!" with one big smile on ur face, it did help me,in fact, it helped me A LOT.
with all the compliments and credits to us, i am looking forward to have a second, third fourth and........time=)

and not forgotten, to DLA.
thanx for the wonderful weekend i had last week.
God knows how much i actually missed u girl.
u'll be leavin in a week time.
take care of yourself ok?
remember that our friendship does not have an end as it continues FOREVER!
i love you my dear friend=)

remeber when i said dat "luck has never been on my side''?

now its a big "NO-NO".

there's still a room for me to be the lucky one.

yes i am definitely the lucky one.

the most luckiest one indeed.

thank you for making my day.

u'll nvr know hw much it means to me.

i am all delighted and inspired right now.[semangat nk exam besok.=)]

Ridan Hill IQ Challenge =)

Bersama 'orang kuat' program. =)

I've never tried hiking before. Slalunya g jungle trekking je, but today, I went hiking. This event was organized by Persatuan Pelajar Islam (PPI), Uniten. And, the manager of this project is my housemate, Nadzirah. So, in order to support her project, I decided to join this thingy. Well, for sure it's tiring, but the fun that we had, mengatasi everything.

On the way to the puncak. =)

Keadaan kasut yang agak menyedihkan.

This program started last night, there was a briefing about what we're going to do and we were divided nto groups. And at 4.30 this morning, we did 'qiamullail' which I haven't been doing it for quite a long time. Huhu. So, after the qiamullail, kitorg gerak ke Kem PLKN Muadzam Shah cuz kat situ la start trek dia. Ridan Hill is not that far from our campus actually. About 5 to 10 minutes drive je. After having our breakfast, kitorg start naik.

Wow, mendaki sangat lah penat!! Rasa nak give up je mula-mula. Huh. But, I kuatkan semangat, and Alhamdulillah kitorg sampai jugak kat puncak Bukit Ridan. Huhu. Sangatlah lega bila da sampai puncak. By the time dah sampai puncak baru I sedar my so called 'kekasih' da buat lovebite kat I! Berdarah2 socks I. LOL. Nasib baik x sakit. =P. We did a few activities on the puncak. It was fun. Then bila da habis activities, kitorg gerak turun. Okay, sangat mencabar bila nak turun. Dengan keadaan my shoes yg tapaknya da nak tercabut, sangatlah sedih. But thank God, the tapak x tercabut. If x, memang I akan meninggalkan tapak lah kat situ. Hehe. Bila da sampai kat bawah, wow, lega x terkata. We had our lunch after that, then there was a prize giving ceremony. And guess what? My group was awarded as the 'Kumpulan Paling Cute'! LOL.

Lovebite from my so called 'kekasih', Mr.Pacat. =)

Mesti sebab ahli-ahli kumpulan kitorang nih cute-cute. =P. Sangat x bole blah. Hehe. Whatever it is, I'm happy today, I gained a very very special experience. At least, I pernah naik Bukit Ridan and I am proud of that, eventhough it is not Mount Kinabalu or what so ever mount it is, I'm still happy for that. =D.

Kumpulan Paling Cute. ^^

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

08.08.08

Hey it's 08.08.08!

Nice date right? But too bad, nothing interesting happened today. I am not so happy anymore when I found out something quite bad last night. All of my happiness was gone in the nick of time. Heh, but, never mind. It's okay. I still wanna thank that stranger for making me smile. Heh. I'm not really in the mood today. This morning, when I went to my Agama class, Ustaz was talking about this family thingy and all that. Haish. I'm a bit sensitive when it comes to things like these. At times I just can't control myself from crying. I did cried a bit this morning. So what?

But what he said this morning, made me realized something. For 20 years I've been living in this world, but for only 12 years I lived with my family. The other 8 years were spent living with my friends. What he said was asbo-bloody-lutely true. I started to go to boarding school since I was 13, then after that I went to this place and after that, InsyaAllah I'll be getting married and for sure I'll live with my future husband and I will be having my own family. Then I'll be concerntrating on my own family. Without realizing it, the gap within the members in the family will grow bigger and bigger day by day. This happen to every single person in this world. But, I hope as time flies, the bond that I have with my family will grow stronger no matter how far I am and no matter who I turn out to be. No matter how and no matter what, my family will always be in my heart. That rhymes. Hehe. =)

I am missing my family so badly right now. How I wish I could be there with them. Hoping that they are in the pink of health and things are going the way they wanted to there.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Happy day. =)

I AM SO HAPPY TODAY!!!

Its not my style to get all excited, but right now I really really like it and I just don't know why.

All I know is that I am very very happy today. Did you know that even the smallest thing that someone do for you will make you happy? I mean like totally happy? LOL. This thing happened to me today, and I am so happy. I can't even describe it in words! OMG! Okay, I don't even know who this person is but what this person did to me today, really made my day! Thanks alot to you stranger! Hehe. You can call me crazy, you call me anything. But, what I know right now is that I am happy. I just wanna thank this stranger for making my day and for making me smile the whole day today! And ouh yeah, not forgotten, berangan sikit la. LMFAO! Thanks once again to you mr.stranger. XD

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

Makan buah day

Today is Nadzirah's birthday.
Happy 20th Birthday my dearest so called cousin.
May Allah bless u always.
Hope U'll have the best in life and I hope that happiness and success will always be with u.
Love u loads.
Thanks for being a great friend!
Friends forever.
Sayang kamu sangat banyak!
*mwah*mwah*

I will consider today as my 'makan buah day'. Heh, I've been eating a lot of fruits lately. Since sekarang ni musim buah, so tersangatlah banyak makan buah and now I'm so la bloated. LOL. Last night Nina and I ate a big tupperware of durians. We finished it in one night. I'm not sure la ada berapa ulas dalam tu but yang I tau sangat la banyak. Then bila nak tidur, kami kepanasan. Haha. Today lepas lunch kitorg g hantar kereta kat car wash. Sementara menunggu kereta siap, kitorg jalan2 kat pasar. Then terserempak dengan Nina's uncle. Dia ajak dtg rumah dia untuk makan rambutan. We accept his invitation then kitorang g beli 2 kilos of manggis. Balik rumah je, kitorg rehat2 jap. Then terus hadap manggis tu. Sekali hadap je bole habis. Huhu. Sangat lah kuat makan kami ni. Da la 2 org je yg makan since Fara and Nadz are not here, diorang balik KL. Around 5 lebeyh, we went to Nina's Uncle's house. OMG, the rambutans are so tempting. Merah2 semuanya. I don't know berapa banyak yang I makan tapi yang pastinya sangat banyaklah. Sangat kenyang. Rasanya hari ni kenyang makan buah je. Huhu. We stayed at Nina's Uncle's house till 7.25 then balik dengan perut yang kenyang. Huhu. Thanks Pakcik! =)

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

i've been cursing too much for today.

being the unlucky one has never been my choice and as for today, i learnt a very good lesson, the useful one indeed.

"luck has never been on my side"

sounds pathetic?

HELL YEAH!!!

there is no one else to be blamed but ME, MYSELF, and I.

silly me for being such an idiot and an unreasonable human being on earth for those past few days.

padan muka!!!!!!!!!!!!

i jz have to accept the fact that its too late to regret.

i shud have realized this a long time ago.

*sigh*sigh*

praying and hoping for a better day tomorrow

Just for the sake of updating

Just for the sake of updating. I've been very2 busy this week. I have 4 quizzes this week and I have assignments to submit. And ouh yeah, I have a presentation by end of this week. Guess what am I going to present about? Heh. WANITA DALAM ISLAM. OMG!. I feel like I am so la tak layak to present that title. Luckily that is a group presentation, so I don't have to stand in front of everyone alone. Heh. I have to admit it that this sem tersangatlah busy. Busy tak terkata. It's like everyone is rushing to do this and that. Even lecturers pun macam terkejar-kejar nak buat everything at one time. Pergghh, rase macam nak gila da. In 2 weeks time da start midterm exam. Rasa macam baru je register for this sem kot. Haish, tatau lah. Memang sangat busy la kan.

I am missing my family so damn much right now. I really2 hope that my family is here with me. I need my parents and I need my sisters badly. And yeah, I miss Waffy so much! Teringat pulak yg dia nangis before I balik sini that day. That day I mimpi Waffy. In my dream, dia macam tak terurus. Serabai gila. And he got lost in my dream. Then someone hantar dia balik. When I asked him dia pergi mana, he said that dia pergi cari baju raya cuz raya da nak dekat. When I woke up from my sleep, I cried. I guess I miss him so much. Too bad this year I have to celebrate raya on my own again. Haish, I started to hate raya since I was 17. I just don't like the feeling. Celebrating raya all alone. Eventhough I balik kampung but still, Abah and Mama are not there. Ayong, Ieqa, Raffy and Waffy are not there. I didn't even get the chance to salam Abah and Mama on the 1st day of raya. For almost 3 years I didn't get the chance to do that. And for those 3 years I hanya tgk my cousins buat tu. That is why I don't like to go back to my grandparents house when it comes to hari raya. But then, I still have to go back to my grandparents house or else Abah will bising2. So, in order tanak bagi Abah terasa, I have to do that eventhough it kills me to see those things. I'm not sure wether I will go back to my grandparents house or not this year. I just don't feel like going back. I just wanna stay at my house all alone. I prefer staying at my house alone rather than seeing things that will make me cry for days. Heh. People just don't understand. It is hard living a life like mine.

Enough of that I think. If I terus merepek. Sampai esok pun x habis. Okay then. I have to do some revision. There will be a quiz tomorrow. Okay then. Till next time. Bye.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

my oh my!!

shoba sent me a msg rite after our criminal class and it says;

"makcik!he lambai.he LIKE CARI U TAU.then he tanya pegi makan ke?cafe desa?

damn!!!!!!i shud hv used the same way.blame it all on this wrong timing "shi-shi."

but the phrase "he like cari u" makes me smiling all way long.

why cant u just come up to me and concede everything u need to??

stop giving me gestures, signs or anything else dat u've been doing lately.

i've got all that okay=)?

all i need is just one thing.CONFESSION.

and i wud definitely say yeah,me too!!!!!with no hesitation.

hahahahaha.

it's been only one day but i am missing my two besties, zafirah and ein already. hw i wish i could spend a little bit more time longer with them. i had a really great weekend with them.angah, thanx for comin all the way from muadzam and the same goes to ein for willing to spend ur weekend over here.but still i hvnt really got the chance to make our last holiday as awesome and superb as promised.sorry for any inconvenience ya my dear friends.abut angah, i promise dat i'l make it up to u.our nex holiday is gona be fantastic.

hana=)

Thanks for the memories.

To my dearest Hana n Shazreena, thanks for the memories. My weekend was SUPERB!! Can't thank both of u enough for these. Thanks to Hana for everything. I had a really great weekend. Sayang korg sangat2 sampai bila. Miss both of u already. And, ouh yeah Hana, I miss 'Afiq' too. =P

Ouh, before I lupa Hana, jgn lupa pasang lampu kete u if u drive malam2 eyh? Nnt u igt org nak ngorat or kacau u pulak. LOL. Just kidding. Love both of u lots n lots.

xoxo

-zafirahrosland-

YAWN!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAWN!!!!!!!!

YAWN!!!!!!!

wut a boring day.*sigh*

its only the 3rd day of the week.

there is no such specific word to describe how lame and boring the day is.

i've been yawnin in ms isabella's class n i even fell asleep in her class for the 1st time.*sigh*

am happy to know dat angah's comin over on this weekend.at least, i have one good reason not to feel bored.as i promised to angah, SEOUL'S GARDEN, LAKSA NYONYA,here we come!!!